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yeah uh. it's been two days and he hasn't responded 😃 have no idea if he even listened to it, if he's just slowly ghosting me... truly who knows

I JUST SENT THE AUDIO HAHAHAHA IM NERVOUS AND NOW HAVE NA INTERVIEW EVERYONE WISH ME LUCK

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if I watched the l word, I think I'd end up writing fanfiction for shane and idk if anyone wants that LMAOOO

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you think you're over your breakup then you hear pasilyo and wanna cry

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guys I have an eight hour long train ride tomorrow, please give me your best podcast recs 🙏🏽

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I JUST SENT THE AUDIO HAHAHAHA IM NERVOUS AND NOW HAVE NA INTERVIEW EVERYONE WISH ME LUCK

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I’m going to hold your hand when I tell you this. They are playing you. I’m so sorry. Every single answer you want has been answered with their blog plus text alone. It’s not you, it’s him. I want to also add— The way he’s treating you is weird and inappropriate.

You know you don’t deserve someone who wouldn’t even have a single second thought that this is how he makes people feel. If you still want clarity I say go for it if you need it more than anything else from him. But, as a human, I think the best decision to move forward from this is blocking them.

LMFAOOOOO THE WAY YOU'RE THE SECOND PERSON TO TELL ME, "I'm gonna hold your hand" 😭😭 a mutual of mine told me the exact same thing when they told me the same cold, hard truth. and yeah, you're right. I got so excited about the call and was so sure he was interested that afterwards, I kept making excuses for him, like maybe he's nervous or maybe he's just trying to play hard to get. but, it's really clear he just isn't interested and either doesn't see the call as enough of a big deal to tell me so, or he's just being avoidant about it. and right? like, even if we met on nsft tumblr, him initiating a call that ended up being so long and had us legitimately trying to get to know each other, filled with him flirting -- like, of course I'd take that as something beyond just casual sexual stuff. he may not realize it, but still, he should be explaining why he's pulling away and why he clearly no longer wants to make plans after something so intimate.

thank you :( yeah, you're right. because even if he doesn't realize how I took the call, and in his head, it was "obviously" casual -- he still is clearly evading making future plans and texting me, and he could at least have the decency to explain himself. especially after we were intimate and I told him that was a big deal to me, as well as that I wanted to get to know him more. I wanna ask him just so I know what he intended doing with the call, but at the same time, idk if it's worth to ask anymore questions after. like, questions about why he did this, or what he meant by that. idk, I'll just see how he responds when I send the audio, and ask for clarification if anything.

thank you so so so much for this ask, it honestly made me a LOT better. I get so anxious with stuff like this, and I tend to worry if my feelings are valid or if I'm overthinking, so to hear it put straight like this that I'm making complete sense and it was wrong of him to behave like this -- it helps an enormous amount. I appreciate you a lot, thank you so much :((

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Even though it's scary and has you nervous I hope you send it. It's better to know how the other party feels sooner rather than later. So do the brave thing and send it. Sending big hugs of support and encouragement. You've got this. Rooting for you immensely, s. You deserve everything you want/need and more. You're hot, sweet, intelligent and so bloody talented and worthy of the love you want. It's out there and will find you, I promise. I really really hope things go well with said person. You deserve it soooo much. Take care. Take some breaths. And then say fuck it and send the message. You're a star, worthy of everything you want and if they can't see that then it'll really suck but just know better things will come. xoxo. Remember to be kind to yourself no matter the outcome. Your feelings are valid. You are valid. You are important and so loved by your little community/fanbase on here. Stay safe, lovely s. 🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂🫂

this is so :(((( so fucking kind and sweet. at this point, my anxiety has melted a lot more over the situation, which I am so thankful for because it had me frazzled and in the pits last week. but, I think I wanna send the audio just to know if he's someone who's cruel and who I should soft block. I keep seeing him on my other tumblr, and it makes me uncomfortable, and I'd rather know his intentions and such just so I know where to... idk, place him in my mind.

thank you so much :( I feel like I'm in this constant state of wondering if I'm demanding too much, so it's affirming to know if I want something and know that I can give in return, then I deserve it. it's really that simple, you're right. and please, all the compliments :((( that is so immensely kind, I appreciate those words more than you know. to be perceived in such a powerful way just means the world to me. like, I won't forget that. and thank you so much for that reassurance. like, I keep reminding myself that someone who is communicative and considerate and patient is out there, and there are so many humans in the world, so if it doesn't work with one, that's okay. so, you telling me I deserve it and that it'll come honestly does make me feel really hopeful. because yeah, I shouldn't have to beg for the kind of consideration I give to other people. and if someone has so little interest in me that they have me constantly questioning and stressing over their feelings, then they clearly aren't interested enough and it's not worth pursuing or begging for. if I have to dissect if a person is into me, it's not worth my time.

