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Motivation

My dream sucks a lot of motivation from me, perhaps ironically. I try to look away, but my dream is a parasite with its claws latched into the sides of my face.

A lot of the activities I do are outside of my dream. My recent drought of motivation has pulled me away from those. Theoretically, one should still be able to do those activities. Everyone does things that they don’t want to, or don’t contribute to their dream. But I don’t seem to be able to.

It makes me weak. Less of a man. My brain is very quick to remind me of that.

I’m aware that it creates a cycle. A lack of motivation that leads to negative thinking, bringing along another period of low motivation. Positive thinking seems like the solution. But it feels hollow. Just ignoring something. I wish it was that simple.

Perhaps I’m toxic to myself - I’m unsure. My dream doesn’t make it any easier to see.

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Patience…

To stay, or to leave. The grass is always greener on the other side, but what were once bounds over the fence are now clumsy clambers. I may need a step ladder if I continue at this rate.

A dream has been eating away at my brain. One that has graced my open palms many times. They say if you are guided to a dua, then know it is from Allah. I cannot tell if my dream is from Allah, or from a repressed part of my soul claiming to be well-mannered.

They also say to tie your camel. Put in the work. But they also say to ask Allah for the impossible. How can one work towards something that is impossible? That is the conundrum I find myself within.

I am not a confrontational person. Sometimes they support me in letting this dream float away. You may think something is good for you, but Allah knows it is bad for you.

That’s where my elliptical orbit starts. I pack my bags and kiss my photo frames goodbye, then my dream begs me by the creases of my trousers to stay. Have trust in Allah. He gave me this dream.

How can I reject such a thing from my Lord?

Thus my dream traps me in this path. About to shoot off, before being reigned back in for another cycle.

They say have patience. Sabr. But I disagree. Patience isn’t something you just ‘have’ - it’s not a grocery. It’s something that must be built. I often think I have a strong structure made, yet a seemingly gentle breeze always reduces it to rubble.

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Hello all! Photography’s a big hobby/interest of mine (along with writing and classic cars) - thought I’d share some of my recent ones!

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Hello all! Been a long while, so just wanted to post a little update. Writing's been quite slow for me - lot of irl stuff going on. Hoping to make a comeback soon, though!

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Stop help me 🙏😭

This is the last of the flour left and we have no flour. Please help me and my sisters 😭😭

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a writing competition i was going to participate in again this year has announced that they now allow AI generated content to be submitted

their reasoning being that "we couldn't ban it even if we wanted to, every writer already uses it anyway"

"Every writer"?

come on

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Traumatized in Ireland While my Family is Facing Death and Starvation in Gaza

Note: Vetted by:

1. @el-shab-hussein and @nabulsi # 151 on the spreadsheet of Vetted Gaza Fundraisers List]

2. @riding-with-the-wild-hunt Here .

I contemplate the happy faces of people around me here in Ireland and reminisce about the happy normal life my family and I had before the war. A life that turned into a distant memory for us and was replaced by an unending series of horrible nightmares.

Unlike my family in Gaza, people here have access to drinking water, all types of food, electricity, and a roof over their heads. Above all, they are safe, and I cannot help but wonder if they genuinely do appreciate these blessings in their lives enough.

People seem relaxed and laughing wholeheartedly around me in Ireland. I wish I could laugh too, but I am crushed way beyond recovery on the inside. I was evacuated by my Irish college after five months of living the horrors of war in Gaza. I hope you will never know what it feels like to live in constant fear and worry and be horrified by the most sickening and scary nightmares every single night while you are far away from your family in such circumstances.

When did my people in Gaza cease to be human beings worthy and deserving of a normal life? Has it become normal now for my family in Gaza to be starved and killed while the whole world is watching the genocide? If that is the case, then you will have to excuse me if I seek every avenue to bring them to Ireland and start a new normal life like all people here around me.

I was assured by the Irish Reugee Council (IRC) and lawyers in Ireland that there is hope I can reunite with my family in Ireland. In difficult times, it is hard to see the light at the end of the tunnel. For me and my family, you are literally our light and hope for a better life.

