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Sigh im contemplating over whether or not i should continue to use tumblr and trying to become a modeler/animator as my dream job, i really dont know if i can do this anymore.....all of the things i did suck ass and i dont have the potential to be good at it.

I've been searching for a job to get money but no luck, and amazon are a bunch of dickheads as they still didnt delivered my laptop for some reason, i dont even think il be able to return to be an artist.

I dont know if i can continue posting stuff on tumblr, tumblr isnt fun anymore for me

I should also just quit making stories looking back at them makes me feel soo goddamn cringe with how terrible they are and same for my ocs they are just awful!

Sigh

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since when did Jurassic World collabed with Monster hunter what the fuck?!

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its my birthday!

well time to go cry in my bed for being a failure

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i really dont feel great anymore this year, each year is making my lufe worse and worse as time goes on and i dont know if il make it, therapy doesnt work well anymore, my anxiety and depression is making want to commit suicide! My traumas keep coming back in my head, im losing my own life cause im a failure of a human being. I dont know if i want to even continue to try to succeed on my dreams when i keep failing. My family doesnt give a shit about my problems, my lack of companionship is making me feel worse, i just want my life to end at this point......theres no point of me living anymore....il never get support, il never have my dreams and il never have a good life....

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made this stupid shit during class!

il never be funny

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Work In progress of my transformer model in Art School

the sketch is terrible but this is all i can do!

and yeah im starting to become a transformers fan

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Rey Dau Skull, WIP, and horn mobility study are available for early viewing on my Patreon!

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soo fucking excited to see this! Already loving the new kaiju designs in this, Omega himself also looks really neat!

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i want to kill myself everytime i see some of my classmates wanting to make AI art

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god i hate retopologizing the head, the mouth was easy but good god the head!

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well guys, i've recently participated inside an Art School to do 3D modeling and soon 2D Drawing on paper!

Heres something im personally working on

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I’m a micro-influencer now! Nano-influencer?? Whatever, cool milestone!

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any MonHun questions y'all got for me?

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My Problems with the MH Fandom

Soo um....this is gonna be a random post after like 2 months of me not posting anything cause my laptop is broken and im ordering a new one  but thats not what its about!

I've had bad experiences with Fandoms but the Monster Hunter Fandom is just trash, its not fun to talk with the fandom at all after me trying to spend time in some servers to try and interact with people who are probably nice but it was anything but good. Il breakdown in several sections which regards to opinions about MonHun i have that many people i met in the fandom Just doesnt respect

Games; Its not surprising to see some people having mixed opinions on wheter or not old gen is better than new gen in regards to stuff like mechanics and fights, some people just dont accept to welcome new things, and i was respected when i said World was my favorite game and thinking i started in 5th gen even tho i actually started with 3rd gen with 3U!

Monster Designs; il keep this short and simple i met some who wasnt happy about my opinions on most monsters who are overly flashy and covered in unnecessary spikes and armor which im heavily mixed on that!

Lore; il also keep this one short and simple im not really a fan of the lore but mostly portable stuff cause they are ass and some times just breaks the grounded feel of it. Im fine with people liking them if they respect my opinion and dont bully me for it

Powerscaling; oh boy where do i even begin with this, i absolutely despises people who loves to overrate a character at its highest using questionable and outlandish statements in MonHun! I got shit on pretty bad in a MH server for not believing High tiers like Fatalis or Alatreon are like Planet level or Star Level etc, i dont believe it cause those are just legends. Myths and fairy tales! Fatalis while i love him he doesnt show anything too impressive like Dragon Ball or Godzilla, Transformers etc, only capable of burning a couple city blocks from that Ultimate attack in Iceborne, hes big and strong but hes not that strong though and i believe he can be beaten by the kaiju sized monsters aswell as monsters like Raging Brachydios, The Zenith monsters and Mosou monsters.

Creeps; short and simple cause im not confortable talking about it but i come across weird arts by creeps in the server like pedos who make sexualized art of some MHS characters and i left the server and it made me want to vomit!

I just wanted to let it all out of my chest cause its been a tough beginning of the year, but im atleast happy to meet some great people in the fandom atleast like @iamthekaijuking and @dappercritter who i absolutely love them! Hopefully il be back to make my content once i get my new laptop ordered to my house!

Sorry to all of my followers who were a maybe little worried on why i wasnt posting anything, i promise il post some cool stuff later

See you guys later and stay safe!

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Well.......i will no longer post stuff on tumblr

My laptop recently died and i lost everything i have

It couldnt be fixed......sorry everyone