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Thank you for all this information I didn’t know, I can now see where all the pedophile Zhang Fei jokes come from.

I’m so bored.

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Y’know, I can’t say I knew this stuff as well as Nyla.

But... I can see where her admiration shone for him. And now I can see why. 

I feel like she would’ve been the type to track him down in the afterlife or whatever and shower him with questions. Maybe she has the answers she seeks about him now. 

Maybe I should study this stuff a bit deeper...

RIP Cao Cao, Wu-di of Wei

When first I was recommended Filial and Incorrupt, I realized I had no reputation as a scholar recluse. I was afraid men would look upon me as someone of no more than ordinary ability, so I sought to make a name for myself by good work in government.

In Ji'nan, therefore, I destroyed oppression and drove out evil, and I believe that all the recommendations I made for appointment or promotion were justified. Because of this, however, I made enemies of powerful men. I was afraid I would bring misfortune to my family, and so I pleaded sick and went back home.

I was, at that, time still young. I built a fine house fifty leagues east of Qiao, and I proposed to read books in autumn and summer, and shoot and hunt in winter and spring. That was my plan for twenty years: to wait until the empire was reformed, then come out from retirement to accept some appointment.

But things did not work out that way, and I was called to the capital and appointed Colonel Who Arranges the Army. Again I changed my ideas, and now sought to work for the nation, to destroy rebels and gain some achievement. I would have had the stone tablet at the gate of my tomb inscribed with the words, ‘The former General Who Subdues the West, Marquis Cao of the Han.’ This was my whole ambition.

Then came the trouble with Dong Zhuo, and I raised loyal troops. And later I took over in Yan province; and I destroyed or brought to surrender three hundred thousand Yellow Turbans; and I attacked the rebel Yuan Shu and caused him to die poor and ruined; and I destroyed Yuan Shao and exposed the heads of his two sons; and I also dealt with Liu Biao.

So I have pacified the empire. I am the chief. I have the utmost honor a subject can hold, far beyond my former hopes. Supposing I had not been here, who can say how many men would have claimed the imperial title or how many would have sought to rule as kings?

It may be, however, that as some people see how my power has grown, and recognize that I am not the sort of man to trust indefinitely on the favor of Heaven. I am concerned lest they misjudge me, and say I have ambitions for the throne.

So I now reveal my true feelings, with words from the bottom of my heart.

On the other hand, should anyone suggest that I give up my army, hand over my power, and retire to my fief at Wuping, then that just cannot be. Quite simply, I am afraid I should be harmed as soon as I left the protection of my troops; and I want to arrange that even my children and grandchildren shall be secure.

Should I be destroyed, moreover, the whole realm will be in danger. I am not prepared to give up my life for a meaningless reputation.

All the same, at present I hold a fief of four counties with a pension from thirty thousand households; what have I done to deserve so much? Since the rivers and lake-lands of the south are not yet settled, I cannot leave my post, but I can certainly give up my cities and lands. I therefore hand back the three counties of Yangxia, Zhe and Ku, with twenty thousand households, keeping only the income from ten thousand households in Wuping. This way, I reduce opportunity for rumor and slander, and I relieve myself of some responsibilities.

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Be kind

Tomorrow it'll be two weeks since Nyla left. I... hope she's found some peace. And that everyone who hurt her... gets what they deserve, I guess. I keep seeing her in my dreams- it's the same one every night. We'll be little girls again like when we met, just playing. Then we sit down and she smiles at me and suddenly we're our current ages. Every night the conversation we have is different but she always seems happy. Sometimes I yell at her for going, sometimes I just cry in her arms, sometimes I talk with her like it's an ordinary day and she's alive.

She always tells me before I wake up to be kind. I guess... you all can take those as her last words to all of you. Be kind.

