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when I was a kid I had a debilitating fear of spiders, and I’d get my dad to kill them. but eventually I realized that that wasn’t in line with my values and only made me more scared. now there’s still some fear, but my commitment to protecting life is stronger than my fear

this isn’t necessarily a metaphor for anything bigger, I was just thinking about it

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hey bro can i ask you a question that will reveal a deep and fundamental gap in my knowledge of the world

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"But you used to be this, you used to be that."

Yeah, and I used to be so miserable within my own life and the world that consumed it. I used to feel that the only way to be loved was to compromise who I was, what I wanted and needed. I used to wake up every day feeling as though I only existed for what I could provide out of my own comfort zone. I used to hide in cowardice instead of speak up for myself and many things I believed in.

And most of all, I used to let all of these things pile upon me until I only existed outside my own mind as a mask that was created by what others wanted me to be.

I didn't actually used to be such a different person at all. It's just that you never liked who I actually was.

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getting back into the swing of drawing with some pokemon card art of the @bughuntermusic gang. art without card overlays below

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One time a guy came up behind me at a little party event and grabbed my ass and my instant response was to turn to look at him and say "you're a disappointment."

And idk why that worked, but I've never seen a creep question everything so fast.

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can I hold you gently between my teeth

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My favorite banned terms on this site are "suicide prevention" and "safe sex"

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I love going back to see what I messaged my sister while overly tired bc she is so fucking blessed to have me tbfh

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The feminine urge to dance around a grocery store exactly like Tessa Violet in her Crush music video whenever I catch feelings for someone

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*Coughs until something pink comes out* My pink 😟

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I constantly see "to be known is to be loved" used with the cute things. Like remembering your favourite colour, or how you like your tea.

But lately I've been processing just how wide of a scope that really is.

To be known is to have your friends prepare a towel and time for you to shower because they know you get the big ick and can't sleep without that. To be known is to have a friend ask if you have spare chapstick they can keep because you mentioned exactly once that you have kept it on you constantly since you were twelve. To be known is to have a friend go out hunting for lemonade for you because they somehow know that will help your spiral, and bring back multiple options. To be known is to have a friend make a friendship bracelet for your plushie instead of you. To be known is to see your friend leave an even count of something because they know how you feel about odd numbers. To be known is to be reassured without prompt because they know how your brain spirals out.

To be known, loved, has such a wide scope beyond favours, or simply knowing your tastes. To be known within all your cracks and folds and have them treated as features rather than inconvenience, that's the loudest way I've ever been loved.

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Bug when you decide to describe someone sliding their fingers between our toes:

My favourite part of a tNC set is when Matt interrupts their own song to go on a monologue describing their personal ao3 fanfic smut about cthulhu that's 3x as long as the song itself, just to get us to scream about swallowing balls even louder

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maybe i like my tech a little bit inconvenient

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Casually checking out all the new notes on my post about swallowing balls whilst sitting on a plane next to a nun reading her bible sounds so fake but here I am

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this was your time in milwaukee the prior night, thankfully coin took inspiration the next night to track the two bonus minutes of you being horny as fuck live on stage

My favourite part of a tNC set is when Matt interrupts their own song to go on a monologue describing their personal ao3 fanfic smut about cthulhu that's 3x as long as the song itself, just to get us to scream about swallowing balls even louder

[iseetheisland]

My favourite part of a tNC set is when Matt interrupts their own song to go on a monologue describing their personal ao3 fanfic smut about cthulhu that's 3x as long as the song itself, just to get us to scream about swallowing balls even louder

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Calmly muting the call with my peacefully sleeping best friend, stepping away to scream into a pillow for five minutes until my lungs break, then calmly putting my headset back on to gently ensure I didn't accidentally wake him