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i can’t talk shit about the pirates of the caribbean films as if elizabeth swann becoming pirate king didn’t hand my entire ass to me and make me the gay i am today

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Your exhaustion is not shameful. It is not a moral failure to be physically, mentally or emotionally tired. It is okay to be overwhelmed. You're not inferior to anyone just because it's hard for you to keep up with a fast-paced life.

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see the THING IS I don't feel like I ever worked hard enough to have "earned" the burnout, which is. probably how we got here.

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“The Jotun must learn to FEAR me, just as they once feared you!”

Loki’s reaction to Thor’s line when he’s arguing with Odin. Neither of them are looking at him, they’re too busy shouting at each other so we get to see him unmasked for a moment. This is the first time he’s able to think properly about what happened on Jotunheim. They’ve been running for their lives up until now and now they’re safe he can try and make sense of it all.

And what’s the first thing he hears?

That Jotun should be scared of Thor.

He’s shifted in seconds from Thor’s mischievous little brother to thinking he’s something appalling. Something Thor is willing to fight with to keep them in their place and you know what?

This makes him Thor’s enemy. Suddenly home has become a very hostile and insecure place.

Now I know that Thor is completely unaware of what happened so he can’t really be held responsible for hurting Loki’s feelings in this moment but it goes a long way to explaining Loki’s behavior from here on.

During this argument, he just stares at them both like they’re strangers to him, because they are now. Everything he knew has been turned around. These people aren’t family, they never were and he starts to wonder if everything else in his life was a lie.

This is the start of a series of communication disasters. Every time there was a chance to change Loki’s opinion, something gets in the way.

If Thor hadn’t have been banished, he’d have been there when Loki confronted Odin and he’d have been able to comfort Loki and tell him it made no difference if he was Jotun. He was still his brother and still loved.

When Loki eventually confronted Odin, he got a piss poor response and then Odin passed out before anything was resolved. The only person who managed to actually say anything positive was his mother but Loki didn’t need it from her. She’d never done anything to make him feel inferior up to that point. She basically tells him everything’s alright and Odin always has a plan.

Yeah we got that part thanks. Odin’s great plan for Loki was to use him to unite Kingdoms. Knowing that doesn’t really help right now and now Loki’s been handed the throne and the power of a King while he’s still reeling from the shock of thinking these people he once called family think of him as an enemy.

“The Jotun should learn to fear me.”

Well, what do you do when you think someone’s going to come and get you? You make a plan to attack first. A disastrous, drastic plan to get people’s attention.

Once Thor and Odin turn up again - everything Loki feared becomes the truth as far as he’s concerned. Because of his actions, he is Thor’s enemy after all and Odin confirms he’s not good enough. That he’ll never be good enough.

And this my friends, is just one of the reasons why I am 17524% done with this family.

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Marvel announced that Loki's going to be in Doomsday. Idk how to feel about this. I mean, hasn't he gone through enough?

And why can't Marvel Studios let go of him? IMHO, he's basically a cash cow for Marvel Studios at this point.

I'm scared and tired rn.

It's not even Marvel Studios not letting Loki go, it's their constant attempt to try to get rid of him and/or try to say he sucks and then keep bringing him back after that.

I get into a whole rant about how much I hate the casting of Doctor Doom and how everything I hear about what they're going to do sounds awful but....

Like, at least when Tony Stark died it was because RDJ at the time legitimately wanted to move on to other things, and at least some significant amount of time and a lot of behind-the-scenes production changes had come to pass before the actor's return. Now it's still yet to be seen what version Loki this is going to be, but not a lot of time has passed between Loki grand exit to his return. What makes me ask, what was the point of getting rid of him.

The creators keep making this active choice for Loki to sacrifice himself over and over. Apparently, that wasn't going to happen in the series, but then the directors felt like it didn't feel right unless Loki had to sacrifice himself. The MCU is so desperate for that to be Loki's ending but then they never want to follow through or give Loki credit for what he has done.

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Wanna point out that, while I believe that it wasn't intentional on creators' behalf, Loki tends to mimic his abusers' speech and mannerisms in the movies.

In T1 he acts tough and calculated yet cold, just like Odin, he also copies his ways of dealing with problems.

In A1 he talks about how freedom is a lie, and displays bursts of anger/humiliates people like the other members of the Black Order and The Other do.

In TR his hand gestures and use of words remind me of Grandmaster.

I am no specialist, but as far as I'm aware it's not uncommon for abuse victims to copy the abuser's behavior, partially because on subconscious level they want to understand why are they being abused, why is the other person doing it, appeal to them, etc.

I just think it's interesting.

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The thing about ADHD is that the "lack of reward chemicals in your brain" doesn't just mean that you don't want to do any tasks that don't feel particularly yummy :(, it means that your brain will look at chores and tasks that need to be done like "doing this would be painful and tedious for absolutely nothing to gain from it, Do Not Do That." The same thing that your brain tells you about everything else that would feel really bad and hurt the entire time that you're dying. The part of your brain that stops you from doing the thing is the same part that keeps you from shoving your arm into a wood chipper.

With unmedicated, unmanaged ADHD, "I have to do this assignment or I fail and my life will be ruined and I die" feels like a SAW trap, every single time.

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old people really need to learn how to text accurately to the mood they’re trying to represent like my boss texted me wondering when my semester is over so she can start scheduling me more hours and i was like my finals are done the 15th! And she texts back “Yay for you….” how the fuck am i supposed to interpret that besides passive aggressive

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I love talking with neurotypical people about my executive dysfunction because I'm like "yeah there's this invisible wall in my head that I'm incapable of getting past no matter what I do and it stops me from doing things" and they're like what the actual fuck

Meanwhile other neurodivergents are like

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Btw, this is how conservatives keep getting to claim that trans people are a new thing no one has ever heard, because our history and existences have continually been erased or obscured systematically through out history.

The most famous example was 92 years when the Nazis raided the library of the Institut für Sexualwissenschaft, the medical practice where the term transsexual was first coined and the first gender affirming surgery was performed in in 1931.

What did the Nazis do after raiding the library on May 6th, 1933? You may be familiar with these images

It is happening again.

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LISA JIANG x TIMOTHY A. BOLL "Moments in Motion" Kinetic dress if you want to support this blog consider donating to:ko-fi.com/fashionrunways

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I don't know if people genuinely aren't putting 2 and 2 together

But when Trump is arguing that native americans "don't have birthright to live here" and is trying to "deport them"

It means we go in the same camps immigrants are going in

Mexico and other countries aren't taking the immigrants the US is "trying" to send back, he's going to kill us

The US is making death camps, and they are taking everyone they find undesirable to send there

Natives count as the undesirables too.

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He is just SOOOO beautiful