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hey this edit took me 16 hours i hope you enjoy

real talk: this is my baby. i started it over three months ago. this is one of the most well-made songs i’ve ever heard and it’s literally about doomscrolling. syncing the music to the extremely fast pace of the drums was so unbelievably difficult but so so worth it. genuinely one of my favorite things i’ve ever made, to the point that i’ve been procrastinating posting it for several weeks in case only like two people see it.

but who cares!!! i just wish that whatever two people see it think it’s as cool as i do

take a peek under the cut for the ramblings of a madwoman who spent way too long meticulously planning out every single shot of this thing

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okay so i’ve had a recent fixation on djo, and when i heard this song for the first time i was like “goddamn those drums are so cool, the buildup is fantastic, the vocals are done so well, overall it’s just super good” and then i thought nothing of it otherwise that it was a great song

but then i got this particular bit stuck in my head and suddenly the lyrics started clicking with the siblings a bit too well and i was like..ok so i have no choice but to spend entirely too much time assembling an edit to this particular bit right. like there’s no question i simply have to right

anyway i really did think it would be one of those projects so big that i would procrastinate it until i no longer had any motivation to actually make it and then lo and behold i was just too excited not to get going. so i did

anyway ok so i pictured this edit broken up into three main parts:

a) five’s experience with the apocalypse, since the events of the show basically wouldn’t exist without his knowledge and determination to stop it

b) viktor’s descent into the white violin

c) the four apocalypses and what caused them all building up to this climax before dropping off into the shot of the marigolds at the very end. because if i was a casual viewer that would’ve personally made me lose my marbles

here’s a lyric analysis in the context of tua + the specific visuals i had pictured:

first time through . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

something is about to break — five is about to run right into the apocalypse and change his life in a devastating way / the meal directly before five leaves, cutting abruptly to him realizing his mistake while surrounded by destruction

the fault line has been fractured — nothing can change the inevitability of what is about to happen, five has always been stubborn and determined and he was always going to run right into his own downfall / five with his siblings, seemingly content to stay with them

maybe it’s not too late — exactly what it says, maybe it’s not too late for five to turn around and save himself / mere moments before his mistake, as he runs out of the academy to go prove himself

to learn how to love each other — five can still turn around and realize that what he has is all he needs and that venturing into the unknown may end badly for him / five opening the gates and saying goodbye to the life he could’ve held onto

what’s it gonna take to change it? — what could possibly change the outcome now that five’s messed up? (not a single thing) / five slowly realizing his mistake and trying to undo it contrasted directly to his siblings’ continued lives at the academy

don’t you wanna save this planet? — wouldn’t it have been better to have thought this through? what if he’d been able to prevent the apocalypse by sticking around? (he couldn’t have) / continued shots of five v. his siblings

blame it on manipulation — five could tell himself that it didn’t have to be this way and that it all happened because he just wanted to prove himself to his father / continues shots of five v. his siblings, except he’s come to terms with his situation and he’s now doing what it takes to survive + growing up in this terrible place

we’re human after all — exactly what it says, five was always going to make this mistake because he’s only human at the end of the day / five slowly turning to the handler after hearing her offer, taking in the thought of exactly what he’s going to have to do to survive and save his family

second time through . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . .

something is about to break — viktor is about to cause the apocalypse and there’s nothing anyone can do to stop it / viktor getting overwhelmed by the things he’s learned and his newly-discovered abilities and hurting allison

the fault line has been fractured — the damage has been done, viktor has been hurt and lied to and manipulated and it’s all going to topple over uncontrollably / viktor discovering leonard’s lie and killing him

maybe it’s not too late — maybe if things change, maybe if his siblings could listen and understand what’s going on, the apocalypse wouldn’t be inevitable (it always will be) / viktor going back to the academy to check on allison and ask for forgiveness, just to be locked away like he always has been

to learn how to love each other — luther and klaus and diego can still try talking to viktor before he descends to a point of no return (they won’t) / viktor trying to convince them to let him out and talking to a vision of his younger self

what’s it gonna take to change it? — what could possibly stop viktor now, as he destroys the academy and leaves for the concert at the end of the world? (nothing can) / viktor looking through the home he grew up in and seeing nothing but his family’s contempt for him, leaving nothing but destruction in his wake

don’t you wanna save this planet? — couldn’t this have been prevented? couldn’t his siblings have just talked to him and helped him work through his trauma? couldn’t that alone have saved so many lives? (of course not) / viktor getting ready for his final concert

blame it on manipulation — viktor spent his entire life thinking he was worthless at the manipulation of his father, causing the neglect to build up into mass devastation / viktor seeing allison as he plays and thinking she’s finally there for him, just to discover it was all a ploy to stop him

we’re human after all — viktor is only human, when driven to the point he’s at, he can only take so much before everything builds up and comes to an end / the last moments before everything explodes

anyway that’s about it. i cannot actually express with words how much i loved making this despite how tedious and painstaking it was (and how much i did NOT want to watch s4 to scavenge for clips and also edit them).

