I don’t think I told you
It’s the taste of a memory
The feeling of the sun on my
Black work shirt
Coming through the window
The ease of you
That I miss
It’s not the “I love you”
The kiss on my porch
In the murky night
Gravel steps on my bare feet
And the neighbors watching
Not the show
That I miss
It’s the dice hanging
From your car mirror
The blueberry muffin mornings
The laughing in the night
No long notes
No expensive gifts
It’s the quiet
The dropping popcorn
And brushing it off your jeans
As you held me
On my broken velvet couch
Watching tv
Or pretending to
I don’t think I told you
I’ll never forget
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Vacationland
I slammed my head
on the shower tiles
‘Cause your three hours away
But a million miles
Oh Maine
I left the beach lonely
It died out of sight
It’s a year since I glowed
Through the Portland light
Oh Maine
My snowflake spattered middle lane
Had nightmares of drowning
in mud where we met
So I crawled to the shore
Got his old t shirt wet
Oh Maine
Left my parents to grieve
While I sowed my wild oats
Now I’ll do it again among
Seagulls and boats
Oh Maine
Hold me inside your fog and rain
You’re a myth I believed
As a storybook child
And you reached for my face
Your hands lovely and mild
Oh Maine
You’re someone’s Vacationland
Another ones pride
Your my deep quiet heart
Still beating inside
Oh Maine
It’s never the same, my Maine
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The writings of a questioning romantic
I’d like to think I never loved him
Quizzical eyes glaring over
The patient screen of a laptop
11:30 at night studying
In a room that smelled
Like too-ripe apples
And sounded
Like a nightclub
It’s good to know she never liked me
Speaking through letters
Black against white
Bright enough to induce tears
As she drove to Rhode Island
In a car I only hope
Wasn’t silver like his
And covered in stickers
I’d like to hope I love myself
Just a little is enough
To walk a starlit beach
With rocks like the Portland skyline
And know I’m worth
The love I could have received
With every step on the rocky shore
Heavy like promises
That I forgot to make
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For Sophia
Pretty nightingale
I never got to know
Sweetness and then cold
Like this lingering April snow
I hope it’s lovely
Finding the one you need
I hope when you do
You never think of me
You were the fisherwoman
I your catch and release
And wasn’t that nice
The river and the trees
I hope you enjoy that concert
You said was in May
I hope it speaks to feelings
That have yet to come your way
Quiet caring princess
We were short and still
You never knew the flowers
I put on my windowsill
I hope if I ran into you
You’d smile then walk away
And that you’d not remember it
At the end of your day
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No reason for the end
As a child I looked forward
To the end of the world
I awaited the raining fire
The blanketing dark
Like awaiting my own birthday
No one knows when it will come
A gravel faced woman
Whispered from the church pews
But it’s coming
Soon as the next full moon
As a teen I wandered the edges
“A flower in a field of weeds”
My father said
The only lightbulb
In a dull and damp warehouse
But how could I be a light
When everyone I saw
Passing through shops
Through violet tinted school rooms
Glowed brighter with life than I did
As a student I studied
The friends and neighbors
Who lived around and ahead of me
In rooms stacked atop each other
Like cookies in a jar
And taking notes
On the crumpled paper of my mind
I found the world had much more reason
To live on, enough brightness
To out-glow the sun
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Footnotes
The morning shines out like newly brushed teeth (footnote 1)
Coats life with a sweetness, like chocolate dip (footnote 2)
Weaves lovely things together like a marigold wreath (footnote 3)
Each blessing gathered in a tea bag ready to sip (footnote 4)
Braided hair and afternoons like romantic plays (footnote 5)
Sunlight in the trees and springtime in the air (footnote 6)
And I can feel the firey warmth of those amber rays (footnote 7)
A light so full of sugar warmth I wish I could share (footnote 8)
Love persists like evening wine the flavor goes on (footnote 9)
The warmest blanket placed atop of shoulders that shake (footnote 10)
Running through the woods like a spot backed fawn (footnote 11)
But like a vase atop a table, liable to break (Footnote 12)
1. Some mornings are dull and the fog steals the shine
2. Some mornings so bitter I’m reminded of you
3. The wreath may be woven with barbed wire and twine
4. Tea made with promises, broken and blue
5. Though all the romantics seem to die in time
6. Though the trees are all black and the sun is away
7. And It’s been a year since I’ve felt the shine
8. But without the sun I’d still share with someone who’d stay
9. Even when it’s over the ending will remain
10. Sometimes not even softness stops the shaking inside
11. But despite this running back and forth I’ll catch love again
12. I can glue it back together, breaking doesn’t mean it’s died
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These moods of mine
You ask me where they come from
These rotten moods of mine
I say they grow like branches
But they tangle up like twine
It’s growing pains I argue
Though I’m twenty now it’s true
And haven’t grown an inch
Since I grew just as tall as you
But still I ache from stiffness
Of the muscles, and the brain
I’d stretch them out but I’m afraid
That’s too much to obtain
So let me mope on hardwood floors
Above the bulb is dead
It’s just being alive I think
That’s gotten to my head
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Utah Pelicans
Summer
With air too dry for breath
The wind coughing up dust
Landlocked in Northern Utah
Within a suburban jail cell
An aviary
Tucked cozy
Behind a swimming pool
And a tennis court
Wrapped in purple walls
The sounds of geese
Honking from inside
A New England girl
Betrayed by the sun
Encased by the land
And missing the Scarborough marshes
Found between gardens
The pelicans
Dead fish
Plopping into their
Sock-like mouths
Slipping through their throats
The woman feeding them
Smiling like a lunatic
Nature
Stuffed within the cracks
Seabirds aside the car horns
And restaurant chains
And concrete
In that moment, home
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Burnout Blues
