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The ground is falling in on itself

As grown men stomp around

The women standing there

too scared to make a sound

"It's not all men" says the earth

They're just showing that they're proud

"Proud of what" says a little voice

"Destroying all our land?"

"Quieting our voices when we speak too loud"

She tells them what is happening

But the men dont care

Our homes sinking in a hole

Our women in despair

For we have no voice we have no say

We just have to watch as our world goes away

But that's not true

It's not to late

We can join together to voice

"It is all men!"

Because our life's are at stake!

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I wouldn't lie for you again

I wouldn't die for you

I barely even got through you

I finally couldn't take it any longer

crying my eyes out made me feel so somber

And that was it, I was done.

that whole time wasted, has made me numb.

And I regret, cause I have so much love.

and i gave it to the devils son

You don't care, it's just manipulation.

When I was scared, cause you couldn't take it.

who does that? Who does that?

Love cant do that!

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I wish you would and you didn't

I wish you wouldnt and you did

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Sky blue

Were are all the clouds? its just sky blue.

I miss my hair blowing in the wind, I liked the way we laughed at nothing, but you never liked the walk and you barely tried to talk. I didn't see it, my love was blind I did not mean to waste your time, now I feel like you wasted mine.

Do you think the sky knows my pain, cause everyday this week all I got was rain. Walking on the grass waiting for the sun crunching all the leaves that came down in the storm. Never looking back cause now I'm moving on. Everything that hurt me has now made me strong

Sure ill miss you but i forgive you

The sky's never looked so blue

[itdoesntevenmatteranymore]

Don't look in the wardrobe

Don't look under your bed

I know where the monsters are

They're all in your head

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Don't be an insecure crack in the wall

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Shatter my heart like broken glass

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Natural disaster

Feel like Im stuck in a sunami

walking on the edge of a landslide

A hurricane going through my brain

No I'm not feeling fine

I didn't expect it to go this way

like the aftermath of an earthquack

How can someone drown In a draught

To stay now would be a mistake

Kill me with kindness I'd like it better

I don't know about you but I can't live this way forever

Forget me, forget me not

Its not healthy to stay in one spot

Even if you try and fail

There's still time to find the holy grail

Why live to die when you can die to live

I want all the world can give   

I refuse to die until Im free

I want all the world can give me

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Self love chronicals 2020

I need friends, not lovers.

If you can't be my friend you're not going to be my lover.

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I've hated myself for so long

Now when people compliment me I just agree with them

I hate it when they act shocked

It says alot about society and how we as humans shouldn't feel worthy or empowered

Why shouldn't I like myself?

I have no more time for bullshit I'm heading into my 30s

I love who I'm becoming!

"what do you want to be when you grow up"...... It was all bullshit and it doesn't matter if I have a job or am in between jobs or if I am single or if I have a partner

I honestly have no idea where I'm at

and again it doesn't matter!

I'm not anything like who I pictured when I was a teen and I'm so grateful for every experience that led me in this new direction because I know now I would of hated anything else.

As soon as covid is over I'm gonna finally do the one thing I was terrified to do before covid

I'm going to travel solo around Europe and SE Asia and be confident doing so

Lots of love to you all

[itdoesntevenmatteranymore]

I don't need to find the one I am the one, you need to find me.

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Welcome to the sad girls club

Population most of us

It can be bad sometimes

it's can be a drag you'll find

Opinions aren't worth your time

Welcome to the club

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It turns out just because someone says they love you doesn't mean they do.

It turns out just because you love someone doesn't mean you should continue trying with them.

It turns out I'm stronger than I thought

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How long am I suppose to wait? I'm very impatient and I overthink way too much for this. Am I meant to move on? someone answer me!

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I'm a little annoyed the decisions I'm making aren't helping me grow as a person

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You helped me grow last year

And I thank you for that

but your lack of care is obvious and I deserve so much better

So Im taking a break from us for a while

I refuse to cry over someone who won't cry over me

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Cut me and I no longer bleed

I've bled enough

It took me so long to see

How embarrassing

For you not for me

Your loves a joke

And finally im free

I'm no longer in pain

It took so long

It's such a shame

How i let you shout my name

in that way

And I said that it's ok

When you appoligise everyday

Why so frequent

Give it up

I'm not doing this anymore

with you

Same old shit

nothing new

Forgot

What you did to me

did you

Just stop

give up like I do you

Play your games

You can call me a master

Now it's my turn

I hope you learn faster

Stop calling me up

I don't give in to pitty

Remember when you said

crying makes you look shitty

Hipocracy is salty

Tastes like sweet revenge