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he's so hot i need him on top of me 🧎🏻‍♀️

stretch

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man, he's driving me insane.

Are the Xavier girlies ready????

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xavier's pov always makes me feel like there's a whole zoo in my stomach 🫠❤️

I think if you kissed Zayne repeatedly all over his face, he would get overwhelmed and turn very red.

Xavier would return every single kiss until you're both flustered.

Rafayel is dead. He's just gone. It was too much, poor guy.

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They don't want us to call what's happening in Gaza a genocide not because there's not been an official ruling but because these things don't get set in people's minds via official ruling. Instead it is the oral history that sets an event into place in mass consciousness.

Us calling it what it is - a genocide - means they can't wriggle out of it in years to come. They can't continue to call it a conflict or a war if we cement it in public consciousness as a genocide.

So don't tone down your language. Call it what it is. Make sure the history books know what happened and the genocides that took place in Palestine, Sudan, Congo.

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every time li xun called zhu yun "princess" or "your highness" my heart couldn't help but squirm

[Why do you call me Princess?] That was the first time I saw you. Through your window, I saw a lot of balloons and streamers hung in the room. Everyone talked and laughed. You cut the cake in the center. It was like a fairy tale world. [That's why.]

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the one with the chat pt. 2

slightly smut.

Friday has always been your favourite day of the week, the ambience at work always so amusing with your co-workers finishing their work so they can home early or to go someplace else to unwind on the approaching weekends.

You’re sitting at your desk finishing your weekly report, one by one your co-workers leave the office there are only few people left on their desk, eyes focus on their computer, and one of them is Jungkook. You take a glance at his desk, he’s wearing a black shirt with his sleeve tattoos full on display, he looks as handsome as ever. It’s been years since the two of you shared a not-so-safe-for-work banter through your instagram’s dm, but you two were never act on it and just leave it as it is. you two still hanging out with bunch of other co-workers but then that just it.

You shake your head and back to your work, it’s almost 5 p.m. and it seems you can’t leave the office any time soon. You look around again and you don’t see Jungkook on his desk. You let sigh, kind of disappointed with his no presence in the room.

“hey, what chu doing?” a familiar voice asking you teasingly, you look up to see the face of the owner of the voice, grinning at you.

“can’t tell you, it’s classified” you humour him. He laughs and pull a chair so he can sit next to you. He sits so close you can smell his cologne, it’s intoxicating; in a good way.

“I was about to leave but then I see you still here so I came to say hey,” he explains, eyes on you.

“you mean bye? assuming you’re leaving after this.”

“no, heyy, with two y’s, I think I’m going to stay for a while here. If that’s okay of course,”

“I wouldn’t mind a company. This report starting to look like a pain in the ass. I could use a good distraction.” you lift your eyebrow and smile.

“so, are you going to Ryan’s?” He reaches something from your desk behind you - a paper clip, his arm close to your face. You clear your throat, suddenly feel very dry.

“I don’t think I could go, I have dinner reservation at this pretentious but also great restaurant with my friends.”

“Friends? no boyfriend?”

“No boyfriend. Just couple of friends.”

“No boyfriend as in he’s not coming or—“

“No boyfriend as in I’m not seeing anyone, Jungkook.” you can see his expression shifted, it’s almost like a relief.

“Can I ask you question?” He’s grinning

“Sure..” you relax on your chair, but then Jungkook pulled your chair closer to him. You can feel the heat on your face despite the cold AC in your room.

“Do you remember that time we had inappropriate banter in your DM, or was I tripping?” He look into your eyes. The way he looks at you, not only you feel the heat on your face but also down to your inner thighs.

“erm.. yeah.. I remember.. I still keep it in my DM” you licked your lips and he stare at it shamelessly, he moves your chair closer again.

“You know.. I remembered that day I was rock hard that day, and saw you in the office only make it harder.”

“pun intended?” you laugh, mindlessly moved his strain of hair from his forehead, “sorry..” you stop your hand touching his hair, he shakes his head.

