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how do we fix this now? list of angsty relationship starter.

“i’ve messed this up, haven’t i?” “i get it. s/he’s smarter, more attractive.” “all these other women are making me nervous.” “don’t worry, the only one i ever see is you.” “please don’t let go of me. please, never let go.” “do you ever wonder what would have happened if we hadn’t met?” “i’m scared of loving you. i’m scared of hurting you.” “i’m ending this now. i’m ending this before it goes too far.” “this was a mistake. i’m sorry.” “do you really think that?” “i gave you everything.” “i don’t have any feelings left for you.” “just walk away.” “i need you. more than anything.” “you understand me.” “you can’t just leave.” “so this is what it comes down to huh? wasted time & a half empty bottle of vodka — don’t touch the bottle, i’ll say when i’ve had enough.” “don’t touch me!” “she was always first in your eyes.” “i’m sorry for trying.” “in the end, i should have known that you would break me.”

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Kousuke was familiar with her type. Actually, he felt a twinge of annoyance toward her words. Not because he was actually annoyed by her, but because he could feel the soft spot in him growing slightly. She reminded him of his younger half-sister, and he kind of really disliked when that happened. Mostly because, of all of the people on the Earth, his sister was one of the only people that could actually get to him, in a good way. He rarely listened to anyone except her, when it came to things that weren’t exactly logical. “It’s good to have high goals,” he responded carefully, as if treading lightly on his own words, “But you should also be aware of your own limits, or the actual limits in the world. So that you don’t strain yourself emotionally or physically.” Though something she had said before had struck a cord in him. Yes, even realists (or at least, people who considered themselves realists like himself) could run into feelings like heartbreak or disappointment. They were, after all, feelings that were hard to avoid without completely removing all emotions from oneself, which was nearly impossible. Or at least, that’s what he had realized, despite all of his attempts to become void of emotion.

Mirei was rather dumbfounded at the words she received. It was cold, it was harsh but it was in all honesty. It was amazing how he can be true to himself, how he can handle saying those without being scared of other people’s judgement. Truly it was something amazing yet something sad. She was never the type to think such things. Not because she’s ignorant, she’s old enough to have already seen the world. Maybe not everything about it but she knows just how true the man’s words were. `I hate to break it to you , but I’m kind of a dreamer. Yeah sure the world is a big place and the worlds doesn’t care about it. Even those few people you mentioned will be forgotten. Everyone will be forgotten. That’s how it works but there is something more in this world, in this world where dreaming is free. Heartbreak and Disappointment can even happen to realist right? It’s a neutral feeling after all. But then if something didn’t work it doesn’t mean we’re supposed to give up. We’re never too old to start a new dream. I don’t think highly of myself because I set my goals high. I just want to have a worth it reason for continue doing my best at anything.` Looking up at the man in front of her she flashed a smile, hoping that somehow it all made sense cause she knows too well that sometimes she just ends up blabbering too much.

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“Unbelievable.” He repeated, trying to shrug off Kento’s hand from his shoulder. “Can’t I just order them online if I really wanted them?” Kousuke pointed out, his head tilting while the smile remained on his face. At this point, he was only dragging it on in an attempt to mess with his companion, making a show of it as he ate another one of the strawberry candies he had. He seemed to move in slow motion, and then he let out a loud ‘umai’ as he savored the candy in front of Kento. “I guess I’ll relent, since I feel bad for you.” The man finally responded, handing over exactly six like Kento had suggested -- no more, and no less.

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“Kousuke you’re unbelievable.” Shaking his head as his shoulder slumped in defeat, Kento’s hand went up to his friend’s shoulder. “Look, it would only be fair if you give me 6 of those strawberry candies because I bought my expensive ones out of Japan! You’re not getting this anywhere near you Kousuke!! Think about it!! This is an important matter.” he blew his fringe, tugging onto his shoulder, slightly whining. He boasted so much about the candies he bought out of Japan but in fact, the strawberry candies tasted better than his.

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❛ Repost & BOLD which lines of famous poetry apply to your muse.

i saw the best minds of my generation destroyed by madness, starving hysterical naked. // tyger tyger, burning bright // i have done it again. // do not go gentle into that good night. // the sea is calm to-night. // let us go then, you and i, // april is the cruelest month. // pretty women wonder where my secret lies. // there is a place where the sidewalk ends. // i carry your heart with me (i carry it in my heart) // two roads diverged in a yellow wood. // whose woods these are i think i know, // let us twain walk aside from the rest. // once upon a midnight dreary, while i pondered, weak and weary, // i taught myself to live simply and wisely. // it so happens i am sick of being a man // i wandered lonely as a cloud // does it dry up like a raisin in the sun? // o my love is like a red, red rose. // o captain! my captain! our fearful trip is done; // out of the night that covers me // it was many and many a year ago // you may write me down in history // do not stand at my grave and weep // some say the world will end in fire // some say in ice. // hope is the thing with feathers // the wind was a torrent of darkness among the gusty trees, // no man is an island, //remember me when i am gone away, // i met a traveler from an antique land // ‘twas brillig, and the slithy toves // this is thy hour o soul, // when we wear the mask that grins and lies, // death be not proud, // and death shall have no dominion. // laugh, and the world laughs with you; // the art of losing isn’t hard to master; // to see a world in a grain of sand // is there anybody there? said the traveller // nobody heard him, the dead man, // that crazed girl improving her music. // come to me in the silence of the night; // where the mind is without fear and the head is held high // when you are old and grey and full of sleep, // in flanders’ fields the poppies blow // i thought of you and how you love this beauty // life, believe, is not a dream // it may be misery not to sing at all, // if tarry space no limit knows // come live with me and be my love, // had we but world enough and time, // my heart aches, and a drowsy numbness pains my sense // bright star, would i were stedfast as thou art- // thou still unravish’d bride of quietness // how do i love thee? let me count the ways. // heaven is what i cannot reach! // my dear, my dear, i know // in visions of the dark night // shall i compare thee to a summers day? // break, break, break // she walks in beauty, // i had a dream, which was not at all a dream. // he clasps the ring with crooked hands.

