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[its-nebula]

Hello my lovelies.

I haven't abandoned you all but I must explain my reason for absence.

Recently I got diagnosed with Depression, General Anxiety, and Social Anxiety, and they were pretty damn high (98-99). Let's just say a LOT has happened since I was last fully active and it's taken a toll on my motivation and ability to write. The ex that I've talked about before briefly came back into the picture and chaos ensued among everybody that's close to me because of it. Maybe in the future I will go into more detail, but for now, just know it got very ugly very fast.

Good news that I don't think I told, I have a boyfriend now, and he is just lovely and very understanding. No, this doesn't affect my writing, but it's something positive I thought I would share. Oh, and I'm 3 days away from completing my first semester at college, so that is an acheivement as well, even though lowkey it's been kicking my ass.

One more thing, I'm slowly working on rebranding into a red/orange theme, so don't be alarmed when you see it. Thank you for reading my lovelies, and the plan is to get back into the grind over winter break, so stay tuned! 💙

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Pain

Warning: Spoilers for DRV3, Angst, Violence

Hi my lovelies. Yes, I know I've been gone for a long time, and I've actually wanted to come back for a while, but everytime I tried to write I just got nothing but major major writer's block because that second semester of school was just not it at alllllllllll...

BUT THEN

I was rewatching the 4th trial of DRV3 today and every single time it makes me want to cry... and as I went to work this idea popped up in my head and literally the whole time I was just thinking of it so I knew it was a sign to make a comeback. This wasn't one of my requests, and I don't know how long or short this will be, so all of this writing will be from the heart.

So without further ado...

"Gonta.. idiot!"

The tears wouldn't stop falling down your face. The world around you seemed to spin in circles, and you weren't talking about the trial grounds. You felt as if you wanted to puke, as if you wanted to scream and throw something at that maniacal demon bear who was sitting on his throne-like chair... but all you could do was try not to cry. You had to be strong. You had to... for him. It couldn't be anybody else, no matter how hard you, or Shuichi, or anyone else in the room tried to make a different reality. For once, you hoped, and you prayed to whoever you believed in, that Monokuma would say that everyone guessed incorrectly-- even if it meant sacrificing yourself. In fact, you still voted for Kokichi, knowing full well who it was.

Some brotherly love, huh?

You could feel a physical pain in your chest as Monokuma announced that the majority had guessed correctly. It was like you could feel what was left of your heart fracturing into pieces, slowly sinking into your stomach. But why? Why would Gonta, the man who you grew to love, the one who kept you safe in this hellish killing game, the person who you were sure you would survive with-- why would he kill Miu Iruma, the self-proclaimed "gorgeous girl genius"? As you thought about it, there could only be one explanation.

"Kokichi Oma. What. Did. You. Do."

"Wow, the class trial is over and you people are still blam-" You cut him off by raising your voice.

"What. The hell. Did. You. Do."

"Y/N... please no yell at Kokichi... yell at Gonta."

"No, Gonta! No!" You could barely talk through your sobs as you turned around to face your boyfriend, though you could barely look him the eyes. Not only because he had killed a friend, but also for the fact that you knew in just a few minutes, he would be...

You couldn't even bring yourself to think of it, instead focusing all your anger and sadness on your brother.

You pointed a finger in his chest, and he gasped, never recalling seeing you like this.

"I'll ask you one more time. What the hell did you do? Why would you do this/ I know you had something to do with this whole thing. Answer me NOW-"

"I think I might have a solution!" Monokuma butted in your conversation. You watched as he built Gonta's Alter Ego, mesmerized. Apparently, it kept Gonta's memory from the virtual world. You and everyone else watched intently as the Alter Ego, as well as Kokichi, explained the story.

After that was over, you swallowed the lump in your throat. You knew there had to be a reason. All he wanted to do was help, and it all failed. Your poor, poor gentle giant of a boyfriend...

You hugged him tightly, sobbing as he held you close. He held onto you as well, barely able to make out any words.

