ivynightshade

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fatima aamer bilal, from we were put on this earth desperate, hungry and willing.

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-fatima aamer bilal, from days where my whole world is my bed.

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notice

as of today, this account is no longer active. it was originally created to share poetry, and while that purpose has come to an end, the posts will remain available for anyone who may wish to read them.

you are, of course, welcome to unfollow if it’s no longer relevant to you.

thank you for your time and interest over the years.

[ivynightshade]

fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘a dead leaf of a sick branch of a rotting tree’.

[text id: i am running out of metaphors / to hide this sickness in]

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i wish to be the sun by fatima aamer bilal for Connor Bedard and Alexander Ovechkin

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Fatima Aamer Bilal, coffin heart? bury me.

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘i am an observer, but not by choice.’

[text id: i often asked myself / do i want love / or do i want proof that i am loveable?]

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— fatima aamer bilal, from being unwanted is a language

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excerpt from fatima aamer bilal’s moony moonless sky.

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s i know fire like i know my home; they burn the same.

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fatima aamer bilal, from hungry thread of nerves.

[text id: in the garden of this tomb, i lay my soul. your altar, only, is my house of god.]

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fatima aamer bilal, from ‘all hunger is, is love’.

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WHEN YOU ARE BORN NOTHING, YOU SPEND YOUR WHOLE LIFE TRYING TO BE EVERYTHING

(until you don't even know who you used to be)

@ivynightshade your poems are always so inspirational and beautifully heartbreaking, thank you for sharing them <3 i love to make taylor web weaves out of them

sources under the cut

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Heartbreak Is The National Anthem, Rob Sheffield

https://pagesix.com/article/taylor-swift-style-eras-fashion-evolution/

Blank Space by Taylor Swift

mirrorball by Taylor Swift

https://www.mojo4music.com/articles/stories/taylor-swift-an-artist-and-songwriter-to-shape-the-next-30-years/

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you have always been a performer, never just a person.’ by fatima aamer bilal

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Clara Bow by Taylor Swift

Dear Reader by Taylor Swift

https://time.com/7199590/taylor-swift-eras-tour-final-numbers/

https://www.newyorker.com/podcast/critics-at-large/taylor-swift-is-everywhere-all-at-once

The Eras Tour, Red Era

this is me trying by Taylor Swift

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Look What You Made Me Do Music Video

Castles Crumbling by Taylor Swift (feat. Paramore)

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift

Anti-Hero Music Video

How We Fight For Our Lives, Saeed Jones

Anti-Hero by Taylor Swift

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Fearless Tour vs. The Eras Tour

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Look What You Made Me Do Music Video

Taylor on "I'm sorry, the old Taylor can't come to the phone right now. Why? Oh, cause she's dead"

Wood Working at the End of the World, and: The Last Prom Queen in Antarctica, Ocean Vuong

Margaux I Paul

No Light, No Light by Florence + The Machine

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Cover Artwork for folklore and evermore

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

Portrait of a Boy with Grief, Wale Ayinla

Google Search Results for "Taylor Swift Breakup Songs"

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

tolerate it by Taylor Swift

Eras Tour Performance of The Smallest Man Who Ever Lived

Osamu Dazai

Olivia, Dorothy Strachey

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

The Alcott by The National (feat. Taylor Swift)

right where you left me by Taylor Swift

Bigger Than The Whole Sky by Taylor Swift

Hits Different by Taylor Swift

Who's Afraid Of Little Old Me? by Taylor Swift

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

I Can Do It With A Broken Heart by Taylor Swift

Clara Bow by Taylor Swift

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you have always been a performer, never just a person.’ by fatima aamer bilal

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

The Lucky One by Taylor Swift

I Know Places by Taylor Swift

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you have always been a performer, never just a person.’ by fatima aamer bilal

The Bolter by Taylor Swift

Paper Doll by John Mayer

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

High Infidelity by Taylor Swift

Would've, Could've, Should've by Taylor Swift

War of the Foxes, Richard Siken

Taylor on Anti-Hero

excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘you must burn.’ by fatima aamer bilal

mirrorball by Taylor Swift

Clara Bow by Taylor Swift

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘when god pottered hand i. your dishwasher is empty.’

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s i can't be loved, swallowed or digested. must i make myself smaller?

this thought was unceasing: somewhere must be home. / the spine-folding need to belong was woven into my skin. no amount of clawing could ever get it out. / it scared me that even at my very best, i wouldn’t be able to stop myself from being fond of the tearing. isn’t mauling touch? / the warmth of a hand close to you, right before it tears you apart, is something. / you’re always welcome in my kitchen. / i store all the love in my flesh. won’t you take a bite? / skin me to my last bone, draw out the marrow till it is gone. / (save me from my heritage. i wonder if violence is all i have inherited?) / i am not beautiful like a pomegranate, but i could be. skin is skin; all that it hides was never pretty, so don’t worry about getting your hands bloody. / i had seen it firsthand with the people around me: it was safe to think that if jay wasn’t bleeding to death, he would have tried his absolute best to be friends with the knife jabbed in his back. / how we become a vessel of need was beyond me. "let me be of service," i say to everything in particular. / i always keep band-aids in my bag, just in case someone needs them. / actually, to be called upon. to hear my name softly. to be needed. to be required. to be wanted. / wasn’t i just praying on others to get hurt so that they could need me? / might as well be the sharp object that hurt them in the first place. / but i can’t be helped. i hang from every word of affirmation with a rope around my neck.

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fatima aamer bilal, excerpt from moony moonless sky’s ‘my body is a slaughterhouse’.

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because what's worse than knowing you want something, besides knowing you can never have it?

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