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                   my knuckles may be broken and bloody,                   but don’t you forget how they got that way.

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MUN      VS.     MUSE

FIVE  SIMILARITIES 

1. We aren’t the most patient kind - whatever we want, we want it right here and right now; pointless meetings, long queues, and slow moving things aren’t for us. We tend to act first and think later (if ever~), and when we act we often act on impulses, momentary desires, or we follow our insatiable hunger for excitement, as both of us are irredeemable thrill seekers and when we don’t get our regular adrenaline fix, we turn into apathetic piles of ‘I’m wasting my fucking life’ really fast. We can’t just live - we need to be addicted to something.

2. We appreciate a good challenge and often actively seek it. It’s no fun when things come too easily; we like to test our limits on any occassion given, and push ourselves to overcome them. To say that we can’t do something/it’s impossible is legit the easiest way to trick us into actually doing it.

3. My sense of direction is just as abysmal as Kenpachi’s. I can get lost literally anywhere, and i always have to book twice as much time as i theoretically need to get somewhere cause i will get lost on the way at least once.

4. We are very observant beings and while we often look like we’re hardly paying attention to whatever is going on around, we’re highly aware of our surroundings, always, all the time. It applies to people as well - even while it usually stays a mystery for us how we reached this or that conclusion, as the process itself is highly subconscious, we tend to pick up on interpersonal relations, underlying motives, and dynamics of the situation/place we’re in pretty easily. If we use this knowledge later or not is another thing.

5. We can’t be arsed to do things we don’t find interesting/exciting. While we can easily spend half a day working on something we enjoy (hobbies etc.) and behave like your regular workaholic when comes to these things, stuff like house chores, paperwork, or whatever thing it is that we don’t find interesting can get literally procrastinated out of existence until it’s almost overdue. Or actually overdue.

FIVE  DIFFERENCES 

1. Well i’m not 2 fucking meters tall (though some people in my family are, more than 2 even, but it’s a pain in the ass).

2. My childhood wasn’t as rough as Kenpachi’s. Many of the hardships he had to live through (and some he didn’t) are not unfamiliar to me, but the other part was of a different kind than the problems he had to struggle with.

3. While i used to practice kenjutsu and i know how to swing my sword, as well as cut some stuff like rolled tatami (and one small tree), Kenpachi is far more proficient at it than me. I understand his addiction to cutting things though. Cutting things is addictive.

4. I wouldn’t get myself a haircut that takes 3+ hours to get done. Not because i don’t like crazy haircuts but because i don’t have time and patience for that shit (yeah, Kenpachi, you were bored, we get that). I did the liberty spikes once, it actually took 3-4 hours and half a bottle of concrete-hold-gel (and about half as long to wash out). No recommend B|

5. Kenpachi doesn’t have as wide interests as me. He’s rather one-tracked with his hobbies (fighting) while i’m more diverse when comes to things i enjoy. I don’t have that many hobbies, and one (max two) of them are usually ‘main’ ones i put most of my time in, but i’m not so extreme with it to hold to one thing only and automatically disregard any other ways to spend time.

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Success is not final, failure is not fatal: it is the courage to continue that counts.

Winston Churchill. (via estp-aesthetic)

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                       I am not docile, and I will not rollover                             and ACCEPT my fate without blood                                 I will fight until I can fight no more

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Angst meme

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Tagging: @glacies-tempestatem​, @solitariusdeluna​, @windstormwielding​, @gentleshinigami​ (for Yumi), and anyone else who sees this post and wants to do this!

bold if it’s ever happened italicize if you want it to happen cross out if it will never happen

been cheated on |  been bullied  | told a horrible lie |  stolen something of value |  overdosed on drugs  |  been drunk |  cheated  |  bullied someone |  punched someone in the face |  been beaten up  |  broken a bone  | been admitted to a hospital | had a near - death experience / died |  been drugged  |  done drugs |  smoked  |  kissed someone you weren’t attracted to |  bled severely | killed someone |  had an attempt on your life | made an attempt on your own life | lost someone |  loved someone  |  gone without food for over three days | gone without sleep for over three days |  been tortured | been slapped by a parent or higher up | been abused by someone who should have loved/ appreciated/ valued you  | had a panic attack  | been in a car accident |  had sex | had sex with a stranger |  passed out from pain | cried yourself to sleep | spent a whole day in bed |  hurt yourself  | taken your anger out on yourself | taken your anger out on someone you love  | been used  | felt used | used someone  | been terrified  | played a cruel game on someone  |  been dominant |  been submissive  |  been forced to smile  | felt too many things at once  | laughed when you felt like crying

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                                       I am the memory you’ll never erase.

