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i hate it when parents do the thing where they (try to) make their scars into yours like yeah I get it it hurt when you broke up with your significant other but that doesn't mean it affected me in the same way?? don’t push your negative experiences and feelings onto me because we have different points of view so how about you actually ask me instead of just assume???

or when they do the thing where they turn your scars into theirs, being as if it was them having the panic attack out of nowhere like??? if I don't talk about it it either means I don't want to and need to process and think about it or I have forgotten about it and it doesn't matter to me. but that doesn't mean it’s not unpleasant when they bring it up again and again like chill I need to process it too and you weren’t the one affected so STOP. let me breathe

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so my class and I went to watch moonlight and afterwards we were talking about it and I heard this one guy complain that the whole cast were black people and I honestly had to turn away so I wouldn't punch him. wdym too many black ppl? I bet if the cast was all white you wouldn't say a fucking word asshole

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self help tips

this is a list of things I did to help myself

1. meditate regularly: meditation is helpful because it grounds you and is centered around your breathing. as breathing is essential for life, this will make everything easier. it also helps you be ware of your body and mind.

2. drink tea and / or take a bath: the heat will make you mind relax and loosen muscles that might be tense. it also gives you time to treat your body, which is very important.

3. listen to calm music: I really recommend listening to classical music or at least music without lyrics. lyrics may keep you distracted and as you want to relax and maybe think deeply, lyrics may disturb you. another factor is that we are constantly surrounded by voices and words so taking time not listening to what people are saying is very healthy for your mind.

4. write down every little feeling and not welcome thought; try to find out, why you feel or think that way. this kind of thinking takes a lot of training and knowing yourself so don't be discouraged if you can’t pinpoint the cause at the first try. instead, write down that you don't know why you’re feeling that way, too, and try the next time. this kind of mindful awareness is really helpful, especially if they are worries or thoughts you know are wrong and useless. if you know why you feel / think that way, you can change it.

5. tell someone about your problems / worries / situation. this is the standard thing everyone tells you but it is really helpful because you get an outside point of view and maybe even a solution you couldn't think of before. I didn't really trust my family enough to tell them and was ashamed (although I know I shouldn't) to tell my friends. so, if you are in a similar situation, there are free websites like 7 Cups where you can talk anonymously to people who went through some training to talk about people’s problems. I did it and I can only recommend it!

6. if it gets worse and worse and things really get out of hand, you should seek a professional. no matter how many self help tips you find on the internet, a counsellor is still the best method to help you.

7. be selfish! in times like these, it’s very important to do as much as possible for yourself, so don’t be afraid to say ‘no’ to going out or doing an errand you don't feel like doing. you also shouldn't be guilty about being selfish, because what you need comes before anyone else’s demand, and you shouldn't overwhelm yourself if you’re not mentally stable.

8. don't isolate yourself from the world! it’s good to have some alone-time, but if you spend too much time being alone with your thoughts your situation could worsen. go out with your friends once in a while, even if you don't feel like going. I promise it will do some good. being with friends has a positive influence on you and keeps you distracted from your thoughts you don't want to have. you can also enjoy yourself and temporarily push your thoughts away. that really helps.

9. go out regularly, even if it’s alone. you can just walk around in the city or in a park and enjoy little things by finding beauty in mundane things like ducks swimming around, children on a playground, a dog... try to let them cheer you up. I can promise you that walks in parks help a lot, because nature heals. it really does.

10. do sports! I personally hate sports and am very bad at anything sport related, but when I felt stuffy or frustrated or like the walls of my room were closing in on me, I used to go running. it clears your mind by taking it off thinking repetitively and focusing just on running etc. it also frees dopamine, a hormone for positive feelings. running / doing sports outside is even better as you breathe in fresh air.

11. wirte little positive reminders where you can see them! little things like phrases that motivate you or that you always wanted somebody to tell you but never did. I used to write little post its like “smile!” “Don't give up!” “you can do it!” and stick them on the wall above my desk, around my mirror etc. whenever I would pass them, I would do what it said or just breathe deeply and try to take my reminder seriously. if you feel like it, you can even draw a little something to make it more vivid.

12. treat yourself with things you love! I ate lots of chocolate (even though it’s not healthy) and easily gave in to desires I would normally suppress. in that case, mind goes over body. of course that doesn't mean you shouldn't take care of your body, in the contrary, you should take even more care of your body than usually. treating yourself with face masks, scrubs, baths etc. will calm you down and be aware of your body. and who doesn't love a full body treat?

