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Please reblog this, it can help save people from self harming

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Why don't you love me anymore, I don't understand. Did I do something wrong? If you still loved me, Why're you questioning if you love me or not? Why won't you just break up with me instead of leading me on to believe you still give a shit about me, It hurts. It hurts so fucking bad. But I can't do anything. I'm just gonna continue to let you lead me on because that's how I am. I hate myself. I hate that I still love you when I know you don't love me.

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I feel like I have so many regrets. We should've called more, texted more, spoke to eachother. I should've made an effort. If I had known you would've gotten killed and I would never be able to speak to you again, I don't think I would have ever stopped talking.

I'm so sorry.

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Reconsider!!!🤣

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still am 😶

reminiscing on the good old days (when i was severely mentally ill and addicted to sh and no one knew)

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Tw: Talk of sh

I hit styr0 for the first time in a while and I think I nearly had a heart attack when i saw white before it started bleeding lol

I haven't done it in forever and I did it on my arm which was stupid..

[l0nd0n-3xists]

"Would you tell me if something was wrong?"

I want too but I can't

I wish I could open up better because I love you so much but I just can't

I wish you loved me as much as I love you sometimes..

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This is different from my usual posts but I have a blog where I post like genuinely more lighthearted stuff and or just art incase anyone wanted it or anything..

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I wish I was skinny. I wish I was pretty. I wish I wasn't sensitive. I wish I wasn't annoying. I wish I wasn't clingy. I wish I had pretty hair. I wish I was taller. I wish I had a purpose. I wish people actually liked me. I wish I was fun to be around. I wish I didn't hate myself. I wish I wanted to be alive.

I wish I was dead.

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[l0nd0n-3xists]

Yknow, I hated myself, alot. I used to wish I had never been born. Then with time, I had started to get better and I had actually thought things were going my way.

How stupidly wrong I was.

Now everyone around me is starting to hate the person I am. I wish I had never opened my mouth and I wish I had never opened up to anyone.

Is it selfish to wish I was dead? I hope not. Cause I don't want to give anyone another reason to hate me.

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I love fall.

But I hate it so so much.

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this

The bipolar experience is not quite being neurotypical but also not quite neurodivergent.

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I wish I never took this stupid class in the first place. How am I supposed to be smart, Get anywhere in life if I couldn’t even pass this one. stupid. test.

Why did I ever think I could do this shit, Why did I even get recommended for this? I’m not smart. I don’t amount to anything. My moms gonna be disappointed when my grade drops cause of this dumbass 70.

I hate myself.

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I’m so happy but I also wanna kill myself so freaking bad. What is this man..