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REMEMBER THAT TIME

I forgot there was Tumblr and then I logged back in and found a bunch of strange beauty tutorials that I made my first year out of college when I was clearly SUPER FUCKING LONELY and here I am three years later watching all of them like... woah. Also my bio is still edited from the time when my ex logged into my account and added a sentence about me lacking empathy which is STILL SO TRUE?!?!?! Remember?!?!?! Anyways all this to say maybs I’m back on Tumblr...? Oh god. f

Tumblr is still like a private diary that only I can see, right? 

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How did my audition go?

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psyched

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Mental Disorders Seen As Minimal Design Posters

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My mom rules.

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personality test: complete the following lyric

WE'RE GOING DOWN ____

1: DOWN IN AN EARLIER ROUND

2: IM YELLING TIMBER

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Here is it. I've been waiting tables and complaining about not using my brain all year. But auditioning, and networking, making connections and doing work in my industry that I'm proud of. Not much money there. Not yet. Now I have an opportunity for a job that uses my brain, and a mentor that sees potential in me... In the corporate world. It's passion versus finance. Do I give up a year of doing what I love to pay the bills? Is that time that I have? Will I get sucked too far in and end up missing out on a break in the industry I want to be in, while working in an industry that I'm good at and pays me well, but doesn't fulfill me? I wish I could flash forward five years in both directions, but that's a technology we don't have yet, I guess.

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Had a vivid memory today of when my best friend moved to Australia. She called me on a phone from the airport and we chatted for a bit, much shorter than our usual 4-hour long marathon calls every day after school. When she said goodbye I had a STRONG impulse to say "I love you," but I didn't know if that was weird or something you could say to your friends. I guess I didn't grow up in a family that said I love you very much. It isn't that there wasn't love there, I just had the impression in about 2nd or 3rd grade that "I love you" was reserved for romantic love.

In any case I remember feeling that impulse, and feeling really cry-ey, and hanging up the phone. Then she moved for a year and when she came back we weren't friends anymore.

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OTHER CHICKEN: Can I get in on this? ... or nawww...?

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Revised Tube etiquette posters.

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Svetlana Zakharova as Odile in Nureyev’s Swan Lake in Vienna

Photo by Vienna State Opera/Michael Pöhn

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Easily forgotten funniest lines of Glee.  Part 2 of I have no idea

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