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[klenevich-blog]

It’s not you, it’s them.

Unfortunately, I’ve been in an abusive relationship. I was in this relationship for two years. An entire year of that was unwillingly. I’m sure you’re going to think what everyone else does. “Why did you stay?” Because it’s not that easy. It’s NOT easy to leave, or I would have. Actually, to be clear, I left multiple times, only to return, because I thought he had changed or even threatened my life at one point. It started slow. He would get drunk and push me. Of course I would instantly think “he’s drunk, he didn’t mean it.” Until it started happening sober. It went from a small push, to a big shove. To the point that I got a concussion. He would instantly apologize. He would tell me this wouldn’t happen again and he would work on himself. I always believed him. Always. Because when it was good, it was good. I thought he didn’t want to be that way. He didn’t want to treat me like that, so I would stay. I would apologize even when I know I didn’t do anything wrong. That was four years ago. I’ve been away from him for four years and it still scares me. It haunts me every single day. But getting away was the absolute best thing I could have done. I feel free, to an extent. I don’t go places he used to go, I don’t drive near his house, but I feel free in the new relationship I’m in. He doesn’t look through my phone, he supports all my decisions, and he doesn’t keep me from any of my friends or family. I’m basically writing this to tell you it’s okay. It’s not your fault. You CAN get away and life will get BETTER. You are strong. You are enough. Don’t let someone else break you. You deserve much more.