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I'm an atheist, but every Sunday I still go to mass and there is a part of mass where you shake hands with people around you and during winter or just in general when there is cold weather I intentionally keep my right hand warm so I can give warm handshakes because every time my mom and dad laugh that I have the warmest hands and it feels so nice and I don't even know why I'm crying right now

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On C!Tommy and grief and moving on

i. @vividlyv1nnie // ii. @greelin // iii. Everything Stays, Adventure Time // iv. @incendavery // v. @bongwalter10 // vi. The Orange, Wendy Cope // vii. When the Ghosts Come Ashore, Jacqui Germain

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talia, my darling

(done on ibispaint x - my first ride the cyclone fanart)

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haiku I had to write for my English class (used syllable counter for this because I am not smart)

mind is occupied

by many different things

but not mine, I'm dumb

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I have such a profound love for fanfiction names, especially dsmp ones. I'm reading "that's, like, a hundred miles" and I was looking at the title and almost started crying because yeah, it was almost a hundred miles. It just fits so well. Or there is this one series that is called "a wilderness you kinda miss" (I love this shit so much, it's like my addiction) and like yeah I agree I do kinda miss it. I don't know what it is exactly but when I read the title I had this sort of weird understanding of what it said. Or my god there is this one hibernation fic "Throw walls into the fireplace" and bro, it's so good and the title fits so well. It all makes me so emotional and I don't know why. It just all fits so well just like jigsaw puzzles and it hurts on a different level

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“Maybe there is something out there, Something that explains why you still went looking for me through all of this noise. And why, no matter what, I still want to be here with you. I will always, always, want to be here with you.”

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i can't even start to comprehend how lonely ctommy must've felt in exile. completely abandoned by everyone he knew, left to rot, haunted by a ghost of his brother (and lmanburg), harassed by his biggest nightmare. and honestly when i think about it, it makes so much sense for him to start obsessing over his relationship with cdream, because i personally try to reach out to everyone when i feel lonely, even if i know they don't like me or they are bad for me. but what i feel strongly about is that he really did it, he did reach out and had a relationship with cdream, because i would never, i hate the feeling of desperation, it makes me feel ashamed. and ctommy, a person with a big ego, threw these feelings away and just acted on his desperation makes me feel kinda icky

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unfortunately the best advice i can give to everyone bad at fishing in stardew valley is that you just need to get good at fishing in stardew valley

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Teyvat's "Most Down Bad" Award Goes to Alhaitham for a Second Year Running

Seeing everyone making fun of Alhaitham for his "stalkerish" tendencies in this event is funny, because I feel like a lot of people missed that "Be literally everywhere Kaveh is" has been Alhaitham's MO from the day Kaveh appeared in the game.

From only grabbing his house keys after Kaveh returned from the desert (he couldn't have had both sets of keys at the end of the Archon Quest unless he went home and got Kaveh's copy) to ditching conversations to get back to his house only after Kaveh came home, to showing up without any warning or explanation in Kaveh's hangout with some ridiculous excuse about hearing his voice through noise-cancelling headphones... Refusing to offer any help in the Temple of Silence story quest other than staying in the library with Kaveh...

Since when does Alhaitham willingly cover anyone else's duties?

But this trend of "Be everywhere Kaveh is" didn't start when they were adults. It was already in place when they were still Akademiya students--and it's a trend that didn't end even when they had their fight.

Even when they weren't speaking, Alhaitham dogged Kaveh's every step through published responses to Kaveh's research articles in academic journals. He insisted on keeping a line of communication between himself and Kaveh open, even if the only way to do that was through very public ideological clashes. Pulling Kaveh's pigtails to get his attention lolol. It's implied that, for at least the few years between their fight and Kaveh moving in, this was the only communication between them--Alhaitham's refusal to allow their connection to entirely fade away. (And the fact that this is revealed in Kaveh's character stories--through his precious journal that records the moments of his life that had the most impact on him--shows just how deeply he values the fact that Alhaitham didn't give up.)

