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Things have happened and I am in the position of helping us privately create a neogender - specifically a form of neomasculinity - that we will almost definitely not post online but that will help some other headmates with a gender-related crisis we've been having.

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Fake laughed at a customer's joke today and dropped the smile within milliseconds of them turning around. when I tell you that I felt like Patrick fucking Bateman

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do you like bob dylan

I don't really listen to him anymore, but I liked him a below-average amount in high school (without actually disliking him).

However, also during high school, I would also get into these weird periods of like a week or so where I became convinced that Bob Dylan was the greatest artist of all time and really really hyperfixate on him before going back to normal. This would happen maybe twice a year or so.

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stressed

we're in a situation where our therapist has said (not in this exact phrasin but agreein with what i'm abt to say) that the best thing to do would be to split a ton of alters rly rly quickly

i'm talkin like 10 or more in the near future

ideally more

ain't afraid of it but holy fuck that's a tall order, y'know?

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when will they play "the princess bride" at my local movie theater. cmon. its totally the kinda movie they'd play. i kinda wanna talk to the guy who runs that shit next time i go. put the bug in his ear...

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Tumblr, I propose a battle of wits!

I have put Iocaine powder in one of these two goblets. You choose, then we both drink.

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Here’s to hoping that every single person with schizophrenia or a schizoaffective disorder or DID or NPD or any other ridiculously demonized mental illnesses has a wonderful day

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I'm so scared.

I don't know how to be independent. I don't know how to have a life direction. I'm scared my partner won't be able to give me a life direction. I'm scared no one can.

I don't know how to be a person on my own, not defining myself by someone else. No one will ever perceive me as "me", anyway, not even anything as simple as calling me "he"...

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if you don't do anything else today,

Please have a moment of silence for the people who were killed instead of freed when news of emancipation finally reached the furthest corners of the american south.

have another moment for the ledgers, catalogs, and records that were burned and the homes that were destroyed to hide the presence of very much alive and still enslaved people on dozens of plantations and homesteads across the south for decades after emancipation.

and have a third moment for those who were hunted and killed while fleeing the south to find safety across the border, overseas, in the north and to the west.

black people. light a candle, write a note to those who have passed telling them what you have achieved in spite of the racist and intolerant conditions of this world, feel the warmth of the flame under your hand, say a prayer of rememberance if you are religious, place the note under the candle, and then blow it out.

if you have children, sit them down and tell them anything you know about the life of oldest black person you've ever met. it doesn't have to be your own family. tell them what you know about what life was like for us in the days, years, decades after emancipation. if you don't know much, look it up and learn about it together.

This is Juneteenth.

white people CAN interact with this post. share it, spread it.

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this post is so funny to me because this is absolutely a thing and was very popular at one point. people already did it 40 years ago and its called new romantic

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“What are you doing?”

“Sitting down… to enjoy… my holiday.”

I think this is one of the poses Richard E Grant strikes that is the most purely Withnail’s character. Brooding, sullen and like a scrunched up origami crane.

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ever have a blorbo live in your brain for so long they become their own blorbo variant that’s no longer fully attached to their source material and your original blorbo is still beloved and dear to you but now you also have a mutant blorbo clone who is dear to you in a different way? 

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imagine making a blanket fort with your f/o and cuddling inside it….

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Well!

So first, let's clear a common misconception: no, President Abraham Lincoln did not love Black people nor see them as human equals. At best he was centrist about it (though, even his implication that 'exceptional' Black men ought to vote got him assassinated).

"My paramount object in this struggle is to save the Union, and is not either to save or to destroy slavery. If I could save the Union without freeing any slave I would do, it, and if I could save it by freeing all the slaves I would do it; and if I could save it by freeing some and leaving others alone I would also do that. What I do about slavery, and the colored race, I do because I believe it helps to save the Union...I have here stated my purpose according to my view of official duty; and I intend no modification of my oft-expressed personal wish that all men everywhere could be free."

The "freeing of slaves" after the Emancipation Proclamation in 1863 was meant to kneecap the economic and military powers of the seceded South. Lettuce stop making a white savior figure out of Lincoln, or thinking that my people's shackles were unchained via anything other than desperate war strategy and extreme violence. Think on that, for a moment.

That being said!

But not everyone in Confederate territory would immediately be free. Even though the Emancipation Proclamation was made effective in 1863, it could not be implemented in places still under Confederate control. As a result, in the westernmost Confederate state of Texas, enslaved people would not be free until much later. Freedom finally came on June 19, 1865, when some 2,000 Union troops arrived in Galveston Bay, Texas. The army announced that the more than 250,000 enslaved black people in the state, were free by executive decree. This day came to be known as "Juneteenth," by the newly freed people in Texas.

Consider going through the Smithsonian website to learn about Juneteenth! Recognize why it's an actual day of freedom, versus July 4th and the independence of a select few.

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I love having the emotional self regulation to see a post, have a knee-jerk response of confusion for a moment because it's saying something about a demographic I'm in that I don't feel is true, then remember that other people have different lived experiences than me and they're clearly talking about something relevant to that demographic that I just don't have any experience with. And then I go on with my day.

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"We do not have the responsibility of making gay life look good to straights so that they will accept us. I am not at all interested in promoting a cleaned up image to a straight world which is twice as corrupt and ten times as sick."

Vito Russo

Photography by Betty Lane, 1978