javierduffy

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jawn

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he's so fun to study :]

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went back to comfort zone and ... got stuck there

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COMMISSION FOR @javierduffy !! so so cute

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hi something true and beautiful happened just as i was gearing up to do short walk in a pretty town and it made me think of ur art

YOU. HAVE NO IDEA WHAT YOUVE JUST DONE FOR ME WITH THESE IMAGES

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one million things that i probably won't finish. some of this is super old and grody 💀

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MIV’s (mentally-ill-vaquero)s latest post on how javier has religious trauma has got me thinking …. with javier’s internalized dynamic of saviorship and worship and God and Man … there’s actually some parallels between his (history with) religion and the way he deifies and glorifies dutch and is so entrapped in dutch’s indoctrination. he’s already susceptible to manipulation because of the cultural differences and the way that dutch has intentionally positioned himself to force javier to rely on him for his literal survival, but i think his history with religion further bolsters his susceptibility to indoctrination and manipulation, and his fear of god bleeds over into his fear of dutch, who seems to have a similar hold on javier’s mortal soul. and the way that javier feels that he CANNOT leave the gang, and the way that he CANNOT doubt dutch (and when he does, he repents, by “proving” his loyalty, unquestioningly. he fears dutch’s wrath, and so he falls in line when he is confronted with it, even just a little bit.), it’s just like how many (and even dare i say javier himself) fear leaving their religion, and fear doubting god, for the intimidation of losing His mercy, and what that means for them. his relationship with religion, and with the way religion itself (especially catholicism and christianity) FORCES most people to stay out of the sheer fear of going to hell and experiencing the suffering of eternal damnation, i believe, influences his dynamic with the entire world, ESPECIALLY images of power, like dutch. god scares javier into confusion and anger and resentment, but most of all into submission and repentance, and, just the same, dutch does too.

but also, both of javier’s gods contradict each other. dutch asks him to kill, and god asks he repent for his killing. javier escuella, poor man, cannot escape a life of maddening confusion. no wonder he ends up as an angry, empty, hateful husk of a man in the end.

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found this old photo of kieran in the army !! i think mary beth would like the idea of him in uniform ..

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this one's pretty old but still lovely

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since john and javier are roughly the same age … and john is roughly 10(?) or so years younger than arthur and that contributes heavily to arthur’s desire to protect him as a big brother … do you ever think there are times where arthur sees javier as a bit of a little brother too ☹️☹️ since john and javier have some similarly as immature behaviors and are (presumably. implied to be.) super close and so doubly take after each other ☹️ do you ever think, even just sometimes, when javier laughs like john, with a wheeze, arthur felt that sense of paternity towards javier ☹️ and do you think that it broke his heart a little bit to see his other little brother side against him in the end ☹️

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I CANT STOP THINKING ANOUT THIS PICTUTE OF HIM

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found this old photo of kieran in the army !! i think mary beth would like the idea of him in uniform ..

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THE LAST ONE 😭😭🫶🫶

Two things have now happened which will make my obsession with this lil bean 10,000x worse.

The first is that I'm finally starting to get the hang of the game's photo mode.

The second is that I'm also getting the hang of the companion glitch.

There will be so many roadtrips in my future.

Also I didn't know that he'd do this at the scout fire in Horseshoe Overlook, and it's the most precious thing ever????

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dude. please. PLEASE. let me know when you drop this. i NEED it.

has anyone ever talked about how javier named his horse a name from the bible (“boaz” is a hebrew name meaning “strength”/“in him (is) strength”. also like. a literal guy in the bible.) or am i just late to this party

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has anyone ever talked about how javier named his horse a name from the bible (“boaz” is a hebrew name meaning “strength”/“in him (is) strength”. also like. a literal guy in the bible.) or am i just late to this party

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do we all remember when i said i wasn’t going to change my art style to suit the media better LMFAO

fandomhopping but refusing to change my art style to suit the media better

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figured it was time to finally do an actual kieran study ...for once