i genuinely don’t know if anyone is reading this because it’s more for me to just ramble about a bit of a passion project for me lol. but if you are, i love you thanks

anyway LISTEN TO DJO!!!! listen to djo, especially this song, because i fucking levitated the first time i just sat down and listened to this song, with headphones on and my eyes shut, and took it all in. it’s a song about doomscrolling for the love of god, but the lyrics are masterly crafted and the instrumentals are heavenly. djo is a warlock we charge at dawn

also here’s some more of me rambling about it because i truly never shut up

ok thanks so much for reading and watching and supporting have a lovely day!! mwah mwah mwah

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do you ever hang out with someone else’s family and you’re like ooooh. so this is what it’s supposed to be like

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mildly funny when someone gets divorced out of your family and your relationship status becomes like. ex-uncle. ex-stepsibling. yeah we shared holiday dinners for years and now you're just some guy to me. c'est la vie.

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I’m on season 3 rn of The Magnus Archives.

Does anyone have any spoiler free fanfic recommendations? Or any that focuses on season 1&2?

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Maxwell saying he's the only one with intellectual curiosity in his family and then starting on this adventure and realizing he has basically no intellectual curiosity in comparison to the rest of the crew. Something something going to college/work/the wide world for the first time and suddenly everyone around you is better than you at something you thought made you special.

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Me: Of course I love Ricky and Gorgug and all, but to me no Zac PC will ever come close to Skip, the mind control slug who's also a runaway prince.

Zac Oyama: What if I gave you a geriatric murderer who's down so bad for his ex-wife?

Me: ...I'm listening.

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Why isn't "too scary" a good enough reason to never drive a car

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I love shipping shit nobody else has even thunk of. I’m 10k years in advance compared to these other gay people. It’s me and this one other person who wrote fics in 2010 and hasn’t posted since against the world. I’m reading this shit from the ancient scrolls and understanding it.

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i think the intrepid heroes are at their best in a shared vehicle

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Reposting this bc something went weird with the original post.

Fanfic ideas - Sydluca

All I want rn is a long Sydluca fanfic. I am not a writer, but I often come up with ideas for fics.

Feel free to use this idea for your own works as long as you give me credit if/when posting them on this or other platforms.

It’s after the party at the end of season 3. Luca has gotten Sydney’s number and they start texting. It starts with small talk or small invitations into their lives, and as time goes their conversations progress. Them sharing their favourite colour lead up to them sending pictures of something in that colour. They don’t talk about Carmen or The Bear. They talk about their love for cooking and different recipes.

It’s Luca who asks her out, they go on dates and as their relationship develops. So does Sydney’s relationship with her work. After finding something outside of her work that she treasures she’s able to see it in a better light. Why she started The Bear in the beginning. The different ways her and Carmen need to grow and change.

SYDCARMY IS NOT ENDGAME IN THIS.

Play with Luca’s awkwardness. Him and Sydney are both awkward and stumble on their words. Give them nervous first dates and kisses. Show their more comfortable sides, their humour, how they tell a story. Eating breakfast before work with each other. Comparing the different fast food chains to each other.

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This. Just this.

I love fandom. Ive made some life long friends here. I just..... maybe im older than the ones im seeing now? Cause like, why would you say those things, how did you get to a point so beyond the original thing and think it's true

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Olethra not getting involved whatsoever in the fighting and yet somehow managing to accomplish the most important thing in the encounter had such big Margaret Encino vibes. We are SO back.

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idc about sydc*rmy being canon or not. However it's funny how many people want Carmy to step it up so he can be worth Sydney's time. Despite his stressful behavior driving her and the staff insane like ok, there are other characters like Luca who already respect and appreciate her, who value what she has to say and make her relax. But according to some fans, apparently Sydney just needs to wait for Carmy to grow the hell up and get his shit together. 🙄

No thank you

People like the idea of someone fixing themselves for another person more than they actually care about the characters themselves.