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List of charities you can donate to in support of Palestine

- Human Appeal https://humanappeal.org.uk/appeals/gaza-emergency-appeal?gad_source=1&gclid=CjwKCAjwq7fABhB2EiwAwk-YbC0ek8Q8KM_wS0w7EXDY81DS-Hy_VU4miFfFaULfNeTH5GV4Q7GIEBoCYIAQAvD_BwE

- Medical Aid for Palestinians https://www.map.org.uk/?form=emergency&gad_source=1&gclid=CjwKCAjwq7fABhB2EiwAwk-YbAfnddgFSi9go7f8p07-B4cc4JqSaYJfbhYFZCv1rZVbuc79u4drDxoCNz8QAvD_BwE

- UNICEF https://www.unicef.org.uk/donate/children-in-gaza-crisis-appeal/?gad_source=1&gclid=CjwKCAjwq7fABhB2EiwAwk-YbOGMXCz9968BiETwxoqrv6fM5_V2FbziWIxv_3Dv0MOs-O05Cmfl6BoCSlIQAvD_BwE

- Red Cross https://donate.redcross.org.uk/appeal/gaza-crisis-appeal?spm=Regular+Giving&gad_source=1&gbraid=0AAAAAD_j2cCGCRF9RDGsCXIk3eyNsQBf9&gclid=CjwKCAjwq7fABhB2EiwAwk-YbBaoYo4LNAD_UDGwu1gQGubtq2szfxy4msL-iw0XwiAER-G4rkR_GRoCz-4QAvD_BwE

- Islamic Relief https://www.islamic-relief.org.uk/giving/appeals/palestine/gaza/

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Hey, I’d recommend not reblogging the “I’m in Gaza and need you to donate to this link because of my sob story” posts, given they’re pretty much all scammers. If you want to signal boost helping Gaza, then send links to charities; but by promoting that kind of post then money that should go towards helping people instead goes to assholes preying on your kindness.

Thought I’d answer publicly just to make everyone aware. I apologise if any of the causes I reblogged were scams - I do try my best to make sure they are not. It is a better idea to go through a charity - I’ll make sure to post more of these instead inshallah.

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🕊️ Please Take a Moment to Read Nadin’s Story

My name is Nadin. I never imagined I would write something like this. I’ve always been someone who kept her worries quiet, someone who believed that even the hardest days could be endured with patience and faith. But right now, I am reaching out — not because I want to, but because I need to.

I am a wife, a mother, and one of many women in Gaza trying to survive days that feel like they have no end. There was a short time — a brief ceasefire — where we thought things might start to heal. Where the sound of war faded for just long enough to let us breathe. But that moment is gone now, and the fear has returned louder than before.

My days are filled with uncertainty, and my nights with prayer. We have lost so much. Our home was damaged, our sense of safety taken from us. But through all of this, I try to keep going. I try to hold on to what little peace I can create with my hands, my words, and my love.

I am not asking for much. Just a little help to keep our lives from falling further apart. To fix the small things — a cracked wall, a leaking roof, the pieces of daily life that help us hold on to dignity.

This campaign isn’t just about survival. It’s about holding on to what makes us human in a place that keeps trying to take that away. It’s about showing my daughter — even though I won’t mention her name here — that the world didn’t forget us.

If you’ve ever felt powerless in the face of suffering, please know that even the smallest gesture can carry great meaning. A kind word. A shared post. A quiet donation. These things remind us that we’re not alone.

I am still here. Still holding on. Still believing that people out there — people like you — still care.

Please, if you feel moved, consider supporting or sharing this campaign.

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istighfār

When I held fast to seeking istighfār, I saw doors open with ease to all that I longed to achieve. Moments of quiet intimacy with Allah unfolded before me—hidden charity became effortless, my Qur’an portions grew longer, and my study sessions brimmed with barakah. The love of those around me took on a deeper, sweeter form. And whenever I found myself alone, burdened by worry, my concerns would vanish as though they had never been, resolved with no effort of my own.

