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some studies cuz I don’t want my character to look too skinny but I have zero experience on working with body volumes

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TF2 comics plot (but it’s not in chronological order) as vines

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Something new with my TF2 OC, The Psychiatrist… oh, whoops, I mean, The Psychologist. I decided to remake her for the role of psychologist cuz I know ALMOST NOTHING in the field of psychiatry but I know a thing or two in psychology so it’s like. vibes with me more. Besides, I’ll have a better understanding of my own character and will have more knowledge of how to describe her cuz I know the drill even a little bit

so here’s some lore drop

Her real name is Emily Rodnowsky, she is a descendant of Russian emigrants who escaped 1917 Revolution to the US, was born in New York City

In her childhood and teenage years, she enjoyed reading Tolstoy, Dostoevsky and other classics who reflected on the question of human soul in their books. This is basically why she chose psychology to build a career around

Her family was hella the helicopter one, never giving her freedom to make decisions herself, made a concession only once: they let her go to psychology college

After her graduation from college in age of 23 she basically ran away from her family to her cousin living in Chicago and worked as a corporate psychologist for several years. She found out that MannCo is in search for a psychologist from an ad in the newspaper, contacted then and… well… the rest is history

In fact, she was hired because of RED Medic who got tired of the merc coming to him with their psychological issues and he neither had a qualification to help on that matter so he only could prescript them some pills, nor wanted to hear their constant whining so, basically, he needed a helping hand

Therefore, he is Psychologists’s boss AND supervisor. Well… medical, psychological and psychiatric ethics say that under no circumstances you can have a relationship with your patient/client, but hey, Medic and ethics??? Seriously???

Some fun born in my conversations with @essspion

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Been discussing who in TF2 could be who in major Tarot arcana with bestie and said almost randomly that Miss Pauling could represent The Star. so that’s how my inspiration got me

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that’s the stuff I’m onto rn!!! I’ve just created a TF2 OC who is… well… literally The Psychiatrist and I ALREADY DO ship her with Medic. tehehehe

Oh my god... Imagine a psychologist as Medic’s love interest. I'm interested in how that will turn out.

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My Tf2 OC the Psychiatrist cosplaying Bebe Rexha’s I’m a mess music video cuz. y’know. Psychiatrist and asylum aesthetics. Fits like a glove, I think

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Medic and my OC, The Psychiatrist, are having some quality time with each other 🤭🤭🤭

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Last time I drew him it was year 2016

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I’ve created a Pathologic AU where everything stays the same but Bachelor has his Marble Nest design. because this is the only Bachelor design I’m into

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Some lazy camera shipping

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I’m not done with Arcane yet

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as your local MelJay and SkyVik shipper (and a selfshipper too), I agree with your every single word

Why the Arcane fandom sucks, an essay.

There is no way to enjoy anything in this fandom I feel, and frankly as someone who isn’t a shipper in any fandom I find it suffocating that the jayvik discourse snuffs everything else out. I also find it disgusting how everyone bullies the non-shippers or OC shippers/self shippers in this fandom I’ve notice. I have also noticed a fair bit of misogyny as well, whether it’s from people who are against Mel and Jayce or Sky and Viktor, or people invading the Jayce x reader and Viktor x reader (especially the fem!reader) tags with jayvik ship material. It’s exhausting if I’m honest. I also hate how the fandom uses any shred of media interviews to basically “go see see look you’re wrong,” to anyone who just wants to enjoy the original media in the way they want to and share it with others. Regarding the post production statements from cast and crew, my personal opinion is that they often try to give relatively (key word relatively) open ended statements while also giving the statement that would be most popular. You forget these people are PR trained. Now I think it’s perfectly fine if the cast and crew think it should be one way or another and I believe it’s still left just open ended enough for everyone to enjoy things how they want. I think I just get frustrated that people are a bit too stupid to see that people will always give the most PR popular answer (except the main writer apparently who I love how his statement is always like yeahhhhh anyways shut up, but everyone else’s statements are law? Idk kinda weird.)

I just think I’m very disappointed that my favorite show is slowly becoming something I hate because of the fanbase and I feel like I and other women are not allowed to enjoy it or our comfort characters unless they shut up and agree. And honestly I am disappointed that people on either side demand answers or for things to be official rather than letting everyone be happy. It’s called headcanon for a reason.

As someone who is ND and has hyper fixations it is hard to cope with this and it’s frankly frustrating and sort of embarrassing I get in such a tizzy that I feel like I can’t just go on IG or even Pinterest and enjoy just Viktor art without it behind shipping art. And I think it’s also ridiculous that I feel like I have to explain that no, it’s not me hating two men being shipped, frankly I think some of the art is adorable, is the fact I’ll put not interested in IG and I’ll get 20 more posts, or on posts that are like Sky x Viktor there will always be some jayvik shipper screeching there. At the end of the day it’s just annoying that no one is allowed to enjoy the same show we all love in a different way and are practically forced out of the internet spaces. I don’t even go on IG anymore because it was making me sort of upset, and tumblr is on thin ice but at least I can filter tags here. (But sometimes I would like a cheeky poly fic so I don’t really filter HAHA.) What I mean to say is that the rabid shippers are pushing BNHA levels, and what I mean by that is how feral they are and if you disagree they double down and sort of terrorize the rest of the fandom which frankly I don’t think is that small of a sect. (Those the disgusting and problematic stuff is not remotely on the same scale. The worst is misogyny and at times racism.)

Fandom and specifically fanfic has always been very fem coded in my experience and it makes me feel queasy that the fanbase for my favorite show actively seems to hate women. For example there was something on tiktok or IG about an artist drawing a racist depiction of Cait and then vitkor beautifully, or the fact shippers are racist towards Mel and Sky. I see SQUAT about time bomb or CaitVi, hell even Vander and Silco! I guess the crux of it is, a little diversity would be nice, character analyses that don’t revolve around sexuality or shipping, theory’s or expansions upon characters that sort of got back burnered like Sky or other councilors or more about the sort of rebellion and why Silco and Vander had a falling out. Writing critique on the show even considering that second season was so rushed imo!

Just let the women be in the fanbase bro. I don’t care that y’all are shipping two men, great, so you shouldn’t care what I and other women are doing too! You should be like cool we love the same show!

I am curious how women/fems/or just anyone burnt out from fandom and shipping feels and copes with this. Saying cope feels sort of cringe and like it’s causing me a mental breakdown, it’s more so the “bro please let me enjoy my favorite thing too,” feeling. We should make our own community with in the fandom so we can enjoy things as well with other people too. It’s okay and it makes me want to finally share my own writings I just don’t know where to start since I’ve been a lurker for 10+ years.

Love,

A Dying Chemist

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uh oh, now I have a TF2 OC. Meet The Psychiatrist

(In fact, she is a psychologist hired for psychiatrist position by an idiotic MannCo’s HR’s mistake but shhh, it’s a secret 🤫🤫🤫)

Her and @essspion’s OC The Pilot

oh and she also has a stupid little crush on The Sniper

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The last one ocxcanon with Bachelor was sorta crack cuz I don’t really ship them

now the oc I SURE DO ship with Bachelor since 2020

her name is Diana

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Nothing special, just my OC Ariadne invading Daniil’s personal space

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I’m now watching Pathologic 3: Quarantine demo (I don’t have a computer so only YouTube gives me an opportunity to look at it 😭😭😭) and watching how they almost made Bachelor have something very close to mixed episode of bipolar disorder is very good for my self esteem

yes, mixed episode when you are having BOTH mania and depression at the same time is a thing. I’m having it. like. right friggin now. as my doctor says