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Having BPD is… being content with life at the moment, but still wanting to kill yourself.

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why feel sad when you can

dissociate so hard you blink and 6 hours have passed

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You know, it’s frustrating to have those Episodes. You know the ones. They might be different for some but we all just Know what ones. Because then afterwards you feel guilty and stupid like, I shouldn’t have said that or I shouldn’t have asked for that, or I shouldn’t have begged for attention or I shouldn’t have gotten so Irrationally Mad at that person, and then once it’s over you’re reading through messages and thinking ‘what the fuck what the FUKC??’

Yeah. Yeah, it’s fun it’s great, thanks I hate it.

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my bpd moods (The Bad Version) pt 2

Hyper-aware of literally everything. You are going to die one day. That tree is beautiful. I have hands

Why do you like me all I said was hi

do I text again or do I throw my phone in the sink

PARANOID. PARANOID. PARANOID. PARANOID. PARANOID.

The Shower Has A Camera In It. They Watch Me.

is this reaction normal? no? ah, fuck

I Yearn For Death Or A Smoothie

MUST HURT SELF. MUST DO SELF DESTRUCTIVE THINGS. MUST

Repressed…what? Whomst? OH. There it is. Let’s die.

Sick all the time. Physically sick all the fucking time

Die die die die die

??????!!!!!!!!!!??????????

!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

That moment where you feel conceptually “normal” and try to cling onto it as long as you can before something ruins it

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that bpd feel when you absoLUTELY love something and its the Best thing in the world ever and then someone says 1 (one) negative thing about it and now you hate it and can’t stand thinking about it or liking it At All bc its too embarrassing

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i just love how i get bored when i’m alone, so i think until i make myself sad

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Do you ever just have those moments where you’re like, ‘fuck I really am mentally ill’ and you realised how disordered you are and how fucked up all your perceptions are. It’s such an odd feeling, like really recognising your pain and at the same time being detached from it and feeling almost objectively curious about it

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my abandonment issues: they’re going to leave you me: no they’re probably just busy my abandonment issues: THEY HATE YOU AND YOU’RE GOING TO DIE ALONE me: hm you make a fair point better self destruct

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Ahhh 💥👀 the sweet 😤👌 smell 👃❓ of abandonment 🏃‍♂️💨 issues ⚠️🆘️ and fear 🤤❗ of commitment 👥💘

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Hi yes

I would like a large order of attention with a side of loving affection

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me: (doesn’t directly tell anyone that i am struggling)

me: kinda interesting how nobody is ever there when i need them ://

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my brain: *remembers a repressed memory*

me: thanks! i hate it