Untitled. 06-17-2024
I stare into a blackened sea that resembles a darker void in the world. I couldnât see nothing but movement in front of me. I listened as the raging seas crashed from one shore to another. It was seeking vengeance tonight.
For what ? I canât say. But I do know the sea is unfortunately unforgiving. Just had Iâve been. Long ago.
âWhat are you doing out here alone?â His low voice crept into my ear as he approached from behind me. I didnât turn around. As much as I wanted to, I couldnât bring my body to face him.
His lengthy arms wrapped around my torso with a heavy quilted blanket, covering us.
âI needed to stop my thoughts for awhile.â
His head dropped slightly down on my mine. He gets lost in the coiled curls from the misty sea. His nose inhales my scent and as he exhales, he says, âYouâre the most beautiful when you donât.â
I blinked and turned away from him. I walked a few feet closer to the water. I hugged my body. I needed to feel miserable as I did on the inside. I needed to not fight the pain anymore. My heart had too many knots, gripping the inside like its own prisoner. He didnât move right away. He walked me through steady curiosity.
My body gave away and I felt his hand reach me before I completely folded. We both were sandy on the ground now and I was making it hard for any recovery to get up.
âWhat I mean is,â He tried to soothe me. âI donât care if you need to cry. Just donât run away from me when you do.â
My eyes burned so much with water that wanted to burst into the ocean. But the more he wrapped his body around me, the more I ended up breaking, awaiting the downpour of everything all at once. Then it started to rain.
âI-â âWe-â âYou-â
He shook his head against mine. âDonât worry about that. Listen to me. Follow my voice back.â
I tried to. Every fiber of my being wanted to not feel everything all at once, but it was too overwhelming. I felt like I had been controlling the forecast all today.
âHey,â He said. âWhatâs your favorite lullaby growing up? Mine was twinkle twinkle little star.â I nodded as if he would get that as mine too. But somehow he understood. âOkay. Then letâs sing it together.â
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And they call her
Rose. đš
To be continued âŚ..
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Bizarre Correspondence
Shit happens.
Sometimes you become attached to someone you shouldnât. Sometimes itâs an opportunity to become overly obsessive with the insane thought that maybe maybe this was a connection for you all along.
But
You were wrong.
In fact
You couldnât have been more wrong.
But in a way
Thereâs relief. Knowing that was never the case.
You know that saying
âNever meet your heroes.â
Well itâs more of a formality to keep the idea you had about them in your head. In your reality âŚ.they are like this for a reason. They help you uncover shit. Dark shit. Heal from it. Find a lighter side. A brighter side to how shitty your road to life has really been.
He was that.
For me.
And maybe thatâs all we will ever be. And Iâm okay with knowing that, this is the way it has to be. If I have to have a fragment piece in my mind to go back to whenever I donât feel fine. Heâll find me. In the quietest corner with the loudest tunes. His melodies will linger in the air along the softest blues. Itâs up to him to paint a picture of scattered emotions leading everywhere and nowhere.
After allâŚ.
If heâs just a fantasy, then in my reality, this is the only way a bizarre correspondence can connect to me.
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I Supernatural is dead, remember?
He lifts the lid on his mouth before saying, âYouâre not normal.â
I balanced the knife between my fingers before inspecting traces of small blood. âNeither are you.â
âSo, what is this huh?â He smirks as the vape hung above him like a halo ring. âA shakedown? Whole world condemnation?â
âQuite the opposite really,â I sliced his wrist with a small incision. He barely flinched. Just continued to puff as his head tilted down to the small wound. I wrapped the knife and put it back on the clasp on my belt. âProof.â
Suddenly his whole body shakes as he grabs the railing from the balcony to hold himself in place. âYou got me here only for proof? Yeah⌠thatâs the reason.â
âIt is.â I said. I took his resin pen and pushed it to my lips. I inhaled and exhaled out into the cold misty air. âSupernatural is dead, remember?â
âTo you,â he challenged. âBut you arenât in your territory anymore.â
I shrugged as I lend against the baloney. He flexed his back and I saw him inching toward me slowly. My eyes veered up as he got closer. He flicks the resin pen and toss it over. My face moved to resentment.
