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captain america: civil war

bucky:

steve: 

tony: 

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i love when sibling characters are fucked up from the same event but in opposite ways

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@gay-jewish-bucky Thank you for the correction, I love your blog!

Do you think Bucky knows Yiddish?

I do! I kind of go into it here and here (both are a little nsfw) and here.

I think, given the historical evidence, it's very likely that Bucky grew up fluent in Yiddish (it didn't fall out of use in Ashkenazic communities in the diaspora until after the war).

To me it's his mother tongue, his home, his connection to his own Jewish identity and to the vibrant Jewish community he grew up in.

It's attending Yiddish theatre and of the rabbis at his family's synagogue.

It's fond memories of his family and childhood, of his parents and his sisters and the loving home they gave him that he misses so much.

It's stories of the shtetls and pogroms and calls of resistance, a constant reminder that we will outlive them.

It's sending secret notes to Steve in class and making their own private language by combining their native tongues.

It's what he defaults to when all other words fail him, when he's feeling too much or nothing at all.

It's joy and heartbreak and love and fear and everything in between, sweet and bitter.

It's refusing to assimilate no matter how hard you're pushed.

It's reclaiming his identity and his place in his community.

It's coming home over and over again.

It's woven into the very core of his being and it's one of the few things Hydra could never take from him no matter how hard they tried.

I think these days he speaks it more freely (both Yiddish and Yidglish); Steve knows enough to keep up (just like Bucky knows enough Irish to keep up with Steve), and Bucky is passionate about its revitalization.

In summary: Yes. Bucky not only knows Yiddish, he also speaks it every day with pride.

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Things that work in fiction but not real life

torture getting reliable information out of people

knocking someone out to harmlessly incapacitate them for like an hour

jumping into water from staggering heights and surviving the fall completely intact

calling the police to deescalate a situation

rafting your way off a desert island

correctly profiling total strangers based on vibes

effectively operating every computer by typing and nothing else

ripping an IV out of your arm without consequences

heterosexual cowboy

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I got so much joy out of reading "Kirk is a very Vulcan human" the other night because that is exactly how I understand Kirk (and why I think he and Spock work) and I'm just so glad to be on the Kirk-understander website. Completely reinvigorated my meta writing brain cells in one sentence. God bless

Seriously though, there's so many instances of Spock saying something like "we might consider it's logical to let everyone die" and McCoy and all the other humans lose their shit while Kirk goes "no let him cook"

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YOURE RUGHT HE FUCKING IS JEWISH

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What strikes me the most about this scene is how quickly Bucky recognizes Steve. Bucky has been tortured. He's semi delirious. It's dark. Steve bears little physical resemblance to how Bucky knows him. Yet, Bucky recognizes Steve's voice in an instant.

All Steve had said at that point was "Bucky.... Oh My God."

And Bucky mutters, "Is that---?

Steve replies. "It's me. It's Steve."

Honestly, I'm not sure I'd recognize my own brother as quickly as Bucky recognized Steve in that same situation.

This tells us exactly how strong the bond is between Bucky and Steve. Bucky recognizes Steve's voice in seconds---recognizes Steve--even though Bucky's barely with it, the room is dark, there's no way Steve should be there, and Steve's almost a foot taller than he "should" be.

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I love how much bones is on the bridge/away teams. does he need to be there? no. does Kirk need his emotional support doctor at all times? yes.

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So, so many heartcells

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Why Bones & Spock NEED Each Other (Grief)

So over my tenure in this fandom I’ve seen some one sided stuff about Bones being mean to Spock, and vice versa and I’m like

Thing is y’all: You’re both right, but you’re also both wrong!

Bones is mean to Spock you’re right! But you know what? That’s a good thing!

Spock is mean to Bones because of course he is! And guess what? That’s also a good thing!

They both need it, and they can only get it (safely) from each other! What they have is (in a weird way) healthy! But it’s only healthy for these two specifically because they understand each other so well!

Prime examples? Somebody has died or gone missing (usually Jim)!

Let’s talk about how Spock & Bones grieve!

Let’s address how each character (generally) moves through the 5 stages of grief

Bones: Anger, Denial, Depression, Bargaining, Acceptance

Spock: Bargaining, Denial, Depression, Anger, Acceptance

They are each individually perfectly equipped to handle each other’s grief (or refusal to grieve)!

Bones initial reaction to death is usually Anger, he blames himself and anyone in proximity. Quickly followed by a weird form of denial, in which he doesn’t deny someone is dead, but he denies that other people think the person is gone and that they felt it when it happened because he’s dunked so hard under his own grief his usually high empathy has switched off.

Now, Bones is highly familiar with grief as a medical professional (and having lost his father). He establishes how important and deeply believes in that process in And The Children Shall Lead.

I think Bones is acutely aware of how he grieves, and is equally aware that throwing these feelings out at just anybody could really hurt them.

But Spock isn’t just anybody, he’s a (half) Vulcan, it’s like shouting at a brick wall, Bones knows Spock can take it. I also believe Spock understands that this state is temporary, which is why he handles it with such grace.

What happens when Bones isn’t able to go off at (not truly “on”) Spock is that Bones keeps that anger to himself and gets bordering-on-suicidal (Depression phase of grief). It happens in Miri (self injection), For The World is Hollow & I Have Touched The Sky (trying to stay behind), and The Empath (the whole freakin episode). Jim is good for comfort, but Spock is good for a slap in the face reality check.

