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I am Okay Really!!!

I am Okay Really!!!

Good Day everyone! I have heard rumblings that followers are concerned about me. Well as I stated from the beginning, I am in search of me. For me, to get to a point of being what I want to be; I have to dig through pretty dark stuff. If I took a long hard look at myself, I have to forgive myself for a number of things as well as acknowledge other facets of who I am. I have several moments of…

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Life is what you make it.

Life is what you make it.

Plain and simple…. Life is what you make it. Circumstances are out your control most times but how you act and react makes the difference. Keep pushing towards love and happiness.

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Attitude = Altitude

As I think of how often I beat myself up, I start to wonder what that does to my surroundings. If I am always saying I am not a good friend, a poor husband, or father, etcetera how do I elevate to become a better person? I find myself stuck in a rut of self loathing as opposed to bringing the light into my life. You hear about the “glass half empty” guy, well I tend to be the glass is empty and…

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Attitude = Altitude

As I think of how often I beat myself up, I start to wonder what that does to my surroundings. If I am always saying I am not a good friend, a poor husband, or father, etcetera how do I elevate to become a better person? I find myself stuck in a rut of self loathing as opposed to bringing the light into my life. You hear about the “glass half empty” guy, well I tend to be the glass is empty and…

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Ghosted Y'all

Ghosted Y’all

I have been silent for a few months. Some of my close friends that are reading my blogs have been asking where I have been on this medium. To be honest, as I work through my thoughts and challenge myself, I end up somewhere “dark” at times. When I truly reflect at the ugliness I have started to confront about me, it actually has pushed me away. When working on improvements with self we can’t be…

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Relinquish the Rage

I am tired of what the anger does to my life. I am searching for a way to give it up. I have down some counseling off and on. I have listened to several audiobooks about how to handle it. The truth is anger is normal. Anger is healthy… RAGE is not. I grew up with a family (my father’s side) who would yell to get their point across. Everything seemed confrontational and I hated it. Somewhere along…

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Don't Blink

Don’t Blink

After a short hiatus, I reflected on the moments of decompression I attempted to take my mind through. Getting away from work for the long weekend and spending it with family was so welcomed. As I went through the weekend, my mind and challenges I kept creeping up. Everything is changed or effected in a snap decision. I handle so many things with emotion versus logic. It is good to be passionate…

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Why have I settled?

Why have I settled?

As I reflect on my current life, I start to wonder why I have settled for so many things? Let me be clear, I have some wonderful things in life that definitely are part of this current feeling. I am blessed with a wife that has supported me through many things. I have some fiercely loyal friends that I definitely not deserving of as well as family that loves me regardless of my faults. So why…

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A new day

It is funny how God works in our lives. Up until this point I haven’t shared my Faith not because I didn’t want to but I chose not to. I am a Sinner saved by Grace. If you have read my previous posts you have seen that doesn’t mean I am invincible to life situations and thoughts. It mean that I have a God that can and will bring me through anything IF I let him. Which leads me to my current life…

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In search of me

In search of me

As the weeks have gone by since I started this journey with all of you, I have really started to reflect on where I started. For lack of better terms I “HATE” who I have become. There is a lot of bitterness and frustrations that have built over time. I don’t want to be this person any more and that is why I started all of this. To go backwards does bring up some uncomfortable events in my life,…

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Direction & What Direction!

Direction, What Direction!

Photo by Mark Neal on Pexels.com When is much too much? How much more can I take on? When is enough, enough? This is where I am at today. As I attempt to de-scramble my thoughts and start down a new path, I feel like the visual on this page… What direction do I take? I know that letting go of “old” me takes time and discipline. But what about my surrounding? You see, like an addiction; the…

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You are Not your Predecessor

You are Not your Predecessor

As I sat in the doctor’s office for my annual physical, I had several anxieties come to mind? Is my blood pressure high? What does my cholesterol numbers look like? Will the doctor tell me the obvious? (I am obese by medical standards) All of this anxiety stems from the unhealthiness of my late father. Each day I compare myself to his setbacks like he was/is the barometer for my life as a being…

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You are Not your Predecessor

You are Not your Predecessor

As I sat in the doctor’s office for my annual physical, I had several anxieties come to mind? Is my blood pressure high? What does my cholesterol numbers look like? Will the doctor tell me the obvious? (I am obese by medical standards) All of this anxiety stems from the unhealthiness of my late father. Each day I compare myself to his setbacks like he was/is the barometer for my life as a being…

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SOPs of You & Me

Another step on the journey! Check it out!

Standard Operating Procedures (SOP). Each successful business has them. If you think about it, so should your life.  You hear the fact that children crave structure, but it feels like most times we as adults want to fight it. The truth of the matter with our minds on autopilot most of the day, SOPs are actually what gets us through. We very seldom have genuine active thoughts.

How many of you…

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To Be Broke Not Broken!

For those of us that are working through our thoughts

How many people at any point in their lives have thought I want to Broke? Insert “Cricket” noise here. This sounds crazy right? Well, I am not speaking in the monetary sense, I am speaking of a disciplinary sense.  Let’s take the example of a well “Broke” horse. This animal that was well “Broke” should have been carefully trained as to not “Break” its spirit, but to perform within the means…