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                        Twenty-six year old company director.                                           Kousuke Ootori. OC.                                              Reblog & Follow.

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“your last chance to negotiate.”

cut songs from hamilton meme.

“Is it?” He narrowed his eyes slightly, as if thoughtful. He remained silent for some time after that, and it seemed as though he were going to change his decision after all, despite how stubborn he had initially been about it. “In that case,” Kousuke began again, his head nodding a few times thoughtfully. “My decision stays the same.” A smile -- amused, naturally sly, and still only faintly apparent on his face. He was the worst person to try to negotiate with.

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"I want the world to know what I intended to do."

cut songs from hamilton meme.

“You want the world to know?” He leaned forward, his elbows on the table and his chin rested on his hands that were folded together under it. “I hate to break it to you, but I’m kind of a realist. The world is a big place and the world doesn’t care what you do. Are you trying to make some huge impact? Few people are able to do that. It’s better to accept in the long run that The ‘world’ doesn’t care about your accomplishments. It sounds harsh but it’ll save you from heartbreak and disappointment in the long run. It’s in your best interest to not think so highly of yourself, as if the entire world would know your name.” He was smiling, almost as if he took enjoyment from harsh words. But, under the surface, his smile was bitter because he knew as well as anyone the truth in his words, and how vital it was to save yourself from feeling overly important to a world that hardly knew you existed.

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Sorry for disappearing for a little while after making this account. I’ll be answering things now and getting writing done so that I can hopefully be more active here.

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i love the term “partners” are we dating? are we robbing a bank? do we run a legal firm? are we the dedicated detectives who investigate these vicious felonies and are members of an elite squad known as the special victims unit? who knows.

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cut songs from hamilton meme.

“i’ve gotta stop a homicide.”

“no one knows who you are or what you do.”

“i always considered you a friend.”

“your pride will be the death of us all.”

“what in the hell was that?”

“you better have another punch to throw!”

“you could let it go.”

“ stay alive for me.”

“let other people be cynical - let it go!”

“you’re smiling because you know i’m right.”

“how lucky you are to be alive right now.”

“the reality is not a pretty picture, kids.”

“congratulations.”

“you have invented a new kind of stupid.”

“truly, you didn’t think this through? kind of stupid.”

“i begged you to take a break, you refused to.”

“you’re so scared of what your enemies will do to you.”

“you’re the only enemy you ever seem to lose to.”

“don’t dignify school yard taunts with a response.”

“that doesn’t wipe the tears of the years away.”

“i’m not here for you.”

“i will choose (her/his/their) happiness over mine.”

“(name) is the best thing in our lives.”

“i’ll be here for you.”

“there are ten things you need to know.”

“most disputes die and no one shoots!”

“your last chance to negotiate.”

“i want the world to know what i intended to do.”

“i know this puts me in a difficult spot.”

“i’ve got to throw away my shot.”

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I write emotional algebra.

Anaïs Nin

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headcanons! -- accepting.

「✿」: Arts! We must respect that not everyone can draw, paint, write, sing.. but even though they cannot do these things, something artistic must be of their liking, right? What does your muse like and appreciate more from all the forms of art? If they could, would they write, sing, draw.. ? Favourite artists (writers, painters..)?

As far as having any artistic ability, Kousuke feels that he may lack in that area, but he won’t deny that he has nice taste. Though, as a teenager going through his rebellious phase, he did learn to play the drums. On top of that, up until the age of twelve, he took both piano and violin lessons.

When it comes to appreciating art, he often frequents galleries or exhibits that he has been invited to, or if he feels the need to go for work-related ventures. Usually, he studies up on artists or pieces that may or will be featured so that he can effectively start and maintain conversations and appear as a well-rounded and well-spoken member of society.

As for having a favorite artist or writer, he enjoys the artworks of Van Gogh, Monet, Kahlo,  Afremov, da Vinci, Vermeer, Michelangelo, Klimt, and Botticelli. His favorite painting currently is The Kiss by Gustav Klimt. As for writers, he enjoys F. Scott Fitzgerald, Hemingway, Franz Kafka, Friedrich Nietzsche, Homer, and Henry David Thoreau. He thoroughly enjoyed The Great Gatsby by Fitzgerald as he felt it properly showed the shallowness of wealth and material property.

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                        Twenty-six year old company director.                                           Kousuke Ootori. OC.                                              Reblog & Follow.