They both know that. It’s why they’re still friends despite how much shit they throw at each other

Not only that, but Bones (almost) ALWAYS apologizes, from their worst fights I can rattle off:

“They were wrong, and I was wrong I’m sorry” (Paradise Syndrome)

“Pawns huh? Well if it makes any difference, this pawn is extremely sorry.” (Day of The Dove)

“Spock I- I’m sorry, it does hurt doesn’t it?” (The Tholian Web)

And that’s not including implied/non-verbal apologies.

Bones needs Spock to help him grieve because otherwise he’s gonna take an emotional nosedive toward attempted Martyrdom. Spock’s stoicism punctured by occasional genuiness helps Bones move to the Bargaining stage (making peace with Spock and everything that’s happened) and later Acceptance.

The inverse of this is also true so let’s address how Bones uses his belligerent nature to jump start Spock’s healthy grieving process!

Bones grieving style (and his confrontational nature in general) is uniquely suited to make Spock honor his Human side, his emotions in the matter. Because we know a softer touch (like Jim’s) while more comfortable for Spock, seldom cracks open that wall of emotional repression unless Jim’s in danger.

Bones doesn’t give a shit, and that ultimately a good thing! Both he and Spock constantly need to be directly shoved against their default reactions to interpret things in a balanced way, which is why they’re perfect for each other.

Without Bones, Spock would never let himself grieve, ever. We also know that, more deeply than Spock, Bones understands grief and how to move through it, he’s familiar with loss (which is why I think he’s so quick to accept someone is dead whenever it happens, it’s the reaction of someone whose had to lose a lot of people and is more comfortable grieving than hoping). There’s a lot of evidence for this in Gamesters of Triskellion & Return To Tomorrow.

He also honors Spock’s human half a lot more than Spock does, it’s one of the fundamental power sources for Bones & Spock’s “the racism’s mutual” banter. And it is mutual, I feel like people forget how often Spock compares modern humans to the worst examples of their/his ancestors and treats them as inferior out of internalized hatred and the general xenophobic attitudes of Vulcan culture. Bones of course responds in kind, usually in cockamamy insults, he’s not as well versed in Vulcan history as Spock is in Human. Although I admit Bones does start it a lot, I think arguing accounts as a love language for him lmao.

So when Bones sees Spock trying to stunt and stifle his grieving process, especially since Bones knows he’s at least partly human and it is affecting Spock’s judgement, it hits literally ALL of Bones nerves.

Bones uses reverse psychology to get Spock to admit he is human and he has feelings ALL THE TIME especially where Jim is concerned. Bread & Circuses, The Immunity Syndrome, The Tholian Web & Requiem for Methuselah!

Spock will absolutely refuse to grieve or at least move on from the self-destructive bargaining/denial loop he gets trapped in unless Bones smacks him around a little. Just like how Bones will get self-destructive unless Spock recenters him via logic.

Again, I think on a subconscious level they both know that, and it’s why they never take each other’s smack downs to heart.

An excellent example, Chekov’s “death” in Spectre of The Gun:

Spock isn’t grieving, but everyone else is, Spock was close to Pavel but isn’t letting himself feel it, which could later backfire. Bones is currently grieving, but there’s no time to grieve because they’re all gonna die in 20 minutes if they don’t find a solution to their dilemma.

Transcript & Breakdown:

Bones: You talk about another man’s [Jim’s] feelings? What do you feel Spock?!

Are you grieving? He was like son to you you’re not acknowledging it, again.

Spock: My feelings are not subject for discussion Doctor.

No, and I’m not going to, leave me alone.

Bones: Because there are are no feelings to discuss!

Well I’m grieving! And I’m gonna reverse psychology your Vulcan ass until you start your grieving process so that I can move on!

Scotty: Mr. Spock Chekov is dead! I say it now and I can hardly believe it, but you worked closely with him! That deserves some memorial!

Bones: Spock will have no truck with grief Scotty, it’s human.

Alright, that first comment didn’t work, maybe “insulting” him will get that thick head of his to acknowledge his feelings.

Jim: Bones! Scotty!

Spock: It’s quite alright Captain, they forget I am half human.

Fine, yes I am grieving for Pavel in my own way. Are you satisfied Dr. McCoy?

Bones: [looks surprised and thoughtful, satisfied with Spock’s answer]

Wow, you said you were human without any disgust this time... huh... good job.

Scotty:[looks ashamed]

The 5 o’clock duel bell rings.

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Star Trek TOS : S01-E13

Spock being Spock

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Spock's List of Requirements

McCoy's list of requirements

Kirk 's list of requirements

List of Starfleet requirements

I tried to master the program by creating this meme. But it looks like I should choose. something simpler is InDesign

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Brb I’m just gonna go cry🥺💖

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spones in star trek tos vs. beyond

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Angry bounce because he can't please Spock.

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Yknow what I LOVE about the Star Trek fandom? It’s ANCIENT. I had a talk with a nice old lady at the old persons home that my great grandma is in and she noticed my Spock shirt and was like “oh I love that show I thought the premise was lovely” and you all know THE PREMISE is trekspeak for spirk and I was like “do you accept the premise because I do” and she looked at me with the eyes of someone who is reliving their otp moments and she said “the premise is all I wrote about, dear” and we just talked about spirk for a hella long time and I just love how age doesn’t matter in this fandom you can be ninety and still be the biggest spirk bitch ever how rad is that

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why are we still here? just to suffer?