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guess who’s free come Monday??? 👀👀👀

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HIS HAT SHADOWS HIS EYES, DRIPPING over him like a blanket in the cold of a summer night, wind for miles keeping the chill. But it doesn’t hide the smile at the corners of his lips, peeled back and bitter. He’s got one hand still clenched but the other is gripping the railing like he just might fall down.

Kai doesn’t deserve the anger seeping through his pores, he shouldn’t have to see him like this.

But he is.

❝ Sometimes it’s the best way. Feel like I shoved it deep enough. ❞ Softer tone. ❝ Wrong, ain’t I? ❞ Finally, he’s looking. Brows knit. ❝ Made yuh leave your drink. ❞

@ischaron continued from here.

Kai doesn't exactly not believe the words. It's more that he's trying to convince himself. Better that than ... whatever else he might turn into, if he didn't believe them at least a little bit.

He doesn't know what's got Rian hesitating, anger emanating from him like heat off a fresh cup of tea. Some far off memory probably. Kai can relate, much as he might not want to admit it.

❝ Nah, don't apologize. ❞ He shrugs, leaning his back against the railing next to the other man. Head falls back so he stares up at the ceiling, silver charm dangling down over nothing. ❝ No use shoving that shit down. ❞ ( Bit ironic … )

[ischaron]

Joy Sullivan, from Instructions for Traveling West: Poems; “Instructions for Traveling West”

[Text ID: “you’re homesick / for all the lives / you’re not living.”]

[ischaron]

Taylor Zakhar Perez & Dakota, lol

[ischaron]

[ TEXT ] : I think so. Got a big life ahead of ‘em.

[ TEXT ] : Plus look at this face!

[ TEXT ] : ( pic of their faces smushed together)

@unlore

[ TEXT ] : pretty fucked up man. damn

[ TEXT ] : dusty is pretty cute. is cute what ur going for

[ischaron]

[ischaron]

What kind of person are you attracted to?

someone who is violent and obsessed with me

[ischaron]

🫠 I’ll be back soon I miss writing SO MUCH

[ischaron]

Wishing that I was a twink in an 80s porno rn

[ischaron]

shit’s exploded at work. as usual.

I’m putting in my two weeks. they can find someone else stupid enough to run that shit.

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‘ Anger is a memory never forgotten. You only tame it. ’

EXCEPT HE HASN’T TAMED IT. IT boils under his skin every time the cowboy thinks of it, every time he sees someone else exhibiting those same behaviors. His jaw clenches, his hands are still balled in fists even though he’s leaning over the edge of the stair railing and far away from the mess.

He wants to laugh, but the sound is bitter and everything else seems to squelch under his feet. Rian looks at Kai, and for a second everything melts away. His hands relax, fingers stretching.

❝ Sorry. ❞ He offers a sad smile. ❝ Ain’t good at takin’ five seconds t’calm down mos’ days. Did I ruin y’night? ❞

[ischaron]

RING FOR SEX

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[ischaron]

[ TEXT ] : Since a while darlin

[ TEXT ] : That’s why the boys have been checking the field so often.

[ TEXT ] : Thinking about naming him Dusty

[ TEXT ] : wtf. where did that come from

[ TEXT ] : like i know where. shut up. but

[ TEXT ] : since when were your cows PREGNANT

[ischaron]

when you get 8 hours of sleep 😭

[ischaron]

going to be revamping like a TINY bit 👀

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