âTwo things,â he trails his fingers as a bridge to my chin. âEither you leave. Or you can have the same fate as that pen.â
My leg was faster and hovered near his neck. âThree things. Youâll have to kick my ass then.â
His smile turned cold. âOh. I was hoping you would say that.â
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âJust be fucking honest about how you feel about people while youâre alive.â
â John Mayer
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âSome people are going to leave but thatâs not the end of your story. Thatâs the end of their part in your story.â
â Unknown
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"wine"
(January 9, 2023)
Distance has always been between us.
Iâve said it before,
Youâve said it before,
Weâve said it before,
And itâs more prevalent now.
âOur friendship aged like fine wineâ you say.
You say you love me,
While you spend all your time talking to other boys,
You apologize for your long response time,
While I answer you in seconds.
We discuss our love lives.
But nevermind all the toxicity and trauma you brought into my life,
Nevermind how you left me crying for months trying to get over you while you didnât apologize,
Nevermind you longing for the same person after a breakup,
Then using me as a rebound.
Just nevermind all the pain you caused me,
Because âour friendship aged like fine wineâ
Or did it?
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Whatâs your name? (dialogue)
(The rest âŚ. Is your imagination đ)
âWhat can I help you with-â
â-is there a way for you to drive us here?â
âWait. What happened? Youâre-â
â- I know. The map! Can you get us-?â
âBut the blood-â
â-Listen⌠listen. Please we donât have much time. We can lose her any minute.â
âRight. Apologies. Hop in.â
âDo you know where to go?â
âIâmâŚ. Familiar.â
âWhat?â
âI mean- itâs not hard to guess.â
âFor fucks sake. Step on the gas.â
âI am! You donât have to do this.â
âBut I do.â
âBut you donât. She means nothing to you, right?â
âLike youâre one to talk.â
âI donât care about her. I find this relationship ridiculously implausible.â
âImplausible? So much shit for such a little mouth.â
âAre you mental?â
âAre you going to stop the red sign from turning green?â
âYou are never going to let that go. Are you?â
âHell no! And youâre about to hit-â
âFuck! That was close. Shut up. One driver only.â
âFine. But you âŚ. do care. Only reason you would be here. At all.â
âGet out my car.â
âGladly. Donât forget to send me the bill.â
âOh trust me. Itâll be a big fat one too. I might purchase some rims.â
âBig talk for a little stepper. Wait- fuck-â
âWhat ?â
âWhatâs your name?â
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I Run
Thatâs why I do it. Iâm a runner who hasnât slowed down. Thatâs the truth.
Itâs never on the other person. So if someone I care about is reading this, please donât take my silence for my defeat. Thereâs a lot of inner demons in conquering and it takes a moment to snap back into⌠well-
Reality.
But I started to like someone. And it scared me shitless. Then doubts formed like dark clouds and engulfed my entire existence.
But I can never run from my pen. đď¸ my writing is the only truth seeker I let in. So Iâm asking if you havenât given up on meâŚ
Donât.
Part of me wants to trust in love again.
But when that day comesâŚ.
Iâll never know.
âđ˝
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Would you look at me?