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Life isn’t about how hard you can hit, but how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward

Rocky Balboa (via estp-aesthetic)

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THE POSITIVE & NEGATIVE; Mun & Muse - Meme.

fill out & repost ♥ This meme definitely favors canons more, but I hope OC’s still can make it somehow work with their own lore, and lil’ fandom of friends & mutuals. Multi-Muses pick the muse you are the most invested in atm.

My muse is:   canon / oc / au / canon-divergent / fandomless /

Is your character popular in the fandom?  YES / NO? (i mean, he’s rather liked overall but there’s not that many ppl who rp him?)

Is your character considered hot™ in the fandom?  YES / NO / IDK.

Is your character considered strong in the fandom?  OH YES / NO / IDK.

Are they underrated?  YES / NO.

Were they relevant for the main story?  YES / NO / KIND OF?

Were they relevant for the main character?  YES / NO / THEY’RE THE PROTAG. --> hard to say. kinda yes, but then not that much. there are characters who sure were more relevant.

Are they widely known in their world?  YES / NO.

How’s their reputation?  GOOD / BAD / NEUTRAL. <-- depends who you ask, heh

How strictly do you follow canon?  — In general I keep my Kenpachi close to canon, but I’m not very strict about it. I like to fill up the holes left in canon story with headcanons, and I’m open for plots that are canon-divergent as long as they simply make sense, logic-wise. I’m also willing to deviate from canon when comes to shipping -- for me it’s about chemistry and chemistry only; I have a few ships I like when comes to dynamics and such, but I wouldn’t turn down a character my Kenpachi grew to like/love only because it’s not on my ship list. Of course all the canon relationships are relevant and you can totally jump straight to the kind of interactions your character used to have with mine in the manga, but anything more than that needs to be developed first. Also, I acknowledge the relation between Kenpachi and Unohana as canon, but I see it more as a mother-child relationship; even if there’s some twisted kind of affection in it, it’s hard for me to imagine them living together as a happy little family. I know, the idea is cute, but personally I think there’s far too much bitter feelings between them so it could ever work this way.

SELL YOUR MUSE! Aka try to list everything, which makes your muse interesting in your opinion to make them spicy for your mutuals.  —  Uh, I’m not sure what makes Kenpachi interesting for other people as a character, so I’ll just say a few words about what could make my version of Kenpachi possibly interesting to interact with, I guess. Kenpachi is a guy not only of great power, but of great experience as well. People tend to see him as a bloodthirsty berserk with all brawn and no brains, but there’s so much more to him than meets the eye -- he’s more clever than he likes to show, and while his kind of wisdom might be not so obvious and ‘classical’ kind, he has it and he uses it both in his fights and in interactions with others. Although he might make an impression that his own strength is all he cares about, it’s only partially true. Kenpachi likes to help others become stronger and watch them grow just as much as he likes to improve his own power; he hates to see wasted potential, and he often provokes or challenges people into situations that, in his opinion, will help them to discover their strength or improve as a person. He’s not a touchy-feely guy and he hardly lets it show, but he cares about the ones who are close to him and would risk own life without a second thought to protect them -- however, this other, more private and more vulnerable side of him usually stays hidden from the world, as he’s not willing to show it to anyone except those who worked hard to gain his trust.

Now the OPPOSITE, list everything why your muse could not be so interesting (even if you may not agree, what does the fandom perhaps think?).  —  Kenpachi is not interested in people who aren’t willing to fight -- not only literally, but also fight for themselves, for their goals, dreams, fight to overcome their weaknesses, their bad experiences, their fears. He has little patience for those who whine and do nothing to improve their life, so instead of support they get as much as disdainful look from him. He’s hardly interested in interacting with anyone who can’t offer him either a good fight or a good challenge of some other kind -- or a way to kill boredom at least -- and can be pretty unresponsive if the way other character approaches him doesn’t pick up his curiosity. On top of that, he can be a bit of a handful at times -- he gets annoyed pretty easily, tends to be restless and snappy when bored, he speaks before he thinks and since he’s pretty foulmouthed and pulls no punches he often hurts others even while it was not his intention.

What inspired you to rp your muse?  —  My muse himself. Kenpachi was my favorite character from the first time I’ve seen him (around 2008 or so), and when I discovered Bleach rp on tumblr (by accident while hunting for pics lmao) I decided to give it a shot.

What keeps your inspiration going?  —  I don’t really need inspiration to write him. I can do it at pretty much any time given, likely because we’re similar character-wise and it takes me like zero effort to get in his skin. The only thing I need is a rough idea for some plot and BOOM here we go. Unless it’s a chat rp, then I don’t need even this.

