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Monday, 24.06.2025

There are so many bugs flying into my room right now, it's a bit annoying... I hope they fly out again once the light is out. The spiders that already live here are enough for me, thank you.

Anyway. Studying. Well, I've been sick the past week and wasn't able to do anything. It made me depressed and having my period and a fight with my boyfriend at the same time didn't really help to make me feel less depressed. If anything, that made it worse.

However. I am feeling much better now, physically and mentally. So it's time to set my mind into a focus mode again and continue working on my bachelor's.

Yesterday I finished writing a chapter on my train ride to uni city. Today I have done nothing. I was unable to focus, because I haven't quite regained my appetite again after having been sick. Plus rapid weather and therefore mood changes made it difficult for me.

In the evening, after my self defence martial arts class, I was very motivated to do homework and then read sources for my thesis, yet I also noticed I'm quite hungry and should eat before bed. So I cooked a little meal and ate it which consumed all my energy and time for this evening.

I don't want to make this post any longer, so I'm finishing it off by saying, I hope tomorrow will be better.

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21.06.2025 // voices echoing in my head

i continue to be terrible at this project management thing, but glad to have various spaces to work out from. transcribing, making notes, writing scraps and pieces, continuous emails and follow-ups. language is so difficult sometimes. the sense of not doing nearly enough haunts me constantly. already dreaming of my desk and croissant wheels, of walking everywhere.

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Sunday, 15.06.2025

Today was a good day. Even though I didn't study, I took the time to relax and do my self care beauty routine intentionally and focused.

Tomorrow I have uni again, I feel prepared since I've already done my homework on friday. Afterwards I am going to travel back to my hometown to help my mother with her preperations for her vacation.

It'll be difficult the next few weeks without her, since I will have to travel home more often and do additional tasks (like watering the plants, visiting the graveyard to water the plants there as well), but I am pretty sure I'll manage it.

I am not sure if I am going to be able to find a time and place to study or have the concentration for it, but I hope I'll at least get to do class homework on the train. I am also sad, that I will have to skip training next week as well. Being physically active has helped me stay focused so far.

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Thursday, 13.06.2025

Today had been frustrating. I really struggled to get out of bed again today. And then I still felt paralysed troughout the day. But at least I managed to get groceries, cook and wash the dishes. And after I had an energy drink, I was thrilled with dopamine and used that to go to martial arts class. Except that it wasn't as exiting as I hoped for it to be. But it's still a good thing I had some physical activity again.

Tomorrow I plan to stick to my regular schedule. Russian class, cafeteria and then library, to do homework there and hopefully study some or even start writing the introduction to my thesis. We'll see.

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studying isn't always aesthetic, and that is totally ok.

not every study session is accompanied by a cool bright matcha and and a perfect messy bun. not all of your notes will be written in beautiful looped cursive and perfectly highlighted.

sometimes the only way you can study is in your pyjamas, sometimes the only place you are sitting down long enough is the bus, sometimes your notecards are tatty and ripped.

you don't always have to be perfectly aesthetic, let go of your performative notes, write notes that help you.

wear things that are comfy and easy to concentrate in.

be gentle with yourself, learn what works for you and stick to it.

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Tuesday, 10.06.2025

Today was tough. I had difficulties getting up in the morning. Wanted to be up at 8am, but endet up snoozing up to almost. So I didn't do much. But I read some sources for my thesis for 2h, which is good. Not sure, if I'm prepared enough for my presentation on Thursday, but we'll see tomorrow.

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Friday, 06.06.2025

the only thing I did for uni today, is go to my Russian class and physically attend it. mentally I was somewhere else.

I've been researching potential jobs I could take, after graduation, since I don't think I'll be able to start a master's degree right away.

I even found one, but the deadline for sending in applications was also today and since I didn't have had anything ready and also don't have the experience in writing and sending one, I had to pass on this one.

but my boyfriend suggested for me to wait anyway and focus on my papers. a month or two before moving out after graduating I can still find the perfect job for me.