(Dialogue between two people. The rest of your imagination. đ)
âWould you look at me?â
âI donât need toâ
âPut down the dish.â
âI doubt you want that.â
âYouâre that pissed ? Really?â
âWhy didnât you tell me?â
âFor god sakes. I wasnât expecting you to be there.â
âNoâŚ.. you think!?â
âStop. Stop. Your hands-â
âGet the fuck off me. I know how to clean dishes okay?â
â-Babe. Come on. I didnât know.â
âWas it enjoyable?â
âWhat was enjoyable?â
âDid it make you feel big?â
âAre you fucking kidding me? you think I took joy in any of this? I didnât. But what the fuck was I supposed to do?â
âWait!â
âWait for who?! You?! You werenât even suppose to surviveâ
âFuck you.â
âNo.. wait. Stop. Come on stop. Why the fuck you do keep walking away from me? I said Stop!â
âGet your hands off me.â
âOkay⌠okay. Can we just âŚ. Please Iâm sorry. I didnât mean it like that. Iâm just- you just ⌠Fuck!â
âI thought we were a team.â
âWe are. Baby⌠I swear we are.â
âThen why ? Why were you there?â
âFor you. I was there for you.â
âWhat in the actual-â
âThey wanted you. I said no. Iâll go.â
âWhy would you do that?â
âYou know exactly why.â
âNo I donât.â
âSo you donât knowâŚ. How much I think about you?
âNo- stop. We said-â
â-How much I crave you?â
â-No. Iâm not- I canât hear thisâ
â-How many times I fucking need to say youâre mine?â
âWe canât.â
âWhy not?â
âLiterally life and death hangs between us.â
âAnd? Part of the thrill right?â
âYou arenât thinking clearly.â
âStop. Donât think for me. Iâm the clearest Iâve ever been.â
âWe-â
âWe can. And we will. Now, come here. Iâll prove it.â
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Then Call Me The Joker đ
I sat alone in the dark, blazing my sorrows. Was this the fourth joint? Or maybe the fifth ? I should slow down. I felt cautious enough to go out my room and get some water in the dark. I wore only a big T labeled âI canât Breatheâ and white satin panties. I walked freely through the room because it was summer. That meant my roommate left for home. School was over.
When I stumbled past the living room, I almost jumped outta my skin. I saw him sitting near my small dining room table. He was dressed in all black with low 1s. His tattoos were scattered like monumental pieces from like neck and the way down to his exposed arms. He looked leaner⌠cleaner since the last time we saw each other. His scars healed over and his amber eyes were in full view of me.
He was perfectly still. Quiet. Like he was studying me. He held something in his hand. I couldnât see it clearly through the rapid heart beating in my chest.
âWhat-How are you here?â
He still eyes me slowly. Starting to feel a little more exposed than I like, I tried to go back and find my pants. As soon as I opened the room door, he placed his hand on top of mine to pull it shut. I turn around slowly. He brings his lengthy arm from behind me and creates a bridge for our faces to meet. His fingers tapping against the cheap wooden door was too loud for me to relax.
âYou donât know how long Iâve been looking for you.â When he finally answered, a grin creeped up slightly.
âI wasnât hiding,â I fired back. âI just wanted to be left alone.â
He looks slightly left and see how small my apartment really is. âClearly.â
âAre you going to stand here forever or let me go?â
His laughs vibrates the door we both are leaning on. âCareful. That mouth of yours got you into some serious trouble beforeâŚâ His orange burnt eyes had sunken into my view before he asked, âHadnât it?â
I move away from him completely and make my way into the kitchen. I wasnât trying to rehash the past. And as far as I knew, he was my entire past. I look for that bottle of Pinot Noir I stashed before. Fuck the water now. I ignored his obvious stares as my ass bend down to snag it on the bottom shelf.
âGiving me a show already?â I heard him say.
