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[kitkatfanatic-blog]

I need tips. I'm starting my first legit art class on Monday and 😬

It's in a bigger school than I'm used to. It's also an intro course, probably full of freshmen while I'm a sophomore (plus I'm 16 so I'm already of the older in my grade) which isn't a huge deal but still.

I have a shit ton of social anxiety, and last year made like four friends the whole year, and by the end of the year I wasn't super close to anyone. I made a deal with my mom, so I'm going to join a club and try to made 2 friends right away. But I have no clue how to do that.

Before the pandemic, I was antisocial, but I had a friend group. Then I spent 2 years inside, not talking to anyone outside of the people in my house (people who already weren't great for my mental state).

I also signed up for the art class on a whim, because it was only meant to be a backup if I didn't get into my preferred class. Which apparently, was filled up. So. Art. They didn't tell me until this past Thursday, so I've had no time to prepare. Thankfully at my schools open house, the art class had google classroom logins, so I can see assignments and projects already.

Idk, I'm worried. I don't know what it's going to be like, I won't know anyone in the class. Plus I'm not that good at art.

[kitkatfanatic-blog]

People always say things like "This will be hard, but you're strong! You can do it" or whatever.

No. I am weak. I have a spine like a stack of cotton candy. My will is so fragile it will shatter if I breathe at it.

Goodnight