-Skye

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Nyla

She was sweet- so much so. And honestly, I'm angry too. I'm angry that this girl I grew up with- we'd been friends since we were around 8- is gone. I'm angry that this girl who baked cookies every week for her friends and saved many of her friends' lives was hurt. I'm angry that this sweet, pretty, and honest person was abused and used for sex by that good-for-nothing guy that called himself her fiance- I had known this guy since we were kids too and I never saw it coming. I had never thought he would have wanted a trophy rather than a wife. I don't know how I'll avoid punching him in the face at the funeral. I'm angry that someone who had been pushed around to do the bidding of others was used and abused by those who were supposed to love and raise her- her own parents. I'm angry that the friends I trusted to keep her safe after I moved away chose to bully her instead. I'm angry that someone with so much empathy and heart and compassion is being laid to rest with that stupid teddy bear her ex gave her when I bet anything she'd rather burn it. Actually, no- she would be too empathetic for the bear- she'd rather give it back to her fiance so he can remember how much he hurt her. She could be stubborn, and push herself too hard, and too straightforward and I'm sure somebody would've loved her for it. I loved her for it- she was my best friend. And now she's gone because the world destroyed her.

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Some news

So, um, hello. My name is Skye. A friend of Nyla, who is the admin of this blog. She entrusted me with a lot of passwords and mentioned having friends here. She told me within a note that she had been tired of being constantly abused by that stupid ex fiance of hers and her parents and tired of being bullied��by her peers who blamed her for the abuse. Forgive me for my formality, to be truthful I don't know how to feel. I lost touch with her a year or two ago and now I'm suddenly attending her funeral (not literally right now).  I'll answer any questions you may have.

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i love you guys

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lowkey kinda wanna re-buy the entire mass effect trilogy except this time on PC and then fill it with stupid mods

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According to my father (Who grew up there in this time), in like the 80s Vietnam thought he was scary- a euphemism for taking a shit was known as “being chased by Cao Cao” because that’s terrifying enough to make anyone shit and I agree

Any idea on how Cao Cao is viewed in modern China?

You’d have to ask someone from there.

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My honokiri senses are going off

Daruizen and Cure Grace in the OP

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LN spoilers

Me: Oh boy I unlocked Bobo's dream weaver i wonder what cute adventures she has

Bobo: My father got fucking shot and my mother might be dead

Me: Oh dear

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Everyone needs a break from tumblr. e v e r y o n e.

Welp. It appears my PC has finally died on me so I’ll be vanishing from here for some unknown length of time. I’ll check in on mobile but I won’t exactly be able to respond to much given that much of my sources are PDFs. 

If you want to chat you’re always free to hit me up on discord. Daolun#3554

See you Space Cowboy.

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xiao qiao looks like that cause she and her sister are in fact 16 and 17 in the gane and it makes me 😰

I know they are, which is frankly kinda gross. I mean, the ethics of putting children in a warfare scenario is bad, but also making them wives of adult men lead to some funky legal implications. 

Frankly, 9 was probably the first game to actually make Xiaoqiao look 16- in earlier games she looked maybe 13. 

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(Cries in Cai Yan)

Really dont like how expensive marriage is in Total War. I could build a small army for those prices...

If you think that’s bad, wait until you try it in real life…

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1. Remember when I wrote a whole essay about Cai Yan? Yeah.

https://isangstyfluffathing.tumblr.com/post/189576058151/so-cai-yan-whats-up-with-her-so-cai-yan-who#notes

2. Not one particular person so much as I just want the birth and death years of a ton of people so I don't have to get confused when I write historical fiction or play DW.

3. Y u J i n

4. I admit that my area of experience is the people themselves so I actually have pretty little knowledge of most of the time periods, if that makes any sense. I'm no scholar like y'all. I wanna learn e v e r y t h i n g

General curiosity thing, humor me. 

Who is your favorite historical figure from the Three Kingdoms era?

Is there a person you want to know more about?

Is there a person you feel deserves more of a spotlight?

Is there any particular period in the Three Kingdoms era you want to know more about?

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request for @radicles

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Is this cursed or blessed

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I open tumblr expecting 3k and instead I get chicken fucking

Note: you should not fuck a chicken.

Jokes on you, it’s opposite day!