13. drink a lot of water and eat lots of fruit and vegetables. water will keep headaches away and will keep you hydrated and often wake you up or motivate you. fruit and vegetables have lots of vitamins and minerals you need even more in times like these. generally, make sure you eat at least three meals a day with at least one warm meal. it will give your body the strength it lacks and keep it going. also, food doesn't just go to the stomach, but to the heart as well ;)

14. sleep a lot! I’m sure your body will do this by itself - as it knows what it needs - so don’t force yourself to stay awake if your body tells you to rest. seep at least 8h a day. this might sound like a lot, but your body really needs it because it is mentally tired (I’m sure you feel this, too). being in this state constantly is physically and mentally really exhausting, so give your body and mind time to rest and process everything.

15. sweettalk yourself! I know how hard it is to find motivation in the morning to get up for school / work, let alone tackle a whole day without having a mental breakdown. so remind yourself to take it slowly and do one thing at a time. an example for what I did is telling myself things like this: “you are going to go to school motivated, talk to friends and classmates, listen to and engage the best you can in class discussions, focus on what the teacher says.” of course I didn't always succeed in doing these things - in fact, most of the time I didn't. but just telling myself these thinking of the times I didn't do it gave that little spark of motivation and ambition to do better this time. this varies from person to person and I can’t guarantee you it will work for you, but it won’t hurt to try.

16. the moment you notice yourself having negative thoughts, correct yourself and turn it into positive / neutral thoughts. for example: “I look really fat today, i feel so ugly.” change that to “no, that’s not right. my tummy sticks out because I just ate lunch, but that’s normal and not bad. if it continues to bother me, I will cover it up by wearing a hoodie.” if it doesn't work, write your negative / unwelcome thoughts down to get them out of your head or distract yourself with other activities.

17. even if you don’t believe it, keep telling yourself little reminders to boost your confidence, as the first step to achieving confidence is to fake it. it also boosts up your self esteem if you tell yourself things like “I am strong and I look amazing today and I can definitely tackle this day.” even if you don't feel like tackling the day, just telling yourself is may be enough motivation to get up and start doing small tasks.

18. whenever you look at yourself in the mirror, smile or laugh at your reflection, no matter how forced it is. seeing yourself smile is nice and the best part about it is that when you look away, you’ll feel so dumb and childish that you’ll start laughing or smiling for real. it really works and cheers you up, even if only a little bit! because I used to forget about that, I made an alarm and named it ‘smile’, and every time it rang I would go to stand in front of my mirror for a few seconds and then continue doing what I was doing before.

19. this is really hard to explain, but try to find little things that symbolize or mean something to you, something that gives you strength and hope and motivation. for example, when I felt bad I used to look at the clear blue sky or the sunset and look at the shapes of the clouds. I immediately felt protected and safe as well as calm and grounded and sometimes even happy. the sun and sky have a lot of meaning for me. for you it might be that one souvenir you bought or your stuffed animal or the concert tickets you already bought and can’t wait to go to... it’s best to have it always with you so you can look at it wherever you are. (I hope you get what I mean, this one’s kinda hard to explain.)

20. do a lot of research about your situation and symptoms and really anything you don't understand about yourself. of course, the internet doesn’t know everything as it is not a human and can’t specialize it for your specific situation, but giving names to your symptoms and feelings / actions helps you clarify things and understand yourself better, therefore learning to cope with it or change it. it makes you feel reassured that you’re not the only one feeling that way and that it is ‘normal’ in your circumstances.

all these things helped me get through it without telling my family about it or going to a counselor, but I can’t guarantee you it’ll work for you as well and I advise you to go to a professional before it gets worse, as ashamed you might feel. I really regret not going to a counselor although I can say that I’m okay now. please don’t be ashamed of your feelings! we are all humans and a lot of people feel like you and go through the same things, so please know that you’re not alone. I personally find it really brave and courageous to ask for help. it’s a sign of loving yourself and being strong, and I really admire people for that.

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I was just reading catcher in the rye and the part about the ducks bugs me so much like,,, the question is so easy but at the same time it’s a legit question and I can’t even call him stupid because I don’t know either????