"you're a star" -- truly so kind :((( like, when I read this whole message, I absolutely melted. all the validation and utter kindness helps so much, especially since I so often feel hopeless over if I'll ever find the love I want since I keep getting hurt or dismissed. so, remembering that better things will come and that so long as I only tolerate kindness and directness from other people, that's what I'll receive, really helps. and it helps to remember that I deserve better than to run in circles wondering what someone else is thinking, and that it's never worth it to do so. this truly gave me such a boost of confidence and hope.

and mentioning my little community, just :((( I love and cherish you all so much. I know I barely post nowadays due to little motivation to write, but this community and all the kindness and warmth you guys radiate means the fucking world to me. like, this always feels like such a safe space to talk and ramble and share with others, and I love hearing from you guys too. and all the advice and support I've received this week after ranting about that person has been so affirming and it makes me feel so appreciated and grateful.

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and broooo like I need to admit to him that I was feeling him after our call and ask him what he intended with with the call and meanwhile he's rbing after other girl's pics like </3 like, I wanna tell him I was interested just so he knows where I was at when it came to the call and so he's not the only one solely admitting how he felt about the call and how he interpreted it. but I feel so bleh to do so now with him thirsting after girls like ugh

ugh I hate that I have to be vulnerable and talk about how I feel </3

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bruhhh wtffff, id beat him up if i were you. he can post a selfie but not reply to give you some form of closure????? YKW? GALD HE DIDNT BECOME YOURS CUZ HOW INCONSIDERATE AND HOW CARELESS DO YOU HAVE TO BE W YOUR ACTIONS AND HOW THEY AFFECT OTHERS FOR YOU TO NOT GIVE A SIMPLE REPLY??????????? WOW GURL, YOULL FIND BETTER, THERES A BUTCH OUT TERE SMWHERE WHO ACTUALLY DESERVES YOUR LOVE AND TIME. wow i got passionate there -11

I MEAN I DIDNT SEND HIM THE AUDIO W ME CONFRONTING HIM YET BUT YES OMG I'M STILL PEEVED THAT HE JUST ISN'T REPLYING TO ME LIKE UGHHHHH IT'S ACTUALLY DRIVING ME CRAZY. because like, when we first spoke before our call, he was texting me soooo consistently, apologizing if he lagged, etc. and now, the call is done, and bam, he now never lets me know where he'll be and will go days without reaching out. and when I vaguely asked him once about it, he said it was due to his attention span and personal stuff, which like, of course I understand. but, it just feels kind of off, still, considering he only pulled away after our call. I mean, I know a person can argue that the day we called he just happened to be keeping up with texts, but if we had started talking any other day, he would've lagged -- but idk still. because it's not just about him not replying fast, he's also just making absolutely no, no attempts to call again in the future even though I brought up doing so, and even though before our call, he was tossing around all these plans for us to do together one day. so yeah. either way ik I should just ask him about it so I know if he went into the call wanting it to be some hookup thing

BUT THANK YOU FOR BEING SO PASSIONATE FOR ME OMG YOU'RE SO SWEET AND THIS MADE ME SMILE. LIKE YOU'RE RIGHT BC I DO FEEL IT WAS PRETTY COLD OF HIM TO PULL AWAY AND STOP MAKING ANY EFFORTS AT HANGING OUT AGAIN AFTER OUR CALL WITHOUT EXPLAINING TO ME WHAT'S GOING ON. like, if he's less interested or just wanted a one time thing, I'd rather he just tell me. but, as of now, he just doesn't seem interested and I'm bugged by the mixed signals so I'm just gonna ask him what his intentions were w the call

AND YES YES PLEASE MANIFEST A BUTCH FOR ME IM BEGGINGGGGGGG IT HAS BEEN 84 YEARSSSSSS

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GUYS NOW HE POSTED A VIDEO OF HIS LAP AND HE'S WEARING A SEXY FIT TOO AND HE LOOKS RLLY HOT EVERYONE TELL ME TO HAVE SELF-RESPECT I NEED IT OH MYGODDDDJDDJDI

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GUYS HE JUST POSTED A SELFIE IN A SHIRT SHOWING HIS COLLARBONES EVERYONE HOLD ME BACK FROM HITTING HIM UP AGAIN UNLESS IT'S TO CONFRONT HIM 😭😭

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listened to an audio and got flustered by her asking if I wanna kiss her lord I need to touch grass 😃

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type shit

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"Just happy as peaches to watch your heavy heart go pop-pop." Longlegs 2024, dir. Osgood Perkins

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AND HE WAS ALSO A FREAK LIKE ME TOO 😔💔 and like, I am so touched-starved, so having phone sex was just... so so good. and part of me is kinda heartbroken we'll only be able to have done it that one time, since we had similar kinks and he knew how to talk to me just right. but like, I don't think it's worth the anxiety that comes from being interested in him and him just... not

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ugh I hate that I have to be vulnerable and talk about how I feel </3

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do any moots have substack