"Gonta... Gonta love Y/N with all his heart..." he choked out, pulling you in tighter.

"I love you too Gonta... so, so, soooo much." The pain in your chest burned like a hundred suns.

Everyone went in for a group hug, and of course your brother decided to open his mouth once more.

"If you're gonna execute Gonta, you have to do it to me too! Please!"

That did it for you. All your sadness was very wuickly transformed into rage.

"Enough with your fake sadness bullshit, Kichi! I'be had enough! This is all your fault, you selfish little brat! I hate you, I never want to see your face again!" You breathing got heavy and your throat was sore as you screamed into his face, jabbing a finger in his tiny chest. He seemed unfazed by your words, until you uttered one last line.

"I hope you die next."

He stared blankly for a second, but his expression darkened. Not saying a word, he turned around and walked out of the courtroom, not even bothering to wipe the tears that clouded his vision.

"Is... Y/N going to be okay without Gonta?"

"I'll be strong for both of us." You mumbled, turning to face him one last time. The two of you compared hand sizes and smiled sadly at the other. You saw the chain wrap around Gonta's neck, and looked at Monokuma.

"Enough of the sappy mess! It's PUNISHMENT TIME!"

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I love your writing sm :’)

Thank you darling! 💙

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OH MY GOD YOU'RE BACK! HI NEBULA! - Milk anon

HI MILK ANON 💙💙💙

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YAY YOU'RE BACK!!

YAY HI HI HI HI 💙

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WOOOOOOOOOO NEBULAAAAAAA

WHAT'S UP LOVELY 💙💙💙💙💙

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AUNTIE NEBULA YOU’RE BACK!!! HOLY COW HOW HAVE YOU BEEN??!! -🍀

YOOOOOO Y'ALL STILL HERE???

I thought y'all would've abandoned me bye 😭

BUT SINCE I GRADUATED I'VE BEEN PRETTY GOOD HOW HAVE Y'ALL BEEN DOING? HOW ARE YOU 🍀 ANON?? 💙

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AUNTIE NEB! IT'S ME, NOIRE!

HOW IS IT GOING FRIEND YOUR ACC CHANGED SM OML 💙

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long time no see, my lovelies. 💙

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yeah i can relate, school work during quarantine sucks ASS because teachers think you have all the tike in the world after school when you have other things to do. I'm glad that you're ok though!! please don't stress yourself out with the requests, and be sure to take lots of rest because really you're human too ^^; <3

- 💫 anon

Thank you very much for the support 💫 anon! I promise I'll get back in the swing of things, I quite miss writing... it's time to make a comeback.

As for the schoolwork, in the words of our dear friend Himiko....

What a pain....

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Hey Aunt Neb, if you don't mind me asking, how do you get so many requests?

You're super friendly and a really good writer so obviously a lot of people want to request, but I've noticed some recent blogs getting a bunch too and I was wondering if there's something else to it..?

If I'm being completely 100000% honest... I have no idea! I apologize, I wish Auntie Neb had a better answer for you, but I'm honestly shocked people want to read anything written by me in the first place to be completely honest.

If I had to guess, there's been a very large influx of Dangan blogs over the past 6 or so months, which means more readers, ergo more requests. It honestly helps if you build a connection with your audience as well, because they will talk to you more and be more comfortable requesting! 💙

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Haiiiiiirrrrrryyyyyyy penissssss

I- no comment. 💙

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I adore your writing💖 You're the kind of writer that makes me come back to fanfiction every time✨✨

YOU my dear reader, are an amazing person and I hope you have an AMAZING life. 💙💙💙💙💙

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Hello! Can I be 🌻anon? Please and thank you!

*2 weeks later*

Of course you can my lovely!! Welcome to the party!!! 💙

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🖌️ Are we still allowed to send you the silly things we use to or should we wait until you deal with the ones you already have? I don't wanna overwhelm you!

