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I saw this post in fb kasi shinare ng tropa ko, there's someone here who is suicidal naiiyak ako nasasaktan ako para sa kanya hindi ko alam. There's a time na 2 or 3 am in the morning nagising ako hobby ko na kasi yung mag check ng fb sa tuwing na aalimpungatan ako ng ganong oras siguro sinanay na rin ng ex ko yung body clock ko na magising ng ganong oras, I opened the messenger kasi alam ko may rant na naman yung taong yon pero one time pag bukas ko ng pm niya grabe sa flood ewan nag start na ako mag worry, and then I replied hoping na gising pa siya buti na lang naka online pa. Ayun sobrang depressed siya, na momroblema nakuha ko pa ngang mag biro kala ko kasi nag jo-joke siya "Tangina hindi ako nag bibiro". And then he called. Nag kwento siya sa mga nangyari, sa sobrang hindi niya alam yung gagawin niya gusto na daw niya paharurutin yung motor niya at ibangga na lang sa puno, kapag mamatay daw siya puntahan ko daw siya sa address nila. Tangina after nung tawag na yon naiyak ako sobra kasi hindi ko alam kung anong gagawin ko, gusto ko siyang puntahan at yakapin kaso hindi pwede, hindi ko talaga alam pero thankful na rin ako kay G na nasagot ko yung mga messages at tawag niya na kahit papano I've done something para maiwasan yung pagka suicidal niya. Please if you have friends na nakikitaan niyo ng suicidal signs please give some time, minsan hindi nila kailangan ng advice ang kailangan lang nila is an ear who is ready to listen and a shoulder that they can cry on. Please be aware guys

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God is no stranger to pain. When you cry to Him, He isn’t looking down on you and saying, “Here we go again.” He’s leaning down, feeling every tear of betrayal, anxiety, and grief that you are crying, and saying “I know. I remember. I know.”

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Siguro hindi lang natin matanggap na sobra-sobra natin silang minahal tapos ganon lang yung napala natin.

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Fall in love with writing

I don’t need oxygen for survival, I just need ink in my veins with words in my heart and a piece of paper to scribble my feelings that would never fade and dreams that will never break

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Forget about their opinions. Be happy, be healthy, love yourself better, speak less, do more, feed your imagination, nourish your curiosity, travel to the places you’ve been meaning to go, embrace your insecurities, and stay calm and focused. Let your soul recover from those people who never felt anything for you and breathe again. In God’s good time, you will be more than okay. Just wait for it to come, keep the hope alive and never let it fade.

d.r.n (via escafeism)

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Wag kang matakot na mawala sa buhay mo ang isang tao na hindi naman nare-realize ang worth mo. Pabor pa nga sa part mo ‘yun eh.

Clearly Silly Salad | Opinions and Rants 2017 (via clearlysillysalad)

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Yung sa pagkaka alam mo okay ka na pero dumarating yung oras na bigla na lang bibigat yung dibdib mo tapos tutulo na lang yung luha mo, Strong person tayo kaso hahantong talaga na umiiral yung vulnerability mo.

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I love you but I can’t say it every other hour. I love you but I can’t answer your call all the time specially when it’s 3am and I am trying to catch some sleep. I love you but I can’t spend more time talking to you about nothing when there are piles of responsibilities that are waiting to be accomplished. I love you but I can’t compose screenshot-worthy messages all the time just for you to have something to share on Facebook. What I am trying to say is you are the most important part of my world but you are not my world. What I am trying to say is I don’t think clinging to you all the time is the best way to express my affection. What I am trying to say is my heart is yours but you keep on asking for things that are beyond than what I can offer. What I am trying to say is I’ve been doing my best to be everything that you need but you always blame me for not being capable to be the one that you want. Don’t you know that I would travel across the world just to see your face? Don’t you know that I would run away from the place that I call home if you ask me to? Don’t you know that I could forget all my yesterdays if it means I could have the rest of my tomorrows with you? Don’t you know that I was willing to bleed endlessly if it means I would never see you cry ever again? Don’t you know that I could turn my back to all the parts of me that are cruel if it means I could be good enough for you? My love for you is more than 140 characters. My love for you takes longer than a 24-hour Instagram story. My love for you is clear even without all those filters. My love for you doesn’t need validation from the ones who follow us. The only reaction that matters here is yours. I hope you’ll realize that I am not someone that you could install or uninstall all the time. I hope you can see through my real heart even without the emoji that you insist I should send you. I hope you’ll truly love me too even if you’re offline. Because all of these connections shouldn’t matter if we’re together. Because I aim to give you real happiness, not a virtual one. Because I shouldn’t be someone that you should keep for the sake of telling the world that you’re alone. I love you but sometimes, you make it hard for me to breathe.

n.a., Suffocation (via escafeism)

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Alam mo, kahit na puro plano lang yung “meeting with your family thingy” I already gave a part of my heart to them. Ewan ko kahit sa kwento mo lang at pictures ko sila nakilala there’s something about your family that I could embrace for a long period of time. Nakakatuwa isipin na parang ang laki ng difference ng mama at papa mo still they fought for each other, hahaha parang tayo kaso ang pinag kaibihan lang ang bilis nating sumuko. I admire how humorous your father and how your mom sacrifice her time para sa ibang tao and for her to be able to give your needs that’s why you kept longing for her attention I know that, I feel that especially on the way how you tell some things about her I saw it in your eyes you really love her. Hindi ako naiinis nakakakilig yon kasi imagine sa personality mo di aakalain na mama’s boy ka pala. That’s why dumarating yung oras na I’d rather to set aside our time para sa inyong dalawa. Sa tuwing nakikita ko na kasama mo yung mama mo abot-abot yung saya ko para sayo kasi yun yung gusto mo, Nakikita ko yung ngiti mong parang mcdonalds hindi lang mula tenga, mula puso pa hahaha I love it whenever I saw your geniune smile. I love it whenever I saw how you care for her and for your little sister hahaha i know they cannot see future in you but Im seeing that you will be a good husband in the future. Kaya sana yung next na mamahalin mo makita din yun sayo.

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The things I find most beautiful about a person are almost never physical.

Mark Patterson (via wordsnquotes)

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Iyak pa

Hindi ko alam kung ang dahilan ba ng nangyayari sakin ngayon ay yung sunod-sunod na stress nitong nakaraan araw o nagiging sensitive na naman ako dahil malapit na naman siyang dumating o sadyang miss na miss na kita.

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WOAH

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Hanggang ngayon may nalalaman parin ako, gaano katagal? Nakakainis naman putangina yang seryoso mo na yan hays ang hirap tangina mo

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I did the break up sakit na kasi kaso ngayon Sobrang miss na miss na kita I want to feel your skin in me pero malabo na please tell me how to unlove you.

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Sorry for not needing you but I badly want you.

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Gusto kong magalit, gusto kitang sigawan, gusto kitang saktan kasi ang gago mo ang gago gago mo sobra pero bakit hindi ko magawa gusto ko lang gawin ngayon ay ang yakapin ka.

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Paano ba? Kung nakikita at nararamdamang ko na nasasaktan ka, nasasaktan rin ako. Ang hirap sobrang gusto kitang yakapin ng buong mag damag pero hindi na pwede. Mahal na mahal kita B.