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Gentle Parents on TikTok: This consequence/punishment is very harmful and emotionally abusive

Me: That's not true, my parents did that to me all the time and I turned out f--

Me: wait

Me: Oh.

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My psychiatrists over the years trying to diagnose my comorbidities like

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Today's reminder to thank your own body for protecting you and for everything that it does.

More than just a body, it give you the abilities to heal, to discover the world, to feel and to live your life at it's fullest.

It is the best vessel for your beautiful soul and you need to take great care of it 💞

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All my body ever wanted was to be my home. All it ever asked for was to be taken care of. And i was cruel to it. I was cruel to it because others were cruel to me. I couldn't control the way they treated me so I controlled my body instead. Except i didn't. Not really. My ed controlled me. No more. My body is my home and i should love it for that. I should nourish it and take care of it. And I will.

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When I'm about to leave urgent care for something completely unrelated to weight, and the nurse hands me discharge paperwork with my weight and BMI in bold at the top

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TW: Life-Long Effects of Eating Disorders Part 2

Often people have trouble understanding that just because you're recovered, doesn't mean you're done struggling. Here are some things that may never go away~ -Choking on pills because your gag reflex is permanently fucked up -Infertility, or inability to have children due to the potential of life-threatening health complications -Permanently messed up orthostatics (dizziness when standing abruptly, even in recovery) -Heart issues -Chronic fatigue -Brittle hair -Compromised immune system

I have been working hard at practicing radial acceptance. It's okay to not be okay. Survival often means battle scars. Just know that you are absolutely not alone <3

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When I'm staying with friends/family and they always ask why I always need a latte in the morning and won't just drink the coffee from the coffee pot

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oo I have a funny meme/gif request: Family complains about going on a 12 hour fast for hospital: Me, who's used to going without food for days:

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Hiya,, I'm like 7 months into trying to recover and it's not going so great :( my weight has risen but then it got stuck and went down and now I'm stuck again,, I'm on anxiety medication to help me but I'm really struggling to make my weight shift again? Do you have any tips? I just really struggle with stillness and bit exercising :( my stomach ties itself in knots and I feel like I need to just curl up and hide sometimes?? :( its just really hard rn and I want it to get unhard lol

It's been a long time since I've answered questions like this <3 I'm glad I finally have time to restart this. I'm really sorry for the delay! I hope other people can also benefit from this answer though.

Recovering on your own is infinitely more difficult than having a support system, a dietitian at the bare minimum. It's vital to have people, especially medical professionals, who can hold you accountable.

In the meantime, I highly recommend the Recovery Record app. The Rise Up app is another great option. They're both completely free, and it has a LOT of coping skills and motivation tactics.

I know this isn't a perfect answer. I wish I could give you a magic cure. Unfortunately, we don't have one yet :( just know that you are not alone, and you have a huge community routing for you.

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*TW* An inside look for anyone who doesn't know what it's like in the head of someone with an eating disorder, of for anyone who thinks it's just a fear of getting fat~

Me: Lunch today will be leftover pasta

Brain: pOiSoN

Me: I literally just ate it yesterday, it's not poisonous

Brain: PoIsIoN will DIE

Me: Bruh I'm a millennial, I yearn for death anyway

Brain: paSta KILL nO oNe lOvEs YoU are  a l o n e

I eat the pasta. I don’t die. Everything is quiet for a few hours. Then we repeat at dinner.

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BIG NEWS

After going AWOL for like a year, I’ve finally made the decision to reinstate this blog, and move to Patreon. Link will be posted soon.

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are your dms open to venting? there's some things i cant tell my friends.

I am always available for venting <3 I may not post everything that is sent though, as it may be triggering to others

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Today I made myself a happy scale. I took apart an analog bathroom scale and replaced all the numbers with my favorite compliments.

I’m somewhere between lovely and exquisite today and I’m okay with that 👌🏻