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Thursday, 05.06.2025

hey there! I've been gone for a while. my long distance boyfriend visited me and we spent the last three weeks together, so I was quite distracted. my original plan to hang on to my schedule and routine didn't work out as planned.

today was my first day being completely on my own and getting back into my routine. I did some homework for Russian class and went to my Krav Maga course again. my trainer really pushed me at the end, my muscles are going to be so tense tomorrow, but it was worth it.

tomorrow I'm going back to my home town for a few days. I miss my cats.

I also got my letter from the university, my six weeks of preparation for my bachelor's thesis have officially begun today. so I hope I'll manage this with everything else, that is going on currently. I have a lot of catching up to do, since I "wasted" the past weeks doing not enough.

next week I'm going to present my thesis again. and in July I have a presentation for a different paper. it's going to be stressful. but I'll manage.

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I'm very tired and typing this from my phone, so I try to keep this as short as possible.

today was an awesome day. I kept a high motivation from the very beginning till the end. here are some key elements from today.

got up at 8am

had a great time at uni with friends

did my homework and read some literature for my bachelor's thesis

went to my Krav Maga course

it's the perfect time to go to sleep now

I hope you had a fantastic day as well! I'll update again tomorrow, love y'all. 🩷

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Study today, succeed tomorrow!

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Sunday, 11.05.2025

Here I am again!

The past few days I've spent at my mother's place. I got my nails done again (they are shorter now, so I can type better and don't hurt myself nor others at training anymore) und spent some time with a friend and my cats.

Now that I am back at my uni town, it's time to focus again. Last Tuesday I had an appointment with my professor and he helped me alot. I now now where I have to start and what route to take, to write my bachelor's thesis.

Hoprfully y'all here tomorrow from me again, to see what I have accomplished. Until then, take care, study well. 🩷

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Thursday, 08.05.2025

I haven't reflected on here for a while so I guess it's time to do that again.

My self-care app (Finch), gave me the task, to write down my top 10 life achivements, and I thought this here would be a perfect place to reflect on that.

I finished high school

I enrolled in uni

I am still studying and am still happy about it

I am at the finish line of my bachelor studies

I once took an art commission and successfully sold it

I found a loving boyfriend who takes care of me, despite being so far away.

I started taking care of my health and went to specialist doctors.

I am an independant adult

I learned how to make laundry and I enjoy it

I survived the trauma of a unhealthy relationship and am learning to get over it.

It does feel nice, to have all these things listed in front of me. Maybe this can be an inspiration for you to do the same.

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Danke an @@@studyblr und alle, die mir zu 25 Reblogs verholfen haben!

well mostly it's because of my own reblogs but still, very cool xD.

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welp. I did nothing today except play video games and watch my series with the limited time I had with my boyfriend.

so there's nothing more to say. I did my best this week but I am exhausted. I just hope to do okay tomorrow and on Tuesday I have my appointment with my professor. the rest of the week except for Friday I will be spending in my home town, to take some time off and get other things done. like manicure, laundry, spending quality time with friends and my cats. I miss them so much.

I'll update more tomorrow. 🩷

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Friday, 02.05.2025

hello! I feel so happy and content today. After class I spent some time with friends at lunch and then went to the library. I studied for three hours there. did my homework, continued reading my e-book from yesterday and looked for some more interesting literature for my thesis. not sure if I should study at home tomorrow or visit the library again.

and afterwards I went to my Krav Maga class and got to exhaust myself physically. I'm so glad I choose this kind of sport for myself because it really helps me to balance with my emotional stress.

also, since everybody else has been sharing, here's my forest "wrapped" from April.

hopefully I'll do better in May!

I'll see you tomorrow with another daily update. 🩷💖

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Studying with a tired heart and a hopeful mind

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Thursday, 01.05.2025

Today was a very good and productive day for me! I cleaned my room, took out the trash, made myself lunch and dinner and studied for almost 3h. Studying in this sense means, I read an e-book that is similar and might be useful for my bachelor's thesis, but I am not sure how smart it was to actually spent so much time on reading it. But, it was interesting so I kept going.

Tomorrow I want to finnish reading the e-book and start on a different one. After class I'll go to the cafeteria for lunch and afterwards to the library to do homework and continue reading.

Until then, keep on going, keep on studying, I'll see you tomorrow. 🩷💖