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[kittensleeping]

im feeling social out of sudden, i wish there was some shifting groupchat out there or something

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also, ironically, i struggle with indecision (😭 just when i made a post about how it's okay to feel indecisive)

but when im not feeling well, it's like a combo to me, i feel confused, i dont know where to go, i have a "neutral dr" where i kinda choose to go when I don't know where to go... but it feels so, idk, i guess maybe im burned out about it.

this go to the series i call: "problems i would never have if i had shifted already"

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those days i saw a post how we should normalize not shifting when we're not feeling well and i know we have to believe that we can shift don't matter what, but honestly, I can't even think about shift when im not feeling well, really, it feels so forced and horrible to shift when im like this.

it can get through my head, like, im going through the most traumatizing moment in my life and i have to close my eyes, breathe in and out and affirm to shift, like??? no?!

i feel even more stressed with this shit of breath in and out, breathing methods in general, specially when im like this, I can't do it honestly, i feel guilty about not shifting when i have the opportunity to, but I can't just lay down and pretend to be calm when im not, really.

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ngl, sometimes i have afraid of giving up on shifting just because my life got slightly better in some way and i suddenly ill feel like I don't have to shift anymore, but honestly, this would be dumb asf.

like, you have the knowledge that you can be whatever you want, that you can free yourself from any illness, trauma, toxic environment, the capitalism, live in a society where racism, misogyny, homophobia doesn't exist and you simply want to stay because your salary increased? because you got yourself a boyfriend? because now you have a slight and miserable chance of living minimally better? LMAO

okay, I'll keep this message here to myself if one day I go crazy and start thinking about staying here in this hell forever💀

[kittensleeping]

remember you'll shift even if you're not trying at all, many people already shifted by just forgetting they had to do it.

so if you're anxious, depressed, have a horrible househood and you just feel like being sad, you feel weak, like you can't do anything, it's okay, you'll shift anyways, you already shifted.

you don't need any method, you don't even need to affirm, you'll have it, you believe it or not, you do.

try to concentrate on not waiting too, you don't have to wait to shift, you have it.

think about your s/o or someone there that is important to you, i know nobody is waiting for us there, but if anything, this is my favorite fake shifting news (lol).

you have the right to feel that they're waiting for you, script a cenario where they're waiting for you to come back after a long trip or whatever, so you can shift there and you'll feel them hugging you tight, saying they missed you, saying how much they did.

please, don't ever give up on this to live a miserable life or wait for a slightly better one when you can have all you lack and heal yourself the way you deserve it.

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my first "almost shifting" experience i had that I won't give to much credit for was in a time i wasn't even so concentrated in shifting, i remember just going to sleep and thinking: "im gonna try to shift tonight through my dreams" in a very nonchalant way, like, i wasn't even that interested in going or not. so i put my earphones on and spent almost the whole night hearing subs and then in some moment of the dream, i got locked in a bathroom at a train station, someone locked me inside and i tried to find a way out, but instead of that, i found a door that was supposed to be the a little room where they store cleaning supplies (?), but it wasn't.

i opened that door and then when i stepped inside, I saw a huge staircase going down, and at the end there was a colorful spiral, like a portal (it was so beautiful btw), then some boy appeared out of nowhere and asked me if i was ready to go and i said yes, we held hands and we went down the stairs, then at some point, there was no floor anymore, so we fell, idk what happened, but i wasn't that excited or anything, i just thought that i was finally going and then i had some intrusive thoughts about not going anyways and i woke up or the dream kept going in a different direction as if nothing happened (dreams💀).

but honestly, that was a beautiful experience, it felt like i was destined to do it, because it was so perfect, like i was really going to make it.

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maybe an impopular opinion, but you don't have to decide where to shift and be sure about it until you make it.

i mean, cmon, I've seen people trying to shift for two, three years, idk about yall, but i wouldn't be trying to shift to the same place for two, three years, eventually i would change my mind on where to go.

so if you're indecisive, this doesn't mean you're not shifting, just say you're waking up in whatever reality you were/are interested in going and that's it. (that's my own personal belief btw)

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a funny/weird/creepy confession here LMAO

well, those days i almost shifted through a lucid dream, i guess that's my favorite way of trying to shift, btw, i almost shifted at least five times with this, so i don't like doing these "breath and relax until you're in a state bullshit" anymore, with all due respect for those who still do it.

this last time, I don't know if i was too close, more than any other time i tried or wtf it was, but i remember suddenly gaining conscience on my dream and repeating it was my desired reality, then after i commanded to open a dr portal on my dream, pointed to where i wanted the portal to open and then the whole dream started to "fade", "melt", whatever.

and i felt my body press against the bed and i thought: "well, i guess now im going" (im honestly proud at myself, cuz i was so calm and in a "idgaf" mode, like, i wasn't excited to the point of mess up everything and end up coming back to my cr), i considered that "pressure" to be a symptom, cuz some people feel like they're being swallowed by the bed or floating in the air, so i thought it was normal, but then i remember being so calm, i didn't felt like i was going, i didn't felt anything, then suddenly i remembered i had sleep paralysis before, and that this was what was really happening in that moment, so my body paralyzed and idk, i still felt calm, but i wasn't having any other symptom, like seeing a "light" with eyes closed or whatever, so i started to try to get out of the sleep paralysis.

i guess i was still dreaming and maybe i was being "fooled", but i remember opening my eyes, I don't know how (?) and looking up and seeing something on top of me, not on top of my body, but floating, something "forming" on top of me and then i heard multiple feminine screams😋🎀

anyways, after this i managed to get out of the sleep paralysis really quickly, but in resume im suspecting i have a possessor/obsessor or whatever they call those mfs, cuz that's not the first time it happens, this is so... "expectable" that i wasn't even surprised and that's concerning, because im getting used to this "thing"

i need a serious spiritual cleaning or whatever.

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i don't think i have many "limiting beliefs" besides sometimes doubting i can shift... i just let the thoughts, the rage, sadness, whatever come and when they go or while they're happening i affirm nothing will stop me from reaching my goal, nothing, what matters is what stays and my main belief is that shifting is inevitable to me.

how could a person who's affirming every single day not do it? it's impossible.

if you're desperate to do it already, don't worry, your desperation won't hold you back, some of us just need to get out of here, but you're already there and if you're tired sometimes, is okay, you made it anyways. it's gonna be worth it, every single tear and any kind of pain.

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yesterday i dreamed about throwing rotten food on one of my drs character's face and my coworker of my current job was with a expression of satisfaction when i looked back at her after doing that, although it sounds funny, idk, i can be wrong, but i think that's a picture of my subconscious.

im affirming everyday, being totally honest, im even praying for it, making promises... affirming and affirming and i believe im slowly breaking one inner belief i had that i have to stay here because that's my original reality and i may have a divine mission, i know it's stupid, but i grew up in a catholic family, they believe in god, my cousin discovered about shifting and denied herself to shift because she believed it was a sin, that soon or later we would pay for trying to do that.

man, i believe our mission is to be happy, i meet many people who will die working to get the minimal to survive in this society, that's the destiny of most people: work to survive, try to buy a house and die. so that's the so called mission god want us to do? that's ridiculous, we deserve better and if you have an special mission, this will find you don't matter where you are, if you really believe in that.

i believe our mission is to be happy, god will not punish you for wanting this if you're not harming anybody.

you do not belong in a reality where you're almost dying of mental illness, financial problems, family issues or any problem that's stopping you from being happy.

anyways, i just wanted to vent, write something to read when im feeling like I can't do it. you are in your desired reality, mind and soul.