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Facade

warnings - heavy angst, suicide mentions

jujutsu kaisen character x bullied gn!reader

song - can you hear me by anson seabra

facade - a mask you wear to hide how you’re really feeling

it’s all a facade the face you put on for them. your world is breaking, shattering by the second but you keep your head up for the thought of them. you love them you truly do. you don’t want them to see you like this. it’s a sin. they make you so happy so bright but why... why do you keep crying. stop crying you tell yourself. you can’t. you’re sorry you say but you don’t forgive yourself. in the end that mask suffocates you. you’re choking. you can feel it. you’re so hopeless you should die. this endless loop, they can’t see it can they? it’s a facade you want to tell them but you hide it so you don’t bother them. another day another push towards the edge you can see it. finally it’s your time right? RIGHT! DO IT! GO ON! YOU WANTED IT DID’NT YOU! no. no not like this. you just wanted them to see through it. crack the mask and face yourself. there’s people around you but in the end you’re hiding behind a facade like always.

hi! i’m back lol surprisingly my first drabble went really well which is really surprising hahah today felt so empty so i wanted to spill out my feelings. i suffer from depression which isn’t the most surprising from a teenager but i find it hard to believe people still joke about having it. being depressed to me doesn’t mean just being sad but the lack of motivation and how mentally tiring it is to keep yourself gets painful when you don’t have a rock to lean on you often put on a mask to help other instead of yourself. so i’d like you all to think about that is you ever make jokes about depression :) and also i’m very proud of you all even if you haven’t done anything big you still did a great job!

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Heather’s Best Friend

warnings - heavy angst(one bad word lol)

haikyu boy x reader

song - heather by conan gray

haha aren’t u fucking stupid. it’s always the same. they don’t like you they never will and they never have. it’s an endless loop it will never stop but you know what you never listen. for once you thought you would be okay but no it’s always the same. don’t you wish you were her. she. she was the one they chose. she was the one they wanted. it’s never been you. it will never be you. so give up. give up because you’re not her. your the side character of her story. he won’t love you. he loves her. again and again you fall but no one is there to catch you. because he caught her. you loved him but he loves her. but why. why did you deserve this. you met him before her. but fate found them before you. you’ve been falling for years with no one to catch you. maybe one day you’ll be the main character but for now you’re heather’s bestfriend.

authors note - i just wrote this because ik a lot of people feel like this and i’m one of them haha. so have a good one to anyone out there feeling like shit. times are rough right now and i want you to know it’s gonna be okay. also hi i’m chai or kai! i go by they/them and i love to write drabbles whenever i feel good ^_^ you guys are allowed to request anything you want but there’s no garuntee i’ll get to it!