“do you wanted that to happen? because I do…” he trails off.

“I wanted that to happen too, Jungkook.” you whispered, his eyes glistened, he moves closer and closes the distance between the two of you to press his lips to yours. He kisses you gently but passionate, he bit your bottom lip, you open your mouth allowing his tongue to enter. His tongue pressing against yours, sends your mind into the misty haze.

You breakaway from the kiss, “took you long enough to do that,” he smirks looking at your swollen lips, “and I will regret that for the rest of my life.” he leans in to kiss you again. He kiss you deep and you just melt into the kiss, he trails down and kisses your neck, he licks and suck deep your collarbone.

“Jungkook, wait.. I— I have that dinner reservation,” he groans, out of breathe Jungkook stop and look at you, his thumb caressing your bottom lip.

“as much as I enjoyed that but I should go,” you take his hands and kiss them.

“okay.. but can I do this to you again?” He kiss your lips one time, two times again.

“of course.. and maybe we can do some other stuff later..” you kiss his corner lips.

“I promise you it’ll be soon. I have waited long enough to kiss you.”

“okay, I should go.”

“text me later?”

“I’ll send you the inappropriate text from the restaurant.”

“and I’ll send you my rock hard dick pic from bed.”

“it’s a deal.”

He kisses you one last time before you go.

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Plantito Joon 🌱

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The one with the blue shirt

so..... I have this little silly story about a guy with the blue shirt who looked exactly like Min Yoongi. It was started when I decided to go to coffee shop so I can finish my report, after that I called my friend to come over.

Setelah gw selesai dengan kerjaan gw, gw sengajak ngajak temen gw buat makan malam, I’ve been craving for ramen since yesterday, setelah gw pesen ramen buat makan, temen gw pesen kebab. Selama kita makan, ya biasalah, kita sambil ngobrol. Nah, waktu lagi ngobrol ini lah gw tiba-tiba ngeliat si cowok yang mirip yoongi ini.

Awalnya gw nggak sengaja lihat dia, jadi dia tuh duduknya di depan gw, tapi ngebelakangin gw gitu, his back was on me, jadi gw cuma ngeliat muka dia dari samping. He was wearing a blue shirt (DAN DIGULUNG SELENGAN TOLONG), khaki pants, wrist watch on his left hand, and sneakers. DETAIL YA BECAUSE I WANT YOU TO PICTURE HIM AS CLEAR AS POSSIBLE WKWK.

OKAY BACK TO THE STORY, waktu pertama kali lihat dia gw ngerasa kok rasanya familiar banget mukanya, at first, I didn’t thought of Yoongi at all, terus gw keingetan Yoongi semalem perform That That (emang otak gw ini suka random banget), terus gw yang “OH! He looked like Yoongi, that’s why I feel like I’ve seen him somewhere”, also mind you that this guy was had the same hair as Yoongi. yes. it was so uncanny.

Waktu gw sadar dia mirip siapa, langsung lah gw bilang ke temen gw;

“Ci, liat deh cowok di belakang lo, di sebelah kiri, but be subtle please, mirip yoongi deh.” terus temen gw yang pura-pura ngeliat ke belakang, “IYA!” and we both squealing like crazy. I mean, it was somehow so exciting.

Tempat gw sama temen gw duduk itu deket sama tempat buat nyimpen tray kotor, terus dia kayaknya udah beres makan, dia ngeberesin bekas makan dan traynya sendiri terus nyimpen traynya juga sendiri, like, I know it’s a bare minimum, but when you live in a city where people are not get used to with this kind of mannerism tuh jadinya kayak wow gitu, dan waktu dia ngelewatin meja gw sama temen gw, kita tuh yang liat-liatan karena even the way he walked sama persis kayak yoongi. we just laughed because holy shit, we were so thrilled.

Enggak lama kemudian, dia sama keluarganya (I assumed he was with his sister and maybe his mom or aunt) pergi dari foodcourt, gw pikir ya udah bye yoongi looked alike. Setelah itu, gw sama temen gw mau cabut juga, and the guy with blue shirt was nowhere to be seen.