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Does anyone else have that problem where they look or think of a person way out of their league in terms of looks and fame and so on and you just think about how it would be if y'all were together? Like you don't even need to be attracted to them, but you just think about yourself with them and then the next second you think “stop it, you don't even like them” I do that all the time and it's so weird because I know that if I were to miraculously date them it would be so weird and wrong because we're just so not alike but I still think about it a lot anyways I'm weird ok

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to all my fellow ladies out there, let me tell you something. don't shave your body hair because that's what society tells you to do. shave because you want to shave. when are people going to stop pretending body hair on women is not normal? humans have body hair everywhere, except for their palms, lips and soles of their feet. we have hair on our legs, belly, arms, back, ass, feet, toes, fingers, upper lip, between the brows, on our cheeks, on our boobs, between our boobs, around our nipples... that hair can be light and barely visible to dark and long and everything a woman “should not have”. shaving costs a lot and is really time consuming, considering you’d have to have your whole body. waxing hurts like hell, especially if your hair is thick. it always baffles me how other people dare shaming on my body, saying things like “omg, you have rally hairy arms! can I touch them?” as if I’m a fucking attraction in a zoo. I\m sorry to inform those people that yes, indeed, I have hair on my arms as a girl and I don't shave my arms and they look like men’s arms, and yes, indeed, I have been aware of that fact for my entire life, but thank you for pointing it out in a manner that makes me feel really loved. I even have a friends that tells me that every so often and every time I tell her that it hurts me but she just can’t seem to stop. tell you what? fuck these kind of ignorant people. they don't know what it means to struggle with yourself because you don't look “normal”, because you don't shave your legs in winter and apparently that’s not ladylike. you don't need to be ladylike, you are a woman that owns her body and you can do whatever you want to do with it. and it pisses me off beyond words when ignorant people go out there body shaming, but when called out it’s “just a joke” and “i didn't mean it like that. she’s a nice person.” the fuck you mean, you didn't mean it? if you didn't, then you shouldn't have said it. you don't go out there making jokes about people’s bodies o insecurities, especially when it’s obvious they’re struggling with loving and accepting their body. so when someone comes up to you and calls you out for whatever, you don't shy back and don't reply. you ask them what’s bad about that, and what made them say that, so that they start actually thinking about their actions. and if they keep being an ignorant asshole, fuck them and stop talking to them. they don't deserve people like you.

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it amazes me how I’ve gone from doing all assignments for the whole week on the weekend to doing them the day before to doing them the hour before to not doing them at all

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do you ever just laugh manically at something that isn't even remotely funny and think “what the fuck is wrong with me” but you keep laughing hysterically anyway because same

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I love it when you text with a person you really like and the conversation just flows so naturally and you actually have fun texting and you never want to go to sleep and just text them

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the day I finally adopt a cat I will hype her so much like ill make her an Instagram and all I’ll talk about is my cat and i’ll promote her and I’ll celebrate her birthday and I’ll buy her presents and shower her with love. she’ll be so spoiled but I couldn’t care less

