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i have such a weird, sometimes almost desperate, need to be liked by people i like. it’s embarrassing but also exhausting, because almost always those people don’t owe you anything - company, kindness, support. and then one day the reality check hits and you are forced to treat them as normal people. it’s that gut-wrenching realization that you’ve been overextending yourself for people who never asked you to. and not in a ‘they’re bad people’ way but in a ‘they just exist, and you built a whole emotional ecosystem around them’ way. and when the bubble pops, you’re left there, recalibrating, reminding yourself that liking someone doesn’t mean they owe you anything.

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Humans are obsessed with escapism through movies, books, music, art, daydreams."

"our souls really weren't made for this world."

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When you hear men talking about how they want kids to "continue their blood line" but Nizar Qabbani wrote

"𝘎𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘢 𝘥𝘢𝘶𝘨𝘩𝘵𝘦𝘳 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘴𝘵𝘶𝘣𝘣𝘰𝘳𝘯 𝘩𝘦𝘢𝘳𝘵, 𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘵𝘦𝘮𝘱𝘦𝘳. 𝘎𝘪𝘷𝘦 𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘤𝘩𝘪𝘭𝘥𝘳𝘦𝘯 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘥𝘢𝘳𝘬-𝘣𝘳𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘦𝘺𝘦𝘴, 𝘰𝘳 𝘺𝘰𝘶𝘳 𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘩𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘦𝘥 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦. 𝘚𝘰 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘸𝘦 𝘢𝘳𝘦 𝘨𝘰𝘯𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘸𝘰𝘳𝘭𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘥 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘮 𝘢𝘭𝘭 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘰𝘯𝘴 𝘐 𝘭𝘰𝘷𝘦𝘥 𝘺𝘰𝘶"

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Core memory ~

@poeticcluster Nov 18th, 2022 <3