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Just saw this comment exchange. I feel equally ancient and disgusted

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Plot twist: the two boys you're choosing between are polyamorous, but they also hate eachother's guts so you still have to pick one

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I feel kinda bad in a way, but I think I am skipping gym today, even though I missed so many days the past few weeks

Firstly, straight up this is just my least favourite day and the one I struggle with the most. Second, where yesterday was so hot, and tomorrow will be so hot, they say today is cooler but I doubt it, and I just don't wanna workout in such hot weather or leave the girls, especially as today is a chore day so I need to do a ton of chores when I get back. Third, I've been trying to distract myself from and not think of the benefit news, and it was easier since talks died down, but the talks have started again, and they have said they will punish anyone who votes against them, so even less chance people will now. And just, yeah, knowing at best I have a few years until my benefits are taken and my life ends, it's just making me feel really shitty again. I just really don't get what I'll do when that happens. I've survived so much, but I don't see a way around this since I can't cope with work

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love when a mother asks if they have ever done anything to hurt you. ma'am, you will literally never be ready to have this conversation

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I saw my PT had a beef casserole recipe, but I literally didn't copy it at all, totally forgot to even look at it honestly. It's been forever since I had something like this, and it was very tasty! Practically impossible to count calories, but yes, tasty!

While I would love an ice cream after today's temperatures, I am excited to eat my birthday cinnamon roll later :3

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31!?!?!?!?!?! WHAT!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!?!

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It's saying 29 now D':

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Also, walking back from the gym/shops today, I wanted to honestly take my clothes off in public :') I was so hot :') Even sitting in doors right now, I am so hot :')

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I didn't want any more dessert stuff, since I got all that ice cream. But something keeps pulling me to the shops near daily, and I am getting rather sick of it as obviously it means I keep spending money. But yeah, I saw this, and how could I not get it? A birthday "cinnamon" roll!

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My body is being a dick again. At first it kept waking me at 6 am, now it is seemingly doing it at 5 am. However last night I kept waking constantly, literally constantly, non-stop. At one point I checked my phone as this time when I woke up, it felt different, so I thought maybe it was 7 am. Nope. 5 am. So I woke like 20 times between 10:30 pm - 5 am. My body only recently stopped doing this. I don't get why it goes through phases of doing this? And so soon after it ended too? I am so fucking sick of it. I feel like absolute shit today, feel like I got no sleep at all

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Decided on the dulce de leche today! So tasty :3

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My phone has such small space and is full of bloatware anyway, yet I am being forced into taking a 1.34 GB update for an AI feature 🙄 I swear like 20 of my 120 GB when I got it was bloatware, that number has probably gone up over the years. So the fact that I am losing a further 1.34 GB of storage for fucking AI? 🙄

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So I realised when I last made this, it said it was lemon and basil chicken, except, yes, the only lemon and basil was in the dressing. So I wanted to do it again, and make actual lemon and basil this time. So I seasoned the chicken with fresh basil and lemon zest (amongst other things), also, since I have a slightly better idea on dressings, I made a drastically better dressing compared to last time. This was very tasty, and very lemon and basil forward, so it actually tasted like lemon and basil chicken

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Reblogging a clean version to add

What really annoys me is, the amount of times I've tried to explain to people that I was literally homeless, I went through an actual homeless shelter and process, and saw other homeless shelters. And none of what they say is true. Like, all but one resident were white, British residents, the others were British but black. But even then, a large majority of the staff were either foreign and/or a person of colour, so the people running the place and supporting us were people from foreign countries

Not even that though. In my time there, 2 residents were evicted/asked to leave due to bad behaviour, a few mysteriously vanished and they would never tell us what happened to them. And even though I always stayed on top of my bills, food, my obligations (at one point I was told I was the only resident to turn up to every weekly meeting for 6 months in a row), and had relatively no issues there, my YPC (Young Person Coach) said she had to fight to make them let me leave. They will kick you out of the places if you are bad enough, which means no one will help you again as you make yourself "intentionally homeless" and yes, leaving them is hard too. Although we do then move into social housing and get our own places, and we are high on the priority list, we get the same options as anyone else, we only get places that they deem appropriate, so flats and not 5 bedroom houses, and after that we are essentially abandoned and expected to live like anyone else, with the same penalities for failing to do so. And due to going through the homeless shelter already, if we fuck up now, we're fucked, we won't receive help again, it's on our system, that was our last chance. Just to add on, myself and anyone there had to be referred by the local council, and had to pass a ton of checks, like how long have we lived in the area and such

Yet whenever I tell moronic racists this. They just laugh at me and mock me. They are so deep in their own shit, that even someone giving them first hand experience of this system they have no understanding of and claim to know, they just mock me and refuse to take in what I say. Homeless shelters aren't full of illegal immigrants. Even if they were, which they aren't, partially again because of the vetting process, bad/dangerous people don't make it through these extensive systems, and even if they did, they then get treated like anyone else

Immigrants are not ruining this country. Racists, Tories, and rich twats are. I am finding out that my benefits could be ending by 2028, which, I am fucked if that happens, I can't work, yet without support, I have no means. That isn't a deadline for a policy. It's a life expectancy. Because what other options do I have when my support is taken from me, yet I have no other means? Yet I do not blame immigrants for this. I blame politicians and the elite. They could do so much more for this country, yet instead they wish to sacrifice people like me, so they can have a few more £'s in their pockets.

"Your enemy travels by private jet, not migrants dingy"

Poster seen in London

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"Your enemy travels by private jet, not migrants dingy"

Poster seen in London

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I got ice cream :3

Tge gym is closed today. Also, I saw those small Häagen-Dazs pots at Lidl the other day, but didn't get them cause diet and it weren't too warm. But Asda had them today, and I thought they are good for portion control, so I got them! I was really craving cookie dough, but I saw that B&J one, and thought that sounded super nice. And even though I am usually a natural strawberry girly, the Angel Delight one sounded interesting. So I am good with ice cream for a bit now!