I rolled my eyes as I watched him lick his lips while propping his head on the counter. His eyes were dead locked on my breasts now. I poured my glass and raised it up. âYou can go to hell.â
âShit ma, you already know that. Problem is⌠do I bring you with me?â
âWhat the hell are you talking about?â
âDonât worry about it.â
âThen stop dodging. Why the hell are you in my house?â
âWhy else?â He throws a set of keys my way. âTo get you out of it. We got work to do.â
I didnât skip a beat and waved one hand in his face. âNo. Iâm not going there. Or anywhere else with you. Ever again.â
âThatâs too bad,â he comes around the counter and stands behind me. His breathing lifts hairs off my ears. Then he whispers, lips barely pressed to them. âShould I let your sister know you ended her life then?â
I blinked and almost choked on my drink. âYouâre such an ass. I told you, it was one job and I was done. I was done when she was bleeding in my arms. I was done when I had to make the call. This is shit I gotta live with. But Iâll be a fool to ever get back in business with you.. ever again.â
âThen call me the joker and quit complaining. Thereâs loose ends. And I need them handled yesterday. So youâre doing thisâŚ.â His hand grabbed my waist and trailed my thigh. He keeps caressing my leg up and down, making an electrifying pattern in his path. When he gets to my ass, he squeezed it with two hands. I tried to cover up the gasp but it was no use. I know he heard it. âWhether I gotta make you scream yes is on you.â
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Take My Hand (dialogue)
(This is a conversation between two people. The rest is your imagination đ)
âTake my hand.â
âWhere are you taking me?â
âMust you know everything?â
âDo I really have to answer that? You know the answer.â
âWell, letâs be adventurous todayâ
âOnly because you say so.â
âWow. Is that all it took?â
âDonât let me trip on anything.â
âYou wonât.â
âHow do you know that?â
âBecause Iâm the one guiding you.â
âOkayâŚâ
âYouâll love it.â
âOkay.â
âOkay. Weâre here.â
âHere as inâŚ..?â
âOpen the door.â
âNothing better jump out, I swear.â
âI promise you.â
âOmgâŚ. why are we-? Why are we in a concert stadium ?â
âBecause Iâm playing at it Saturday night. And I want you to be here when I do.â
âBut I thought you didnât need me this time.â
âI lied. Fact is I really do.â
âI donât know⌠might have to convince me.â
âAre backstage passes convincing?â
âUmm⌠a little better than that.â
âA limo ride there?â
âYou know me better than that.â
âNoâŚ. Not that.â
âOh no. Youâre doing it.â
âCome on. Here ? In the open?â
âOnly way to get me to consider.â
âThatâs coldâŚ.â
âYou doing it or what?â
âFine. DamnâŚ. You were right about it.â
âSpecifically about what?â
âYou were right about me falling in love with you. And-â
âAnd?â
âAbout the other thing tooâŚâ
âPertaining?â
âYou really gonna make me suffer all the way?â
âAs much as that intrigues me, fine. Iâll pull back. On one condition.â
âWhat-?â
âShut up and kiss me already.â
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Writing is the biggest form of weaponry. âđ˝đď¸ My mind will never be changed again.
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I will not beg you for your time or try to convince you to choose me, the world is too big and I have too much to offer.
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"Self-Conscious"
(November 28, 2021)
Writingâs an escape for me, yes: Iâve had quite the talent for writing throughout my years. But how, oh so howâout of everything in the world, out of everything I can do and canât doâoh, how did you make me so self-conscious of the very thing that was my escape?
Oh, just looking at all of this wonderful, spectacular writing shakes me to my very core. And no matter how much adoration I have built up for itâno matter how much of the respect I have gainedâwill ever not make me envious of those who can whip up such raw emotionâsuch breathtaking emotionâand turn it into something great, something so mind-blowing, something very unforeseen.
Call me crazy, will you, call me a monster, call me bad and selfish and everything in between, but you canât rid the fact that writing is the one thing I have built myself onâthe one thing that has helped me convey and receive emotion, the one thing that has helped me out in greater times, and the one thing that defines me. Looking at everyone else, they bring such beautiful power to their words, and yet itâs hard for me to even convey such power through my own words. What is it that others are doing that I am not? What are others doing to turn the attention to them, and pull at the heartstrings of many? When yet these people have their own issuesâtheir own problems and insecuritiesâand still manage to give such powerful meaning to a few mere words.
Perhaps writing is their own escape alsoâperhaps it isnât, and they have already beaten me at my own game. Not even my game, more so someone elseâs game, but still the same regardless. For I am happy those can express such feelings through words, and I also worry that my writingâmy dear, dear writingâisnât having those same effects. How can thoseâoh, those I so adore and admireâmake me so self-conscious about the very technique I have built myself upon?
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PARAMORE IS A BAND!
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