jpsnocturnaljournal

[jpsnocturnaljournal]

Hey!

It's been a while but I want to post more on here. I just posted something I wrote a few weeks back and just wanted to pull the trigger. I don't think I'm gonna post a lot of poetry but I just wanted to dive head first in. I am tired of being scared of what people will think.

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I can tell he is on his way out and I can’t think how I will face the day when they part

He sat in a basket placed under a chair in my mom's closet, 

somewhere he always felt safe,

Warm.

Three days came and went, 

my sister moved out.

Not once did he move. 

His cousin sat over him on that chair.

Watching him, protecting him, and seeing to it that leaves peacefully. 

On the third day he rose from the dead,

got up and continued on like nothing happened. 

His time has not come,

there is still eight more to go. 

They sit on my bed every night, 

Curled up in a perfect yin-yang. 

I dread the day when I find him in the basket with her watching over in remorse. 

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"snowed" in

Another slow Adirondack morning passed by as I made my breakfast. I never bought into the whole "breakfast is the most important meal" crap but I do believe it is the best meal; so I decided to go all out today and make myself a big breakfast. I reheated my leftover breakfast sausages from yesterday, made scrambled eggs with an unhealthy amount of hot sauce, instead of coffee I decided to make a cup of hot chocolate, got some dairy-free yogurt, and a bagel thin with orange marmalade. After laying around for a bit I got started with my homework. I wish I could say I was productive but I really just played the sims for a few hours. something about the sims is so therapeutic for me. I finally finished my snowy escape home, I've been working on it in dribs and drabs for a few weeks now and I'm really happy with how it tuned out. As I got up to grab something to eat I noticed something going on outside, the first snow of the year. It's been rather warm considering it's November in northern new york so it was good to see snow. looking at my "4 and 5 years ago today" memories on Snapchat there was already a good foot or so of snow on the ground up here by the first week of November.

I eventually got started with my homework at around 1-2 ish. but then fell asleep. I woke up at 4:30, well-rested, and went down to the basement to brush my teeth to get the post-nap taste out of my mouth. when I came back up 10 minutes later it was pitch black out. and then had to walk my dog in the dark spooky woods. it may sound silly bit the woods up here are generally terrifying and go on for MILES. Just a little while ago I was washing the dishing and listening to Violating Community Guidelines (as stated in yesterday's post) and Britney Broksi made the statement "I'm not sure if crystals really work but if there's a chance that a rock will bring me money and a boyfriend I'm not taking any chances" and that is the truest statement ever. there are SO MANY things in this world that might not be true (crystals, astrology, and literally any religion) but in the long run, is there really any harm in believing in these things. if they are true yay we were right if they're not oh well it couldn't hurt to try. We decided to stay here an extra night because I and my mom have a lot of work to get done. I don't mind though, it's not like. I have anywhere to be. I will most likely be missing most of school tomorrow but hopefully, I can get back in time to catch some of my classes. I will most likely be finishing up my homework for the rest of the night and then I might watch a few episodes of Gilmore Girls before I go to bed. the reason why I named this entry ""snowed" in" is because although we are stuck here for the night, and it is snowing, so we not really snowed in but we are still here for the night

thanks for reading - jp

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waking up slowly

today I was woken up at 6:30 am. my mom yelled up the stairs into my cabin's loft "you need to walk Margaery", Margaery is my dog. we battled for around 5 minutes, of course, I started dreaming that I woke up, put on a shirt and sweatshirt, and began suiting up my dog to go out. It's been raining in the Adirondacks for a good while now and my dog has a cute green jacket for rainy/cold weather. after realizing that I was, in fact, dreaming I finally got up and walked the baby. Margaery is almost three years old now. the only reason we call her "the baby" (pronounced ba-bé) is that the day before we got her my mom, my sister, and I were watching an episode of "Schitt's Creek" where Moria made the statement "Well where is the ba-bé's chamber?" and when we picked her up my sister said "Well where is the ba-bé's chamber going to be?" and it stuck from then on. after I walked her I got her food ready and sat down on the couch to relax for a bit. I closed my eyes for a second Next thing I knew it was 8:50, and I was finally well rested. As I woke up and entered the kitchen I discovered my mom made a pot of coffee and I poured myself a cup. Whenever we are at my cabin upstate we have the most relaxed laid back mornings, my mom and I sat around our kitchen "island" (it's an old desk we found in our attic back home) talking about our day. I decided to make sausage and eggs for breakfast so I got all of the ingredients ready and put on my favorite podcast "Violating Community Guidelines with Britney Broski and Sarah Schauer" if you don't listen I HIGHLEY recommend they are absolutely hilarious and continue to make my breakfast. As I sat down to eat I finally decided to make my first post on this account. Hopefully, I will be able to post once a day.

thank you for reading - jp