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Giriboy, Mad Clown, Jooyoung - 0 (Young) (ft. No Mercy) j-hope - 1 VERSE B.A.P - 1004 Agust D - 140503 At Dawn One Direction - 18 Akdong Musician - 200% DEAN - 21 BTS - 21st Century Girl BTS - 24/7= Heaven BTS - 2nd Grade EXO - 3.6.5. Suga - 518 - 062 BTS - 95 Graduation BTS - A Typical Idol’s Christmas BTS - A Typical Trainee’s Christmas Miso - Ache 5mg - Adios Cigarettes After Sex - Affection Agust D - Agust D EXID - Ah Yeah VIXX - Alive Suga - All I Do Is Win Dalchong - Alone Infinite H - Alone Little Mix - Always Be Together Bang Yongguk - AM 4:44 BTS - Am I Wrong 10cm - Americano Heize - And July (ft. DEAN, DJ Friz) Red Velvet - Automatic BTS - Awake Rap Monster - Awakening EXO - Baby EXO - Baby Don’t Cry Infinite - Back Got7 - Back To Me Infinite - BAD Big Bang - Bae Bae Big Bang - BANG BANG BANG offonoff - bath Song Haye - Be Alright BTS - Beautiful EXO - Beautiful Amber - Beautiful Crush - Beautiful Jonghyun - Beautiful Lady BTS - Begin Zico - Bermuda Triangle (ft. DEAN, Crush) Park Jaehyung - Better Man Bevy Maco - Bad Dreams (ft. Summersoul) punchnello - Birthday EXO - Black Pearl ?? - Blow A Kiss, Fire Up The Heart offonoff - blu Queen - Bohemian Rhapsody Park Boyoung - Boiling Youth DEAN - Bonnie & Clyde Amber - Borders BTS - Born Singer Kehlani - Bright Infinite - BTD The Foundations - Build Me Up Buttercup BTS - Butterfly BTS - Butterfly (Prologue Mix) Baek Yerin - Bye Bye My Blue Rigid Goons - C.O.Y EXO - Call Me Baby Red Velvet - Campfire Bring Me The Horizon - Can You Feel My Heart Eels - Can’t Help Falling In Love Pentatonix - Can’t Sleep Love Miso - Castles VIXX - Chained Up Lovewave - Chamber Little Mix - Change Your Life PREP - Cheapest Flight Twice - Cheer Up BTS - Christmas Day EXO - Christmas Day Claude Debussy - Claire de Lune Mot. - Close Lovewave - Closer offonoff - Cloud BTS - Coffee Day6 - Colors B.A.P - Coma Zion.T - Comedian Little Mix - Competition Zion.T - Complex (ft. G-Dragon) Day6 - Congratulations BTS - Converse High Red Velvet - Cool World 10cm - Corona punchnello - Corona (ft. Crush) 4Minute - Crazy iamnot - Cut BTS - Cypher 4 BTS - Cypher Pt. 1 BTS - Cypher Pt. 2: Triptych BTS - Cypher Pt. 3: KILLER DEAN - D (Half Moon) (ft. GAEKO) PSY - DADDY BTS - Danger Red Velvet - Day 1 Kim Sunggyu - Daydream Tori Kelly - Dear No One Park Sihwan - Dessert Infinite - Diamond Suga - Diss Rap Monster - Do You Jinshil of Mad Soul Child - DODODO (ft. SparkH) Red Velvet - Don’t U Wait No More Sik-K - Don’t Play (ft. punchnello) Rheehab - Drama (ft. Teogold) Suzi & Baekhyun - Dream offonoff - Dreamgirl Rap Monster - Dreamin’ Kim Soohyun - Dreaming Cigarettes After Sex - Dreaming Of You Red Velvet - Dumb Dumb EXO - El Dorado UNIQ - EOEO BTS - Epilogue: Young Forever Hyorin X Jooyoung - Erase VIXX - Error Jhene Aiko - Eternal Sunshine Live, Sik-K, punchnello, Owen Ovadoz, Flowsik - Eung Freestyle Chen X Punch - Everytime Rheehab - Everywhere EXO - Exodus Soulights - Fall Paloalto - Fancy (ft. DEAN, Sway D) Rap Monster - Fantastic (ft. Mandy Ventrice) Infinite - Feel So Bad Hani - Fire Ed Sheeran - Firefly EXO - First Love Joe Hisaishi - First Love BTS - First Love Day6 - First Time Curtis Fuller - Five Spot After Dark Epik High - Fly Got7 - Fly PRE AK - Fly Jordan v.2 Infinite - Follow Me Troye Sivan - Fools Rap Monster & Jeongguk - Fools BTS - For You Day6 - Freely Akdong Musician - Galaxy Sik-K - GANG (ft. Mac Kidd) EXO - Girl x Friend Agust D - give it to me Akdong Musician - Give Love Jimin N J.Don - GOD Got7 - GOOD GD x Taeyang - Good Boy Eric Nam - Good For You 10cm - Good Night Ailee - Goodbye My Love BTS - Graduation Song punchnello - Green Horizon D&E (Super Junior) - Growing Pains Tove Lo - Habits Red Velvet - Happiness 4Minute - Hate Rosi