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by qiechajun

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can’t think of a worse feeling than coming up with a really great meme, like, 2 months after the image format dies

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well yeah i have a pet hydra and it only has one head. i'm not going to cut its head off just to make it look cooler, you asshole. that's seriously unethical. and i'm not letting you cut its head off either. if you really want a hydra with multiple heads, you should go for a rescue- but if you want your pet to look cooler at the cost of its physical health, maybe you shouldn't get any kind of pet at all. no, the hydra's not for guarding my evil tower, it's my pet. have you ever heard of a pet? like a puppy or a kitty? you think i can't defend my evil tower by my self?

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‘Aquarium Bath’ by Arnold Mammarella & Marcy Voyevod

Scanned from ‘Before and After: Bathroom Makeovers’ (2006)

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wanted to give them equal-opportunity sexy catsuits... too bad the hydra call is coming from inside the house :(

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by flute574

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“Pink Dragon Temple” (Thailand) ⟲ Serpent spiral wraps pink tower

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do not 'oh it's just mascara' me i mean ANYTHING if you would hesitate to leave the house for a certain occasion without applying a certain thing to your face then you wear makeup for that occasion

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10 Things I Hate About You (1999) dir. Gil Junger

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Stiles and Derek never having truly dated but even so Stiles is incapable of sustaining a relationship with anyone else.

Not for the lack of trying too. Stiles starts community college (he didn’t want to have to leave Beacon Hills) and starts dating other people but any time real commitment becomes the next real step in the relationship he freezes up and the relationship naturally dies out.

and it’s not even because Derek is a demanding Alpha. He gives Stiles so much freedom, too much in his opinion. It’s almost a fight whenever they try to have a conversation about it. Because Stiles wants more pack responsibilities but Derek is adamant that Stiles needs freedom and to focus on his studies.

Stiles tries his best to listen to him, he focuses on his studies, he goes to parties, he dates random people but there’s always this nagging emptiness inside of his chest he can never shake off.

At one pack meeting Erica asks him if he’s still seeing the guy he went on a few dates with and the emptiness in his chest grows and he just shakes his head no.

He had even kind of liked the guy too. They had met at the campus little coffee place and he had given Stiles a cocky smile, paid for his coffee then asked for his number.

Stiles had liked how broad shouldered he was and his stubbled jaw so he gave him his number. They went on a first date a few days later and Stiles let the guy fuck him when he asked. When he closed his eyes, images of red glowing eyes replaced deep brown ones and after that Stiles kept his eyes open but it didn’t help at all. The guy fucked into him hard and all Stiles could think and see in his mind’s eye was his Alpha. The guy seemed happy when Stiles came so hard he blacked out for a bit. He asked Stiles on a second date, Stiles said okay.

Despite the emptiness in him, Stiles thought they were doing fine, Stiles liked him right? but somehow it all went to shit because Derek had showed up on campus one afternoon to see Stiles about something pack related and they had taken the opportunity to hang out a bit at the same time.

Later that afternoon his boyfriend had been waiting for him after his last class and had asked Stiles who Derek was. He was weirdly quiet and pensive as he asked. Stiles had told him Derek was a good friend. His boyfriend was silent for a while until he said in a small voice that Stiles never smiled to anyone like he smiled to that Derek guy. Was Stiles even happy with him? because it sure as hell didn’t feel like it.

They were at his boyfriend’s dorm by then and Stiles hadn’t known what to do except sit down on the bed and stare at the floor. His boyfriend pulled his face up by his chin and asked Stiles again if he was happy with him. Stiles couldn’t really look at him and he just shrugged vaguely because his head was a mess and the emptiness in his chest seemed to be growing. His boyfriend let go of him and paced around a bit until he almost made Stiles choke when he accused Stiles of being in love with Derek and that was actually the reason why Stiles had given him his number. At that Stiles had protested a little because it wasn’t like that. Stiles wouldn’t do that. But he did didn’t he? He could have said no to the second date, after he thought of Derek the first time they fucked but he hadn’t.

His boyfriend broke up with him and he even did it gently which wasn’t what Stiles deserved. He had even wished Stiles luck.

Erica doesn’t push it when he doesn’t elaborate. They have the meeting, nothing much happens in town these days. Beacon Hills is calm and well taken care of. As the betas and Stiles are getting ready to leave Derek asks Stiles to stay behind for a bit. Stiles says his goodbyes to the betas before going back to sit on the couch to wait for his Alpha. Derek eventually joins him and asks Stiles if he’s doing okay.

He can’t look at him in the eyes but he tells Derek he’s fine and he knows Derek can hear the lie.

The thing is that Stiles doesn’t know how to even approach this. He’s been denying his feelings for Derek for so long, he doesn’t know if he can ever truly face them.

Derek is his Alpha and he loves him but it’s been so much more than that for so long. Longer than Stiles would ever admit and he buried all of it as deep as he could.

Starting college, being forced to meet other people and be away from the pack had brought all those buried feelings up to the surface, leaving him a mess.

He startles when Derek says his name. He looks up and Derek looks at him like Stiles slapped him. He lets out a small ‘jesus christ, Stiles’ and Stiles blanches.

Derek can feel it all can he? Stiles isn’t even sure what he’s feeling he just knows it’s a lot and he’s going to lose himself to it all.

He buries his face into his hands and tries not to cry. He feels so empty and it’s hurting and Derek is right there and he can feel it and Stiles doesn’t know what to say or what to do.

Derek clears his throat and his fingers touches one of Stiles hands at his face and pulls it away. Stiles lets him and drops his hands but he doesn’t look up, he cant.

Seeing that Derek isn’t letting go of his hand, Stiles clings to his fingers almost desperately, playing with them a little. Derek starts rubbing his thumb soothingly back and forth on his skin.

Derek whispers that he’s here, he’s not going anywhere and that he thought Stiles would eventually move on, that he would grow out of it. There’s a bit of shame in his words and that shame quells the knee jerk anger Stiles feels at his words.

Because of course Derek had known. He probably had known about Stiles’ feelings for just as long as Stiles did but instead of confronting Stiles about them he let him bury them and hoped against hope Stiles would move on.

But he hadn’t moved on and Stiles knew now that he never would. Derek was it for him. It had taken a guy who vaguely looked like Derek to fuck him and bring him down to reality for Stiles to finally face that fact.

After a few moments of silence, Derek apologizes before assuring Stiles that everything will be okay, they’ll be okay.

A few days later, Derek asks Stiles on a date.

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This song fucking rules. Mongolian women are so cool.

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amateurish first effort

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Who the hell is Bucky?

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What are your opinions on birds as a subject for photography.

hold still you little fucker

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‘Twas brillig, and the slithy toves A stately pleasure-dome decreed. And what rough beast, its hour come round at last, Could frame thy fearful symmetry?