Another relevant side note: Alhaitham never asked Kaveh to give up his half of their house. Knowing half of it belonged to Kaveh, knowing that Kaveh may one day want to reclaim his part of it, knowing that it was listed as theirs, Alhaitham moved into the house and made zero effort to change its ownership. He was completely fine with living in "his and Kaveh's house." The stories suggest it was only months later (or even longer) that Kaveh even noticed he had the house, and he transferred away ownership of his portion without Alhaitham ever asking him (or even seemingly wanting him) to do so.

Please, let that sink in. Alhaitham actively left his grandmother's (presumably comfortable) house to move into "his and Kaveh's house," with no apparent explanation for why, and after doing so, he made no attempt to change that "his and Kaveh's" label. He moved into the house with no promise that Kaveh wouldn't show up on the doorstep the very next day and move in too. It almost feels like another deliberate provocation--I've moved into our house, are you going to come stop me? LBR, if Alhaitham had had his way, Kaveh would have been living there with him from Day 1...

There's also the fact that Kaveh literally can't write on a single message board anywhere in the entire nation of Sumeru without Alhaitham hunting his messages down and responding to them (which absolutely no one else does, by the way).

"NUH-UH!" "UH-HUH." "NUH-UH!"

Alhaitham's own character stories tell us explicitly that one of Alhaitham's defining character traits is "He is never where you need him to be," yet somehow...

Shot, and chaser:

Any time Kaveh is in the slightest bit of need or danger or just wants Alhaitham near, Alhaitham is "coincidentally" exactly where Kaveh needs him to be, whenever Kaveh needs him to be there.

Alhaitham didn't just "happen" to run into Kaveh in Port Ormos, an entirely different city from where he was supposed to be working. He didn't just "happen" to read the same terrible book as Kaveh when we know he otherwise would not waste a moment of his time on poorly-written literature...

He didn't just "happen" to appear when Kaveh was upset and needed a distraction in the House of Daena during Kaveh's hangout. He didn't just "happen" to be sitting around waiting when Kaveh needed answers after the Archon Quest. He didn't just "happen" to find Kaveh's academic publications and every single message board posting and respond to them at length and in public.

Which is exactly what Kaveh's mother told Kaveh he needed.

What level of down bad is "Abusing your powers as an Akademiya employee to keep tabs on your crush's library loans"? Just asking for a friend.

The only person for whom Alhaitham just "happens" to be available is Kaveh, over and over and over again--because he is very deliberately making himself a constant presence in Kaveh's life.

(Like, out of all things, I think people really underestimate the devs deliberately paralleling the romantic relationship between Kaveh's mother and father with Kaveh and Alhaitham's relationship. If you want to point to one thing that says "These two characters are intentionally queer-coded," it doesn't get any more obvious than this.)

Alhaitham, are you not embarrassed to be this transparent??? 🫣

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haikyuu percy jackson au????? where different cabins are different teams and percy just takes them all by himself lololol

combine your first real fandom with your current one to create a terrible, terrible au

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I love Casey from New Amsterdam. He is my favorite character. Casey “why doesn’t anyone say good morning anymore?” Casey. Casey “you think cops make trans people feel safe?” Casey. Casey who after having a conversation with Lauren’s Mom, straight up tells her that he doesn’t know her mom. Because he’s helping plan a surprise party. Casey who’s nice and sweet and cares about people. But also doesn’t do stupid shit. He’s strong and quiet and soft. He brought Lauren coffee in the morning when she was having a hard time. He tackled a guy in the ED. I love him. He is sunshine to me.

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gotta give it to the percy jackson fans, you really do love your main character. for other franchises, fans usually place the #1 blorbo title on a specific side character. but in percy jackson you really love your percy jackson

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i just barfed out 1,8k words, and it may seem like its not that much but for me even 300 is a struggle, look at what procrastinating will do to a person