Golans - Hazy Lilmoney - hcilu (ft. lym en) Demi Lovato - Heart Attack EXO - Heart Attack Willamette Stone - Heart Like Yours Ailee - Heaven Amber - Heights Adele - Hello CL - Hello Bitches Yeeun - Hello To Myself Alessia Cara - Here Sam Tsui - Here Without You Miso - Higher EXO - History Perfume Genius - Hood Miso  - Hooey Park Jimin - Hopeless Love EXID - Hot Pink BTS - House Of Cards (Full Length Edition) Red Velvet - Huff N Puff Day6 - Hunt EXO - Hurt Lasse Lindh - Hush VIXX - Hyde Taeyeon - I (ft. Verbal Jint) Rap Monster - I Believe Sik-K - I Call It Love 2NE1 - I Don’t Care Infinite - I Don’t Know rheehab - I Just Wanna Live BTS - I Like It Pt. 2 DEAN - I Love It (ft. Dok2) Akdong Musician - I Love You Soyu - I Miss You Eels - I Need Some Sleep BTS - I NEED U Miso - I still need Jessi - I Want To Be Me Jeon Jeongguk - I’m In Love Giriboy - I’m In Trouble, You’re A Medical, LO:OP DEAN - I’m Not Sorry (ft. Eric Bellinger) Red Velvet - Ice Cream Cake Blackbear - idfc Nickelback - If Everyone Cared BTS - If I Ruled The World Big Bang - If You Jeon Jeongguk - If You Fall Out Boy - Immortals Ailee - Insane BTS - Interlude Agust D - Interlude; Dream, Reality BTS - Interlude: Wings BTS - Interlude: What Are You Doing BTS - Intro Agust D - Intro; Dt sugA (ft. DJ Friz) BTS - Intro: 2 Cool 4 Skool (ft. DJ Friz) BTS - Intro: Boy Meets Evil BTS - Intro: Never Mind BTS - Intro: O!RUL8,2? BTS - Intro: Skool Luv Affair BTS - Intro: What Am I To You BTS - Intro: Most Beautiful Moment In Life Keith Ape - It G Ma (ft. JayAllDay, Loota, Okasian, Kohh) Eye Candy - Jaywalking Sik-K - Jealous (ft. Donutman) BTS - Jump Christina Grimme, Sam Tsui - Just A Dream India.Arie - Just Do You Hyuna - Just Follow (ft. Zico) Cigarettes After Sex - Keep On Loving You 10cm - Kingstar Kim Sunggyu - Kontrol EXO - Lady Luck Red Velvet - Lady’s Room Big Bang - Last Dance Demi Lovato - Let It Go BTS - Let Me Know EXO - Let Out The Beast TAEK - Liar BTS - Lie Rap Monster - Life Infinite - Light EXO - Lightsaber Rap Monster, Jeon Jeongguk - Like A Star punchnello - LIME Standing EGG - Little Star Big Bang - Loser BTS - Lost Ruth B - Lost Boy Jeon Jeongguk - Lost Stars Little Mix - Love Drunk BTS - Love Is Not Over (Full Length Edition) G.Soul - Love Me Again EXO - Love Me Right Amber - Love Run Justin Bieber - Love Yourself EXO - Lucky BTS - Ma City Cheeze - Madeleine Love Little Mix - Madhouse Little Mix - Make You Believe BTS - MAMA EXO - MAMA Infininte - Man In Love SHINee - Married To The Music Ryuichi Sakamoto - Merry Christmas, Mr. Lawrence offonoff - midnight offonoff - mind Got7 - Mine EXO - Miracles In December EXO - Monster Rap Monster - Monster offonoff - Moon, 12:04AM Got7 - Moonlight EXO - Moonlight IU - Morning Tears Little Mix - Move BTS - Mrs. Right EXO - My Answer EXO - My Lady EXO - My Turn To Cry BTS - N.O Heize - Never Far Away (unofficial) Crush - newyork(birdland) Got7 - Nice BTS - No More Dream A Sol - No Play Time Urban Zakapa - No Way Perfume Genius - Normal Song The Beatles - Norwegian Wood BTS - Not Today Little Mix - Nothing Feels Like You Jeon Jeongguk - Nothing Like Us Cigarettes After Sex - Nothing’s Gonna Hurt You Baby Infinite - Nothing’s Over ESBEE - Now And Forever punchnello - Null (Black) Red Velvet - Oh Boy Sister Act 2 - Oh Happy Day Green Shoe Studio - Oh Sweet Lorraine Seventeen - OMG EXO - On The Snow One Direction - Once In A Lifetime Kpop Collaboration - One Dream One Korea Red Velvet - One Of These Nights B.A.P - One Shot Miso - only u Twice - Like Ooh-Aah Lucia - Ophelia Lil Cats - Our Nights Adam Lambert - Outlaws Of Love BTS - Outro BTS - Outro: House Of Cards BTS - Outro: Love Is Not Over BTS - Outro: LUV IN SKOOL BTS - Outro: Propose BTS - Outro: Wings BTS - Outro: Does That Make Sense? One Direction - Over Again