Bloody feet on rough stone floor
There’s never sound here anymore
It’s void of color, beige and gray
And sometimes black from day to day
The smell of murk, and sight of dust
No chemicals take out the rust
No mothers kiss takes out the gloom
Just these four walls, this closed off room
She’s got the burnout blues they say
The kind nothing can take away
That fever eats up all your hours
Leaves you to wilt like week old flowers
So I’ll sit in this bedroom cell
I’ll count the days I’ve felt like hell
Wait through each stale and stinking day
For burnout blues to go away
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We fell in love over a chocolate cake
We fell in love over a chocolate cake
Scalding liquid indulgence
Flowing like lava from a volcano
Our spoons clinked together and sunk in
Sitting across from one another
We fell in love at a table for two
Whose wooden legs were sturdy and still
Holding up a plate of dripping tension
As my feet, strapped into too high heels
Played with yours, in flat soles
We fell in love behind a blanket of jazz
Closely held together under ambiance
Which twinkled like stars above our heads
And bit into us with gentle teeth
As we bit into our chocolate cake
Over which we fell in love
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In shades of green
I painted my childhood in shades of green
Like lime popsicle staining my
Almost white teeth
And my bubblegum tongue
I took my roller skates
And flew through rows and rows
Of trees that bent to say hello
With their leaves like stained glass
And life was a playground
With forest colored leather swing seats
And winding slides
And grass stains on my light wash jeans
Mint chocolate chip ice cream
With whipped cream and sprinkles
That was life
When I was a kid
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university money
I remember Maine
A seaside wonderland
Where I skipped between campus
And ethereal night beaches
Before the money ran out
Before the stone eyes of a lost love
Before the dreams I’d had eroded
Like the rocks on the shore
I remember school
Like sitting beside a sleeping grizzly
A professor and an essay
And a doomed romance
Lurking through the foggy morning
And behind bookshelves
But the life it promised ahead of me
Stood in the clear, smiling
I remember dreams
Standing behind an invisible barrier
Like an actor in a play
And I in the audience watch it
Dance in front of me
And if I could only gather the funds
I’d clamber to the stage
And join it
If I made it big time
Found luck like a newly made friend
Won a game of poker
Or a game on tv
Or if cash came in like snowfall
And piled in my front yard
I’d only take a little
And I’d return to school
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Willow- a poem for my rabbit
Like a little child
She doesn’t know the world
Or the reasons I do
And like a burst of clear morning
I almost forget
When I run my fingers through her silky fur
Sweet as summer grass
And like a toddlers tricycle
She moves from place to place
Happy just to live
She’s found a hollow with food, love
And enough deep corners
That she’ll never have a lack
Of things to explore
And once when the air
In flashes like the slashing
Of a pocket knife
Was forcing itself back and forth
Through my lungs
When panic hit like falling hail
She sat on my lap and calmed me
Like a willow tree
She can wave in the wind
Her fur can shed like leaves
And mess up the rug
But still she sits
Looking to me with quiet eyes
As a beacon of calmness
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A guide to glory
I was told
As a please my parents
Never up past my bedtime
Kinda kid
That glory was something
To be given
Glory was applause
Was a victory lap in front
Of a screaming crowd of
Excited onlookers
Glory was a piece
Of the universe’s praise
I’ve heard glory
Was a thing to be taken
“Give me glory” the tyrant says
Like a bloody Shakespearean king
Like climbing over enemies
And friends alike
And some have said
That glory
Was only to be rejected
A figment of the collective
Imagination of millions
Who thought they could own the world
But I have come to know
That glory can be found
In a sunny afternoon
Or the smell of an old book
Or even tucked away
In the corners of a healing heart
I’ve come to know glory
As a visiting friend
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Talks with a memory
A year or so ago
As his hand traced the back of mine
An old acquaintance said
That he liked the top
of the parking garage
Simply for the view
A year or so ago
I whispered with a friend
Who learned my name
On a damp playground
“When it gets harder” she said
“Remember where you’re going”
A year or so ago
A stranger in front of
A black screen computer
Said between sips of coffee
“I know you know what’s right for you
Your eyes give it away”
A year or so ago
Alone on a train near New York
I watched the skyline disappear
And life was a game of tag
Because I’ve always been
Chasing
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A creature made of clay
He took his hand and placed it
On his heart of mud and ground
And said he felt alive
When there was no life to be found
And I was singing without music
Raglan road into his ears
Of earth and water, and his mind
Was bound with rocks and bone and fears
Sionnach he whispered in my dreams
The angel wooed the clay
Because I thought I was from heaven
Though it’s hot as hell today
It was inside a muggy class
That I had seen him first and new
And it was there I saw him last
Away he walked, with dirty shoes
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The rabbit dancer
She moves like a flag in a storm
Blowing back and forth with the wind
A swerve in the hips
A violent toss of her hair
But no matter how she’s moved
She hasn’t yet scared the rabbits
She sings herself to sleep
When it’s too quiet even for the trees
To produce melodies as if
The whole forest was a music box
And if it were,
She’d be the one winding it up
And the creatures of the woods
Are images of people
The wolves like men on the prowl
For a woman to take home
The owls watching like a grandmother
Silent on a rocking chair
Then of course there’s the rabbits
Her little children
Dancing with her in the warm breeze
Of a summer with little rain
But plenty of water
And I’ll watch like a rabbit myself
Too afraid to greet her
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