justmecomplainigaboutthings

[justmecomplainigaboutthings]

Tw!!

i can't stand my mom any more, every time im eating, even if im eating just a single peanut, she'll walk next to me and tell me that i should stop eating, that i eat too much, and i won't fit the dress she bought me.

She makes me feel guilty about eating, she made me feel sad about myself, i can't even stand to even look at myself in any mirror, i feel like a disgusting pig who eats everything and anything

I'm trying to get skinnier, and when I'm starting to feel good about my looks, she just say how i got fattier

I'm sincerely so tired about all of this, i just want to leave this house once and for all

[justmecomplainigaboutthings]

[justmecomplainigaboutthings]

I don't know if i have real friends

I'm friends with some girls in my class, I'll call them Ma and Hf but i don't feel like they're really my friends, you know? I feel like I'm just their plus one lol

Like, on recess we'll walk out of class together but they'll exclude me, they walk in front of me Ma will put her arms around Hf shoulders (they're not dating or have romantic feelings for each other, Ma is dating a guy) and I'll just have to follow behind them. If i ever go to another place or talk with my friends from another class, they'll just leave me behind and don't even bother asking why i wasn't with them. I feel like a third wheel on my own friend group

And there's friend group 2, I'll call them Vp, Rb, Mj, Fd and Ge. Fd and i met when we were little kids, between 4-5. Mj and i met at 2018 when he was the new kid at our school, and he's been my crush since. I met Vp, Rb, and Ge on 2022 but I've only became friends with Vp this year.

I was a really close friend of group 2 in 2022, (especially close with Mj since we both liked each other) we would do anything together and they would come to my house so we could just eat and talk. But in july 2022 Mj started dating this girl let's call her AL and i didn't liked her since he introduced her to me, i just had that feeling that she wasn't a good person. Mj grew distant since, and it wasn't the 'im in a relationship so we need to have boundaries' type of distance, he would never talk to me, our late night calls and chats died, he wouldn't even text me anymore. But one day i messaged him, asking why he was so distant and saying that i missed our friendship, he just told me that when he talked to me he 'just didn't had anything better to do'. That of course broke my heart so i just stopped messaging him. AL was everyones favorite person at school, friend group 2 was always around her, wanting to be close to her and just be her friend. I remember one day at recess, i was with friend group 2 and AL showed up, they immediately ran to her and left me alone, then Fd pointed at me and said "Look! JJ has no friends!", i just awkwardly laughed and walked closer to them but didn't said anything.

There were more things that happened between me and friend group 2, but this post is too long, I'll probably post a part 2 today or tomorrow

That's it! Take care! Love you guys!! <3

[justmecomplainigaboutthings]

My first post!!

In this post I'll explain why i created this account and talk a bit about myself!

•Why i created this account?

This account was made so i could talk about the things that happen in my life! I don't have any close friends i can talk about my life, and i really need to get some things out of my chest so i don't feel too bad about it! Feel free to message me or/and express your opinion about everything I post!

•Who are you?

Hi! You can call me JJ! I'm a Brazilian girl my first language is portuguese, so excuse me about any grammatical mistake or something! I won't be exposing my age for privacy reasons but im between 5-20! I like music, drawings (I'm not good at it but i try sometimes), I'm a Jurassic Park and Jurassic World Fan, I love gravity falls and over the garden wall!

I think that's it! If you want to learn more about me you can always ask me!! Take care! <3