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Coming on here just to vent bc I know no one comes here anymore, and I just need to get it out

Tw: ableism, toxic positivity, inspiration pornography tactics

I'm... tired.

I hate that I speak so well

I wish I didn't sometimes

People tell me I'm lucky not to sound autistic

That I sound smart and normal

I wish I didn't sometimes

Not all the time

But sometimes

Sometimes I wish going nonverbal was an option

Sometimes I wish it was

I just want to be helped and held and taken seriously that I do need help

Everyone wants me to use my intellect and calls it a blessing

I hate it because when you're assumed smart it's assumed that you know what you're doing

I have no idea what I'm doing.

I never have

Sometimes even feeding myself is a challenge

Sometimes getting out of bed is so hard

Because I just don't know what to do next

I wish sometimes it were okay not to speak

Because sometimes I just wish I had the option not to

I wish I didn't have this mask stapled to my face metaphorically speaking

I wish sometimes someone would tell me it's okay to be weak, and small, and to need help

I wish someone would tell me it's okay to be autistic and "not smart" or "not verbose"

I'm so tired of being verbose. I'm tired of talking. Im.so. so tired.

[jules-hoard-of-stuff]

Coming on here just to vent bc I know no one comes here anymore, and I just need to get it out

Tw: ableism, toxic positivity, inspiration pornography tactics

I'm... tired.

I hate that I speak so well

I wish I didn't sometimes

People tell me I'm lucky not to sound autistic

That I sound smart and normal

I wish I didn't sometimes

Not all the time

But sometimes

Sometimes I wish going nonverbal was an option

Sometimes I wish it was

I just want to be helped and held and taken seriously that I do need help

Everyone wants me to use my intellect and calls it a blessing

I hate it because when you're assumed smart it's assumed that you know what you're doing

I have no idea what I'm doing.

I never have

Sometimes even feeding myself is a challenge

Sometimes getting out of bed is so hard

Because I just don't know what to do next

I wish sometimes it were okay not to speak

Because sometimes I just wish I had the option not to

I wish I didn't have this mask stapled to my face metaphorically speaking

I wish sometimes someone would tell me it's okay to be weak, and small, and to need help

I wish someone would tell me it's okay to be autistic and "not smart" or "not verbose"

I'm so tired of being verbose. I'm tired of talking. Im.so. so tired.

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Notifications are officially being turned off! I will check back from time to time, and if I come back for good I'll let yall know!

Love yall!

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I'm officially turning notifications off at the end of the day. I'll check back periodically, if you want to know where I'm moving to, please DM me for the username I'm going by!

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progressive spaces will say "the gender binary isn't real!" then create a new binary of "evil masculine" and "innocent feminine"

"evil masculine must be purged so it does not corrupt the innocent feminine, because the evil masculine is conniving and the innocent feminine is too sheltered to know better than to fall for the evil masculine's tricks" and they just live like that

(it's the radical feminism poisoning btw)

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Update

Eyo, gonna put a little update here about my future on tumblr- or rather, off of it.

Pretty soon, I might be moving to Mastodon and slowly transitioning my social media experience over there.

Unfortunately, Tumblr has become rather hostile to anyone with a transmasculine outlook on life as more and more Twitter refugees come onto the site. It's been directly correlated, and its not a great environment for my mental health.

I won't be leaving forever, I don't think- tumblr is kind of my home base.

It's also a place I've been put down, slandered, yelled at, and told to go kill myself on many occasions for who I am, opinions I've held, and things like that. It's a place that documents my struggles, but it's also caused me... a shit ton of stress. I do not ever share those asks from the past, or the messages I get, because I don't want that to be an encouraging factor into people bullying me more.

I wanna try something new. I wanna try someplace smaller, where it's not being flooded with people who have decided that I as someone transitioning to have a deeper voice and be called sir tell me I deserve to go to hell because of supposed "inherited male privilege" that I do not, nor will ever receive due to the fact that I'm a gender nonconforming individual.

Tumblr, at this point, has started to become hostile. It's the asexual hatred wave all over again- except this time transmascs and transfemmes are the target because any kind of masculinity- transitioned away from or to or inbetween- has been co-opted by TERFs to harm us and claim we're garbage human beings.

I'm really tired of it. I miss connecting with others. I miss the furry fandom. I miss having fun on this app. And unfortunately, Tumblr keeps getting worse because Staff refuses to listen to any of us.

I love yall, you'll still see me on here reblogging things for a little while. But eventually I'm gonna try and archive this blog so it's just a record, and move on to a platform that might be better for my mental psyche and encourage creativity and identity freedom. That's all.

See you, space cowboy.

(If I come back eventually, I will reblog this with a picture of a sad frog.)

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Arthur, 32

”My cap is OnlyNY, glasses are vintage Jack Nicklaus, top is Marni, pants are Bode, loafers are Church’s, and bag is Acne Studios. Vintage textiles and patterns are my current style inspiration.”

May 11, 2023 ∙ Chelsea

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“bocchi waffled”

By にたり

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Sorry to talk about art drama from 10 years but "art style theft" is such bullshit. You are going to subconsciously take inspiration from others and anyone who says what they make is completely original is in denial and egotistical

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Crochet patterns are either like:

"Hey here are some really simple instructions with pictures for reference! I've also included links to how to do these stitches, what yarn I used and where I buy it, and how much I used! :)"

Or

"Hey here's ONLY the abbreviations for the stitches with no context, you'll have to know how to FIGHT GOD and have yarn made from the wool of ONLY FEMALE SHEEP FED ONLY GRASS AND LESS THAN 4 YEARS OLD that costs 5000$ per skein. And no I won't tell you how much you'll need."

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@sci-the-superb

one thing i know is that there is no problem an "awawawawa" or a "wehh" or a "yippee!" can't fix

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If you don't respect straight trans men I'll kill you btw

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Based on this post right here, and the fact that a mod made a similar poll in a discrod server I'm in :3

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can we deromanticize kissing or are we still too deep in amatonormativity for that conversation :/ ?

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hello this is my favorite post ever and also life goals

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Photosensitivity warning for Good Omens season 2.

I can’t believe we have to keep doing this over and over again but in season 2 episode 1 of good omens there is a long scene (upwards of ten seconds, which to me is long for an extremely dangerous epilepsy trigger) of very bright white and red flashing lights. It’s the entire screen. Unfortunately for me I was already watching this with a migraine coming on and I’m immediately in agony. There was no warning whatsoever before this happened. It’s at almost the very end of the episode. Please reblog to save someone a migraine or seizure.