I only watched The Bear this month, yet I have seen posts about it since it came out. I came into it thinking that I was going to ship Sydcarmy and was then surprised when I didn’t.

When looking at the fandom (specifically on this app) there is a big trend of glorifying Carmen while also making him their own. People started to ship Sydney and Carmen in season 1 and stuck with the idea of them since then. The way Sydcarmy fanfiction is written is a good example of this. They want the “I made myself better for you because I love you”. Something that often seen in other medias on different platforms.

And why wouldn’t they want that? It’s romantic. It’s devotion at it’s peak while still getting character development. And this could have worked, if this show’s biggest theme wasn’t realism. The devotion that the fandom wants is unrealistic and often toxic when aplied in a real situation. “I made myself better for you, love me” would be such a big guilt trip in real life and can often lead to abusive behaviour.

While this is not the case for every relationship or instance with this. It is realistic, and I would argue more likely with Sydcarmy because of the behaviour shown in the seasons that have come out.

Which is why I personally don’t like the ship myself. I think Carmen is incredibly interesting as a character and I believe him to be insanely well written. Yet, I do not believe that Sydney and him could have a healthy relationship with how the show is going.

Carmen is actively continuing the cycle of abuse that he endured, whether be has realised it or not. And the people who are facing the most of it are Sydney and Richie. With Richie, it was something him and Carmen already had as a dynamic and they are able to communicate in their own twisted way while Sydney is left on her own.

So when I saw her and Luca together, even with the little screen time they got to have together. We could finally see her without the heaviness of the restaurant and her relationship with Carmen. We just saw her. It has been stated by many before that Luca is everything Carmen could have been. He is sweet, extremely talented and didn’t lose his love for food on the way to his success. He is also honest and willing to teach. Something that was shown when Marcus came to stage for him in season 2. These traits are things that Sydney needs to have a stable relationship with anyone, romantic or otherwise.

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I don't care if this is a hot take or whatever I'm just going to say it.

All the "that's a lesbian" talk around Van makes me deeply fucking uncomfortable, and especially all the hate?? and hostility?? I've seen directed at her equally fictional husband as well as real life Siobhan Thompson for how she has chosen to build and portray her character after one singular episode.

I'll be straight up. It's gross. It's gender essentialist and anti-feminist. It's biphobic as hell and also reeks of a certain level of classism and ... naivety?? to the world and the variety of people in it. As well as my favourite fucking bugbear, American centralism.

I have met women like Vanellope Chapman. I have met many women just like Van. They're hard workers, they're gritty, they have histories and families and yes most of the time, they have husbands and or male partners. Partners who love them dearly exactly as they are.

Vanellope Chapman could not more clearly be drawn from a rich and deeply rooted history of the working class English woman. Real blue collar shit. A tradie. And she clearly fucking loves her husband and her husband loves her. They'll built a lovely little life together.

This truly feels like reintroducing Feminism and Gender Theory 101 here but you cannot assume someone's gender or sexual identity by their appearance. But what if -- No, not even, and especially then.

That's fucking TERF logic.

It's giving "your gay and that's final."

We can make no assumptions about Vanellope and her identity and it's fucking weird that the majority of this fandom, which I've always experienced as a fairly open minded and left leaning space, seems so determined to deny and quite literally over-write what is clearly a large part of her character this early in the campaign so that she fits more neatly into a box that strips her of her roots and identity and makes her "easier" and more consumable to an American centric audience that apparently can't fucking conceive of a masc working class woman with a low, gravelly voice and sun-beaten makeup-less face having a husband who loves her and whom she loves in return.

When I write it out like that do you see it?? Do you see what I see??

Look, maybe Van is bi. Maybe she and Bert are in a polyamorous or open relationship. Maybe she and Marya and Comfrey were all in it together on the Zephyr twenty years ago.

We don't know.

And we will continue not to know until the Intrepid Heroes choose to show us, if indeed, there is anything to show.

Until then, I am actually begging you all to think about what you are saying and your own internal biases.

And why in a world of Gath, where you can be anyone you want to be if you have enough gumption, you are refusing to see Van Chapman exactly as she is, not who you would find her easier to be.

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lucy after lockwood pisses them both off