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Reflection

Delving into your past relieving and experiencing those pains and emotions can be a difficult path but can also bring freedom. Once you look at your thoughts from and observers eye perspective and think about the way you act towards others and how most of these thoughts are bullshit you can allow room for yourself to open up and be lobe for yourself and for others. This year I've come to realize why I jump into relationships so quickly without thinking and it's literally nothing to do with being desperate. My childhood was not the easiest and my family life was never good,my parent were active addicts,selfish manipulative, verbally abusive. I was watching something where there was a family and they were so happy, they weren't perfect by any means but they always had each other backs and we're understanding when they had issues they worked them out. Growing up I never had that and I still don't have that. When I get into a relationship I am absolved into that family for a time being. There are cookouts birthdays special events that I go to where I feel like I am part of something. That's why I so quickly get into relationships. I need to learn to overcome this. This year is gonna be focused on me doing all those things for myself. I can be the one to hug myself when I'm down (metaphorically) pat myself on the back, make myself feel good be my own parent. If I can do this I can be a better person for me and for everyone else around me. It will be a difficult and often painful path bringing all these feeling to light but I have no doubt I can overcome this <3 #introspective #personal #growth

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“Be more concerned with your character than your reputation, because your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.”

— John Wooden (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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a motherfucker could use an embrace 

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work on yourself for yourself by yourself

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“It’s hard for me to express just how grateful I am to you, and for you. But I hope you know that I’m trying every single day.”

— Bruce Adler (via wnq-writers)

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Anxiety 101

I keep looking back into my past. I remember seeing friends struggle and seeing them fall into the same old patterns and I see them start to become lonely as "friends" dwindle as "friends" give up until they to slowly become to give up on themselves and let the patterns become who they are. I look through my contact list and notice I talk to about 5 people, I keep falling into the same patterns. I don't want who I have left to give up, I don't want to give up...

#personal #overthinking #bleh

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Capsize // Linger

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“I didn’t need you to fix me. I needed you to love me while I fix myself.”

— Michelle K. (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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Why do I always end up liking girls who treat me like a convenience...Le sigh.

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:))

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that feel when ur kinda suicidal but not rly bc ur not gonna kill urself u just wish u were dead

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“I learned not to trust people; I learned not to believe what they say but to watch what they do. I learned to suspect that everyone is capable of living a lie. I came to believe that other people - even when you think you know them well - are ultimately unknowable.”

— Lynn Barber (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever.”

— Dave Matthews (via purplebuddhaquotes)

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Do yourself a favor and learn how to walk away. When a connection starts to fade, Learn how to let it go. When a person starts to mistreat you, learn how to move on.. to something and someone better. Don’t waste your energy trying to force something that isn’t meant to be.. Because the truth is.. for every one person who doesn’t value you - there are tons more waiting to love you better. Do better.

Reyna Biddy (via quotemadness)

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to all y’all graduating, finishing a semester, thinking about starting school, leaving school, looking for a job, working, resting, improving, or trying every day to do whatever you can to be the person you want to be… I’m so proud of you, and I hope you are proud of yourself. it hasn’t been easy, but here you are, and you’re doing so good. I love you, keep it up, I know you can do this

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Growth is compulsory. Opportunities become more accessible when you invest wisely into your personal development. Don’t sleep on yourself.

Meggan Roxanne (via kushandwizdom)

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Some people have to realize even if you change and become a better person after being so shitty to someone that person is not obligated to stick around or fuck with you regardless of the growth you made.