Sometimes timing can do its job perfectly, waktu udah nyampe di lantai 1 mall, gw bilang ke temen gw kalo gw pengin mampir ke Uniqlo (there’s this cute skirt but wallahi harganya 599k MONEY WHERE??)

“Mau liat dulu ke Uniqlo? Gw sih hayo aja, mumpung masih di sini nih.” I was hesitant at first, terus temen gw nyeletuk “siapa tau nanti ketemu si cowok itu lagi” kita berdua ketawa aja sambil akhirnya jalan ke Uniqlo. Setelah muterin Uniqlo kita milih buat pulang aja soalnya nggak ada yang diskon, and it’s not like I was looking for him, but he wasn’t there as well. Waktu kita udah di luar Uniqlo, temen gw tiba-tiba ngomong,

“wa, demi allah ini mah, itu dia.” waktu gw ngeliat ke belakang DAN BENER AJA DONG, he was THERE, dia lagi jalan ke arah Uniqlo, gw sama temen gw nunggu di luar, sampai akhirnya dia ngelewat dan kita ngeliat dia masuk ke toko (((toko))) lalu gw sama temen gw pulang deh. HAHAHA. Sebenernya temen gw nanya ke gw mau masuk lagi atau nggak, tapi ya ngapain lah anjir. it’s not like we’re stalkers or anything. dahlah pulang aja.

Sejujurnya enggak penting abis, but for a fleeting moment, I felt that rush like when you’re anticipating to see your crush at school. it was silly, so silly that this story deserves a tumblr post at 12:14 a.m.

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one of the most important things, perhaps the most important thing I have learned in my life is that nice people can fuck each other up in monstrous ways. people can be bone deep kind and loving and self reflective and still lash out under pressure. people can be earnestly neighbourly and charitable and hospitable and generous and still find themselves in situations where they become selfish. people can be well meaning and easygoing and gregarious and hold deep seated opinions that turn them into vicious little bullies under the right conditions. nobody is just one thing, and nobody stays one way. every person is a kaleidoscope and they will surprise you. you will surprise yourself. it's not a warning and it's not a judgement and it's not an excuse, and it's certainly not a reason to stop trying or to stop trusting. it is just a fact.

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p0rn accounts stop following me challenge.

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i want to write again. i want to make a fake conversation again. i want to fall in love again. i want to be my old self again.

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idont have any talent. i like to look at grass and i dont have other hobbies. when people ask me how im doing i ignore the question 

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ouch.

the urge to just lay down and let time pass you by forever. it’s called clinical depression

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a step back today.

I was fine a week ago, back being a hopeful one, trying to let go and maybe if I didn't hold on too much anger and disappointment, I could breath a little easier, walk a little lighter. and I did. as I said I was fine.

Today, however, that thoughts of me; and not a good one, comes creeping back in I tried to pushed them out but it was useless and now I'm tired.

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I’ve been crying for these past two days, I’m not okay and I don’t know when can I be hopeful again.. I was hoping things will get better, I was hoping that someday I would get the promotion, I was hoping people would see how hard I work.

for the first time in my life, I had this thought that maybe it would be better if I just disappear.. “that will show ‘em” I said to myself, I had zero energy to get up from bed this morning, just lay down and cried and cried and cried until my eyes were swollen, “is this what depression feels like?”

you see, I’ve been working in my office for 15 years now. FIFTEEN YEARS. and me being hopeful and all that shit thinking “oh, maybe someday this job will take me somewhere.” now I feel like a fool because I thought this year will be my year, it’s march now and that hope vanished just like that. I’m stuck in this dead-end job. I’m tired for being overlooked again and again, it’s like no matter how good I am at my job these people just don’t see me, I’m invisible to them. I wanted to go, but where? I have no place to go. I’ve never been working in other place. I know I just have to suck it up - AGAIN for God knows how long.

I can’t stop crying because I used to think that hope is a good thing, I’ve been hopeful for as long as I can remember, and now I’m just hopeless.