kittenbone

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tw for rather graphic csa in poem form

an angel, four gentle limbs

and wings that were pinned

down on the bed

"quiet," said the demon

and made the angels legs spread

the angel simply let it go on

unknowing of what was wrong

as the demon sunk its nails into his skin

and touched the angel deep within

and made him touch her too

and yet the angel simply watched

for he barely knew

his left from right, his red from blue

he was too young to be used

and yet he was

and so he watched

her come back night after night

knowing not how to tell the burn in his stomach from joy or delight

for she never taught him how to feel

she never taught him anything real

the angels still dreams of her touch sometimes

when the stars are bright and the moon is high

his stomach still churns as he feels her kisses

and for some stupid reason its her he misses

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AND ITS OKAY.

BECAUSE I LIKED IT, RIGHT?

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If someone makes you feel BAD for LIKING MEN, then you should KILL THEM. My services are ALWAYS AVAILABLE TO ASSIST.

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i live again woo. ik nobody asked but

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as someone with npd, i believe it'd be alright to mention as long as you don't act like her npd is what made her abusive. for example, don't be all like 'she didnt care about me at all and used me for blah blah blah bc shes a narc' maybe be more like...'she struggled with npd and that could've tied into why she did [abusive behavior].' i don't speak for everyone with npd though.

Question when it comes to talking about the abuse I went through at the hands of the female adopter, would calling her a narcissist be ableist? I mean she is one, and I'm aware it's not the disorder that made her an abuser but her choices, but after seeing the ask about calling someone a narcissist being ableist I'm worried I have been and I don't wanna hurt anyone. 😥

i might not be the best person to answer this since i dont have npd, but if any followers with npd want to chime in please feel free to do so! ♥

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i wish i could forget it all. i want to feel safe again

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everyone who uses the term “purity culture” outside of the subject of religious high control groups owes spiritual abuse survivors $500. cough it up marvel omegaverse writers! 

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Problems with terms like “narcissistic abuse”, or “sociopathic abuse”, ect

1) Even if you acknowledge that people can have traits without disorders or that not everyone with a cluster b personality disorder is abusive, these terms imply personality disorders. It doesn’t matter what your intentions are, people associate these terms with PDs.

2) it simplifies personality disorders, as well as spreads misinformation. I’ve seen things like “signs someone is a narcissist” and the list will be unrelated to NPD symptoms. Also, there’s more to NPD and ASPD then a lack of empathy. There’s more to ASPD than getting in trouble with the law or being deceitful. There’s more to NPD than being arrogant and entitled. There’s more to BPD than rage and splitting and there’s more to HPD then attention seeking and seductive behavior. Even then, these symptoms shouldn’t be stigmatized, because that just creates a hierarchy of who’s a “model” or “better” cluster b, when all people are deserving of support. Of course, there’s no excuse for when these symptoms harm others, but sometimes they don’t, so there’s no reason to stigmatize them.

3) People with personality disorders are different people. They may share the same diagnosis, but there is more to a person than that. It may be called a “personality disorder”, but in psychology, personality is defined as a pattern of thinking, feeling and behaving. A personality disorder is a an unhealthy form of these patterns. That being said, in order for someone to have a personality disorder, it must impact their life in some way.

4) Many people with cluster b personality disorders have a history of abuse. When you say that they’re all abusive, you are grouping them in with their abuser (s), and while some victims of abuse can go on to becoming abusers themselves, this isn’t the case for a majority of abuse survivors.

5) it makes it seem like narcissistic, sociopathic or borderline abuse is a different type of abuse or a more severe type, when in actuality, there’s no difference between them and other types of abuse.

6) it prevents people with personality disorders from getting help. People with Cluster B disorders may be afraid to get help because of the stigma. Professionals have been known to refuse treatment for people with cluster b personality disorders as well as treat them terribly.

6) Armchair diagnosis. Many people who use these terms participate in armchair diagnosis, which means they diagnose someone else when A) they are not professionals or their professional prohibits them from giving a diagnosis of the health condition they are “diagnosing” or B)They are professionals and able to diagnose, but the person is not their patient. Armchair diagnosis is unethical and is considered to be so by the APA.

https://www.psychiatry.org/newsroom/news-releases/apa-calls-for-end-to-armchair-psychiatry

https://www.bpdcommunity.com.au/static/uploads/files/2016-sheehan-the-stigma-of-pds-wfcdbbajayss.pdf

https://www.apa.org/topics/personality-disorders/causes

https://en.m.wikipedia.org/wiki/Narcissistic_personality_disorder

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i was a gift, a child of divinity

that had shattered

on it's fall from the heavens

now i lie, broken

while they preach of my sinfulness

to the hundreds of other shattered creatures

that were victims of their grasp

forever reliving

my fall from grace

again and again, inside my mind

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intrusive suicidal urges amirite

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intro post except it says little to nothing about me <3

hi i'm kittenbone but you can call me wyrm. this is my traumacore / gorecore / vent dump blog. i am a csa victim and ramcoa victim and part of a polyfragmented did system. don't touch my posts if you're a terf, transmed, exclus, or proship. for the sake of remaining overall anonymous just use he/him pronouns for me. i'm also a faggot tranny retard schizo delulu freak and will reclaim those slurs often.

bye.