Some more personal questions for the mun.

Give your mutuals some insight about the way you are in some matters, which could lead them to get more comfortable with you or perhaps not.

Do you think you give your character justice?  YES? / NO. <-- you tell me

Do you frequently write headcanons?  YES / NO.

Do you sometimes write drabbles?  YES / NO.

Do you think a lot about your Muse during the day?  YES / NO.

Are you confident in your portrayal?   YES / NO.

Are you confident in your writing?  YES / NO.

Are you a sensitive person?  YES / NO.

Do you accept criticism well about your portrayal?  —  I don’t have any problem with criticism in general. If something about my character or the way I write him bothers you, feel free to tell me. I can’t promise I’m gonna care though -- Kenpachi is a very personal muse for me, and the way I portray him sometimes can differ from other portrayals or from what’s ‘canon’ simply because he shares a lot of qualities with me as his writer. Fact that you criticized my portrayal doesn’t mean I will change a single thing about it, but sure I won’t get offended or stop interacting with you only cause you said a word or two. The only criticism I never publish/respond to is shit aimed at stirring up drama, as people who write such are not worth my time.

Do you like questions, which help you explore your character?  —  FUCK YEAH. Some of them really force me to think about stuff I wouldn’t have thought about otherwise, and make me discover my character anew in some places I thought I already know him ins and outs. I like all the questions, no matter the topic, and I do my best to answer them with details.

If someone disagrees to a headcanon of yours, do you want to know why?  —  Sure I’d be curious about what their reasoning is, like, what makes them think things aren’t the way I see them? What is their headcanon on this particular topic? Do they disagree completely, or just some part of it doesn’t lie well with them?

If someone disagrees with your portrayal, how would you take it?  —  Depends how they carry it out. If it’s like ‘okay i don’t think so but it’s cool, everyone can have own opinion’ it’s totally fine, i’m far too old to bang heads over such silly shit (there’s no ‘right’ and ‘wrong’ portrayal btw -- everyone does it their own way and there’s nothing to whine about). If they come to my askbox solely with the purpose to pester me about it, and do it in a way that makes me question their age and/or mental health, I’m gonna block their ass out of existence.

If someone really hates your character, how do you take it?  —  I don’t care and it’s highly unlikely I’ll ever notice they do unless they make effort to bring it to my inbox. In the end it’s their problem, not mine; I’m just gonna continue doing my thing while they’ll be wasting time and energy on writing shit nobody cares about.

Are you okay with people pointing out your grammatical errors?  —  Sure. English ain’t my native so if I write something that makes no sense just lemme know -- it’s a way to learn, too, and if you tell me there’s a chance I don’t make the same mistake again.

Do you think you are easy going as a mun?   —  Yeah, I’m pretty laidback and I don’t give a flying fuck about 99% of things that tend to raise a lot of hackles. It’s nearly impossible to offend me, and I have a lot of understanding for the fact other people have their own lives, likes, problems, ideas, families, health issues, work routines and whatnot, so I never pester anyone for replies or anything rp related. However, I’m a confirmed extrovert in this kingdom of introverts which is tumblr, so I tend to hang out on Discord/chats a lot and then think I must be a fucking pain in the rear for my more introverted friends cause I’m always the one to message them first, and it makes me want to melt into a sad pool of shame for being such a needy fucktard.

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Tough times never last, but tough people do.

Robert Schuller (via estp-aesthetic)

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Sometimes all you need is 20 seconds of insane courage. Just literally 20 seconds of embarrassing bravery, and I promise you something great will come of it.

Benjamin Mee, We Bought A Zoo (via estp-aesthetic)

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11. fluff or angst?

Angst, definitely. I can write fluff and it’s fun, but I revel in writing about difficult topics – the dirtier and more ambiguous morally, the better. The only triggers I have are those of guns my characters are holding, and there’s no topic I wouldn’t touch out of some personal reason; the only exception is any sort of sexual activity that involves children – this gets a big nope from me.

 12. favorite book?

Uh, this is a hard one. Since I have to choose only one, I’d say it’s ‘FUTU.RE’ by Dmitry Glukhovsky – it’s not a popular one, yet after many years and many other books I’ve read over this time, it’s still my favorite. Actually, it shares the top position on my list with another book which I perhaps like even more, but because of, uhm, controversial subject I’ll refrain from mentioning it in public.

 30. most used emoji?

B} <-- this fucker; i also tend to xD a lot. it depends on the situtation.