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Seher Şeniz was a 1970s Turkish actress, model and belly dancer who became famous during the golden era of Turkish film. But despite all the fame and glory, she was a deeply tortured individual who dissipated mentally until she tragically took her own life in 1992.

 She was abandoned by her father at a young age, and at 16 she was forced into an arranged marriage. She said:

 “When I got married, I didn’t even know the biological difference between a man and a woman. I was so embarrassed, my first night was a complete disaster… I couldn’t get out of the bathroom for 2.5 hours… For 10 years, until I was 25, I couldn’t think about sex. I couldn’t touch a man. Even today, I am ashamed to undress in front of a man… no one has sex with me in the light…

 Sex is not as important to me. I am one of the most romantic people in the world. Rather than making love, I like to sit for hours holding hands. If the liars who pour rose petals on the stage in buckets during my shows knew that I actually get more pleasure from a single rose that, it would affect me more…” 

 Seher won 2nd place at the 1966 Turkey Beauty Contest. Famous for her fiery temper, she became angry at placing second so she threw her ribbon at the jury and stormed off. She yelled at them, “How can you choose me second, I’m a queen.”

 This got her noticed, and her acting career peaked in the 70s. At the urging of movie producers (who told her she was perfect except for her supposedly “large” nose), Seher had a rhinoplasty. This would lead to a lifetime of constant plastic surgeries, such as breast implants, Botox and more nose job revisions. 

 As well as acting, Seher danced at nightclubs throughout Europe. For a time she lived in Paris, and belly danced at the Moulin Rouge. She was married 3 times in total, and each ended in divorce. The 1980s were a time of “great spiritual depression” for Seher. She felt oppressed by the 1980 Turkish military coup, which saw censorship and cinematic decline.

 On June 29, 1984, she ODed on four bottles of Mogadon after her affair with a married businessman had crumbled. She was rushed to the hospital by a journalist who turned up for an interview appointment. After a twelve hour coma, she came to and uttered “I want to die.” Unable to cope with aging, a flailing career, a string of shattered relationships, and crushing depression, she turned to pharmaceutical drugs to numb the pain.

 In May of 1992, 44-yo Seher told her brother “I am going to Europe,” and left him the apartment keys. On May 14, neighbours smelled her decaying body and called the police. They broke down the door and discovered that she had been dead for several days, maybe even weeks. The autopsy discovered that she had died after drinking hundreds of morphine pills with two bottles of whiskey. She left behind a heartbreaking suicide note:

 “No one is responsible for my death. I swallowed 100 synthetic morphine pills and took other sleeping pills. Thank god I managed to go. I am disgusted and always have been disgusted by all of you. 

 When I was only 15, I understood what people in this world are worth. I finally managed to leave this disgusting world. It would be a joke if I said it was hard to die. I am not made to be a whore, I am sensitive and emotional, no one knows. Tell no one that I am dead. I don’t want to be buried according to Muslim traditions. Burn my wigs and scatter the ashes. Wrap me in a white robe and cover me up, that’s all…”

- Seher Şeniz and the Melancholy Nature of Fame

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Building your Coquette Makeup Bag

*Makeup is hard as fuck but it really doesnt need to be. Your makeup bag shouldnt extend past the products you use the most frequently to prevent overconsumption as well as your favorite products from expiring before you finish them!

Base: When it comes to base makeup it can be really overwhelming and honestly I believe it can be skipped. BUT if you want to have a more even base to work on here are some products i recommend

Primer: This helps products apply easily on the face, this isn’t a necessity but certain ones can be worn alone if you want to mattify the face without using powder.

Baby Skin Primer: A little goes a long way and helps smooth the skin for any face products

ELF Matte Putty Primer: Easy to use and a little goes a long way, great for those with oily skin

ELF Jelly Pop Dew Primer: If you need something that will help product stick to the face, this is a great dupe for the MILK Hydro Gel Primer

Foundation: If you get foundation, skip concealer as you are already going to be covering any spots you would like and using one product gives a more natural finish.

Maybelline Fit Me Matte + Poreless: For those who want a matte finish, this classic foundation is best however if you want a more dewy finish…

Maybelline Dewy + Smooth

Powder: For some, they would like to use powder to control any shine or greasiness they may experience. You can go with a translucent version or one that matches your skin tone

Airspun Translucent Powder

Maybelline Fit Me Loose Finishing Powder

This is the end for part 1! In part two we will cover eyes, blush, lips and more!

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Building Your Coquette Makeup Bag Part Two

Multisticks

Too keep the eyes, lips and cheeks simple, go for a multistick as they’re forgiving and can be carried around they instantly make any makeup look coherent

e.l.f, Monochromatic Multi Stick

Ink the Velvet Lip Tint

MILK MAKEUP Lip + Cheek Stick 

Mascara: One of the most basic products but very essential. Everyone has their favorite but here’s mine

NYX Cosmetics The Skinny Mascara

L'Oreal Paris Telescopic Mascara

Essence Lash Princess

Lipstick: When it comes to lipstick, it’s good to have one red and one that matches your skin tone, don’t worry about having multiple finishes, just use whatever works for you. Mine are  

L.A. COLORS Matte Lipstick, Starlet

LA Colors Matte Lipstick, In Love

*Note: When it comes to trying products for the first time 1. go for drugstore first as it’s easier on the wallet and beginner friendly and 2. go for mini sizes if available so you can gauge whether or not the full size fits with your preferences and lifestyle

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Shakira (2000s)

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adri 👼🧁🤍

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S5: Goes to Camp (2007) Ep. 7: Say Hello to Myke Hawke (2007) The Simple Life (2003-2007)

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Dowoons so fine.....

Another one of those I didn't know existed 🤯

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kim wonpil icons

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dowoon icons !

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Hope Sandoval by Andrew Catlin (1996)

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My briwoon edit from day6's highschool trilogy (Dowoon x youngk)

The song is Stones by Sonic youth please don't copyright me i dont own the sound😭