Thank you for asking, my dear 🖌 anon, happy to be talking to you again by the way! Yes, I have a LOT of messages to go through, but as soon as I get done we can get back to sending in the good stuff 🥰💙

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I suppose I have some 'splainin to do 😅

My lovelies! I am okay! I have gotten all your messages, I've read through them, yes Auntie Nebula is still here and did not die!!! Thank you for all your concern, to be honest, I didn't even think anybody would miss me even a little bit on here but I was proven incorrect.

I want to greatly apologize for my sudden absence. I should state that no, I haven't lost my interest for Danganronpa and yes, I'm still doing these requests and running this here blog. I thought I would lose followers but i gained 30????

I have 2 main reasons for my disappearance, but the big thing is mental health. Senior year is kicking my ASS like I don't know how these teachers think it's okay to assign this much work??? I'm about to graduate so can all of you PLEASE get off my case? I was really really overwhelmed with work when i left lmao because I kept putting it off. The second reason is because... my ex came back once again... and we got into it... and for the past 2 weeks he's been trying and begging to earn my attention and forgiveness even though I tell him time and time again that he can't erase the damage he's already done.

So yeah thise 2 things combined just kinda made me upset and overwhelmed and stressed and I didn't want to project that onto my tumblr family. But I'm back now, I pinky promise! Your regularly scheduled programming will resume tomorrow. Again, thank you for your concern about me; I legitimately didn't think anyone would notice my absence at all, and I'm glad to know someone cares. You are seen, you are appreciated, and I love you all. 💙

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(🖌️ Kazuichi and Blind S/O. Killing Game)

Kazuichi: *Taking a walk around the beach at sunset, feeling the sand on his bare feet just taking a human moment for a bit to not think about this horrible game. Notices S/O standing at the shoreline, water going over her feet as she stands there. He watches her for a moment, taking in how pretty she looks* Hey you.

S/O: Kazuichi? What are you doing out here? It's getting dark. *Feels his hand on her arm before letting go to let her know how close he's standing*

Kazuichi: I could ask you the same thing, it's probably not a good idea to be out here alone like this... Also how did you know it was getting dark?

S/O: I can still feel the sun's heat ever so slightly on my skin. *Reaches out and holds his hand* I'm out here because I wanted to escape for a bit.. pretend I was just on vacation on the beach.. Even if for a little while, just pretend.

Kazuichi: Ditto.. *Feels the waves over his feet and looks down at her "She's so fragile.. yet she's perfectly capable of a lotta things. I feel awful thinking I need to protect her all the time but.." * Hey S/O? I was thinking.. O-Obviously you can say no so don't feel like I'm pressuring you at all but.. I was thinking, do you want to spend the time here together.. in my room? I-I don't want you to take it as a weird way! I-I'm not a pervert.. kinda- BUT I just want to.. keep you safe..

S/O: *Snakes her arms around his arm and hugs him, giggling a little as she rests her head on his shoulder* I appreciate what you're trying to say. I know I'm blind and that probably makes me an easy target right?...

Kazuichi: *Sighs and rests his head on hers* Yeah kinda.. I know you wanted to pretend to not be here but the reality of it is that you are a pretty easy target Doll..

S/O: I appreciate your honesty.. *She let's go of his arm and turns to be facing him, reaching up to hold his face which he happily helps with* Just.. answer me one question and that will make up my decision if I stay in your room or not...

Kazuichi: *Holds her hands to his kisses and looks at her face, even though she can't see his expression it's one of sincerity* Of course. Anything for you.

S/O: *Smirks* Are you okay with the fact I sleep naked?~

Kazuichi: *Blushing hard* W-What kind of question was that?! Why'd you ask it so smug like that S/O?!

S/O: Haha! I'm sorry! I couldn't help it, I felt your face heat up and your heartbeat quicken! You thought I was gunna be all serious! *Hugs him close* I was gunna say yes regardless. And don't worry I don't sleep naked, you dork.

Mmmmmm I'm starting to find them really cute HELP 💙