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Chcę takie nogi.

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Looking for ed buddy!

Last couple of days have been shit for me, and I’m scared that I will go back to bingeing every single day. Please anyone help me to be my goal weight. I’m so fucking scared please

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Okey I know that lax are bad and a lot of you say that they make you bloated and all, but honestly they helped me a lot. Since I started using them I lost all the weight. I totally recommend tho DONT GET ADDICTED BC LATER YOU WONT BE ABLE TO USE THE BATHROOM!!!!!!

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Today I relapsed after 99 days of sobriety from self harm.

What triggered me is that I got bad news from my friend. She told me that situationship wants to end things with me and also I opened sober app and that triggered me even more! When I saw how many days I haven’t cut I got shocked. 99 day CRAZY.

I did 3 cuts. I hit the fat layer and it didn’t even hurt, I don’t know if I’m just used to that pain or my leg just went numb, but when I started the 3rd cut I felt super nauseous and I was pale I’ve felt like I will faint any minute. It was super scary.

I really wanted another cut but I know I will faint if I do :( the wombs will probably heal after 2 months. Now I have 5 big cuts added to my collection, but honestly I didn’t want to relapse, I just got super confused with my feelings and the next thing I remember I was holding a raiser blade.

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*ੈ✩‧₊˚ •misty fairy diet• *ੈ✩‧₊˚

fairies in the mist, so tiny and delicate... don't you want to be one of them?

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day 1: water fast!

day 2: 200 cals

day 3: water fast!

day 4: 300 cals

day 5: 500 cals

day 6: water fast!

day 7: metabolism day:)

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abc

i skipped TOO many days. My summer body ain’t gonna magically appear, I have to work for it. 

it’s week 4 and i know that I skipped the whole week of diet, but im trying OK! i will try to keep up for this week. ( i have to skip Monday bc today is Tuesday) 

Limit:250

today is week 4. i will eat breakfast in the morning bc my fat ass gets hungry later on in the day (i used to not eat breakfast before but now im filthy, discounting whore!) 

breakfast contains of- two corn rice cakes with tomato =26cal. and a flat white=28 cal together=54 cal

10:10- pistachios hand full-12 cal

10:57- another hand full- 12cal

11:52- sandwich with cheese and pepper

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i fucking hate myself

in 2021/22 i was so determined to my eating disorder, I would slit my wrist when i ate a crumb of a cookie, i would workout at 5am in a plastic bag and a hoodie till i felt like i will throw up. I hate that im so fat rn and that i don’t look somewhat acceptable. My face is so fucking rounded, my arms are huge, my boobs are discounting, and im never gonna have a thigh gap. 

i want to be depressed again, i want to suffer in hoodies in summer, i want to be the sickest i have ever been. I FUCKING WANT TO DIE! 

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8:40- 1 pice of chocolate 🍫

9:50-cola zero

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Small binge ?

7:40- flat white with coconut milk 28cal

10:30- sandwich 236cal

11:00- gniazdko 3/4 100cal

14:00- chocolate 🍫

15:30- basic dinner-potato’s salad beet root purée and beet root vegan meet

16:50-yogurt with fruits and granola

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fast!

7:05 black coffee 0cal 

12:59 getting hungry

14:48- Pepsi max3 cal

I’m scared that I won’t be able to make it. What if I will eat? I’m scared

18:11 oshee peach 3cal

19:28- mint tea 🍵

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9.05.2023

Cal limit=500

9:40-flat white 28cal

9:54-flat white 28cal

13:10- two corn rice cakes with tomato and one wheat bread with bell pepper 78 cal

13:20: half of a muffin-77cal

Binged ❗️❗️❗️

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Blue=binge

Red=done

Black=skipped

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Saturday, 6th, May, 2023

Cal limit:200

10:50-flat white with coconut milk 28cal

11:50-gum 5 cal

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