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WE NEED TO START TELLING PEOPLE ABOUT BIGENDERISM

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he's really making it difficult for me to plan to have a fun time with laios and rin tonight because he's freaking his fucking leek about our plans. can you shut the fuck up

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im gonna smother one of the other dickbags in here with me with a pillow i fucking swear to all that's holy

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autistic kabru real he told me. he told me

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What ppl don’t understand about Kabru (of Utaya) is that his natural state is not bitter hater. That’s Chilchuck. Kabru is only a bitter hater around Laios bc Laios has a unique talent for pissing other autistic ppl off. Kabru’s natural state is being a weird overly talkative charismatic freak who’s way too much in everyone’s business. He’s like a cheery yoga mom on 800mg of caffeine and no sleep.

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A picky eater through and through, you still have much to learn

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Love love love characters that present themselves as emotionally open social butterflies but the more you see of them the more obvious it is that they’re the most closed off fuckers in the story. Sure, they want to help you with your personal problems and messy emotions, but if you turn that shit back on them, they’ll shut down or deflect every time. Why are you sticking your nose in their business anyway? It’s not like it matters. They’re not a person, they’re just a role being played. They’re the guy who fixes things and saves people. Please ignore the man behind the mask, he’s fine. Everything’s fine.

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immaculate surface

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It’s equal parts being a girl now (some of the time/parts of me) and like, not just being but UNDERSTANDING being aro that makes me able to date rin now when I wasn’t before

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"but aces and aros can be in relationships"

Yes, I know that, but do YOU know that aces and aros in relationships are still aces and aros? Do you internalize that? Are you aware that we don't just suddenly turn straight, or gay or anything else?

Yes, even demis

Are you aware that a sex repulsed asexual will still be sex repulsed even in a relationship, and so, might never fuck you?

Are you aware that a romance repulsed aro will still be romance repulsed even in a seemingly normative relationship and might not like doing typical romantic gestures and activities?

Are you aware that a sex neutral or positive asexual might not actually be sexually attracted to you at all even if they do fuck you?

Are you aware that a romance neutral or positive aro might not actually be romantically into you even if they are comfortable with typical romantic gestures?

Are you aware that our identities are just as permanent as yours?

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Kabru 💎

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I’m sorry but this is so funny

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genuine question: how can you tell if you want your relationships to be platonic but you do want to do things generally associated WITH romance? like, I’m fucking my two best friends but our relationships are kind of “it’s complicated” right now because I think I might be aro and not really “experience” romance but like, The World associates things like cuddling and holding hands and kissing and sex with romance and I do want to do those things so I get confused by it? sorry if this question makes NO sense tho

no it makes total sense!! and honestly i think you’ve kind of explained the answer yourself there already - the world associates those things with romance but The World is not in your head or your heart or your body or your relationships! the only people who get to decide what your relationships and the things you do in them mean are you and the other person/people. plenty of things are associated with other things by default but don’t actually have anything intrinsic about them that makes them Automatically into something. this is especially true about relationships and intimacy and affection and other aspects of being with other people. different cultures have different standards for this stuff too! different people have different boundaries and different feelings about what actions mean to them and in what contexts they want them. the only person who can make those decisions for you is you!

for me, i’ve always wanted those things too. (well deciding i was open to sex specifically was a decision i came to about a year ago exactly, so not exactly Always but that’s immaterial.) physical affection and intimacy is something i’ve always craved and kind of figured i wouldn’t be able to have because of the way it got talked about and seen by so many other people. because when i thought about whether i wanted romance or wanted those things WITHOUT romance the answer was always, to me, very clear! something about the thought of romance and romantic attraction and romantic interaction always just felt viscerally wrong and bad to me. and not only did i want those things more without romance, i ONLY wanted them if i could have them without romance.

and it helped to look around and see other people doing the things i wanted to do in a nonromantic context too. hearing people tell stories about kissing their friends. seeing friends holding hands roller skating or just in general. i watch a lot of sports and people joke about intricate rituals but there’s a Lot of affection and cuddling involved in team sports. just paying attention to the world around me, and seeing that those lines that felt so rigid and enforced are always much more fragile and fabricated than they seemed.

talking to other aro people was crucial for this especially - hearing about not only what they wanted but the things they’d managed to find and cultivate in their lives and relationships. though plenty of non-aro people have very affectionate and intimate platonic relationships, too! a lot of people fuck their friends and contrary to what television and ao3 would have you believe it’s not inevitable that Someone will get their heart broken. a lot of people cuddle their friends, sleep in beds together, hold hands, kiss, cohabitate, vacation together, plan their lives together. im MARRIED to a platonic friend who i kiss and cuddle and have sex with and we’ve been extremely clear with each other about what it means to us and we are happy and secure in that.

it’s confusing. it’s so confusing. but if the thing that’s primary causing that confusion is external perception and the forcible association of every kind of intimacy, especially physical intimacy, with romance, and not what YOU feel and want, just try putting the rest of the world out of your head for a minute. in YOUR perfect world where the only rules and expectations and assumptions were the things you and your person/people agreed to and wanted, what would you want? what would it mean to you? that’s a good starting point, i think!

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Genuinely like how do people. Cope. With not recognizing themselves in the mirror and having to accept that you’ll never see your own face in your reflection again.

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Words are Futile Devices

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"I have unrealistic kinks so I guess it's jacking off to weird porn forever for me" NO. What you need. Is a good sex partner. Who knows how to get creative in the theatre of the mind.

Service doms who crave giving specialised service exist and they'd love to turn you into a cube and pry you apart at the vertices if that's what you want in a scene.

Service subs who crave giving specialised service exist and they'd love to become your pet centipede for a night if that's what you want in a scene.

ALL kink is playing games. Puppy play is fantasy as much as vore is fantasy as much as fauxcest is fantasy as much as dollification is fantasy etc etc. Don't be scared to get creative with it. You might just find the best sex of your life down there in the weird stuff.

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best boy kabru ✨