This is what I witnessed, through my own journey with istighfār. Yet, insan is ever hasty, and when the lure of sin draws near, not always do they possess the strength to turn away. But the distinction between the believer who loves Allah and the one who is heedless lies in this: the one who rises after falling, who strives again despite losing what they once had through their own flaws and failings. They mend their ingratitude by hastening back to obedience the moment they recognize how they abandoned it for fleeting desires. And they return, certain that the One who helped them before will surely help them again. So, go back to Him with good thoughts of Him, go back to Him knowing it is only He who can help you, and go back knowing that you can be better in obedience than you once were, so long as you go back with sincerity and firm resolve.

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It was never a condition of walking to Allah that you walk to Him in a state of perfection. Walk to Him even with a lost heart, even with the weight of your sins, even with a tongue that stutters, and by Allah, if you walked to Him while you were loaded with burdens, He would accept you, for He loves you coming towards Him even if you crawled, so blessed are those who urged themselves towards the path.

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Donate to build a borehole tank in Gambia in a dead father's name

Hello! Hope you are all well!

Please consider donating to this cause! The person organising this has been through a lot with the son of the dead father, who this fundraiser surrounds, and it would mean a lot to me if you could help!

Thank you!

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The army has announced a ground operation in Gaza. Bombings are everywhere, both on land and in the air. We are being annihilated here, and the whole world is silent.

In two days, the death toll has exceeded 600, most of them women and children.

All crossings are completely closed, there is no food, no drink, no way out of this hell.

We are dying before your eyes. Please, don't leave us alone! Save us, do something in protest, donate, participate.

I don’t want to die! Please support me with any amount that will promise me to buy food, drink, medicine and survive me and my family

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🌍✨ A Voice from Gaza: Fighting for Hope ❤️‍🩹

Hi, my name is Mosab , and I’m from Gaza. Life here has been harder than I could ever imagine, but today I’m sharing my story with hope in my heart, because your kindness has already given us so much strength.

This journey hasn’t been easy. The war has taken 25 family members from us—25 beautiful souls we loved deeply. Their laughter, their presence, their love… all of it is gone, leaving behind memories that are both precious and painful. Every day, I carry the weight of their loss, but I also carry their spirit, which gives me the strength to keep going.

Our Journey So Far

When I first reached out, I couldn’t have imagined we’d make it this far. Your support has been a light in these difficult times, and we are so deeply grateful for every single contribution.

But the road ahead is still challenging. Every day, we’re reminded of how much we’ve lost and how much we still need to rebuild.

Here’s what life in Gaza looks like for my family right now:

🏠 Safety: The uncertainty of tomorrow weighs heavily on us.

😢 Loss: The absence of the 25 family members we’ve lost is a pain we carry every moment.

💔 Dreams on Hold: The future feels so far away when survival takes all our strength.

How You Can Help Us Cross the Finish Line Even the smallest act of kindness can make a difference:

$5 may seem small, but for us, it’s a little relief, a moment of comfort, and a reminder that kindness still exists. ❤️

Can’t donate? Reblog this post to help us reach someone who can. Every share matters more than you know.

✅️ Vetted by @gazavetters ( #309 ) ✅️

Why Your Support Matters Your kindness isn’t just about helping us meet our goal—it’s about reminding us that we’re not alone in this fight. It’s about hope. It’s about survival. And it’s about giving my family a chance to rebuild our lives, even in the face of unimaginable loss.

Thank you for helping us get this far. Your generosity and compassion have already brought us closer to a better tomorrow, and for that, I’m endlessly grateful.

With all my love and gratitude,

Mosab and Family ❤️

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‏وقد يبتليك الله ليصلح فيك شيئاً لا ينصلح إلا بالابتلاء

" فَصَبْرٌ جَمِيلٌ وَاللَّهُ الْمُسْتَعَانُ "

And perhaps Allah tests you to correct something within you that can only be set right through trials."So patience is beautiful, and Allah's help is sought"