He’ll snap out of it
eventually
leave him in
peace
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CIGARETTE FOR YOUR THOUGHTS
cigarette for your thoughts
they'll be the death of you
those thoughts
they're bad for you, you know.
you only smoke when you want to die
so it's alright
self-destruction
in a 30 gram pouch;
it tastes
like it's working.
I know you want me to say
that there's romance in
your recklessness
that you're flawed
but you're beautiful
that I will love you enough
for the both of us
but the world is bigger
than your world
you never tell me I am beautiful
just because I hate myself
you'll be the death of me, you know
cigarette for my thoughts.
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--anxiety
I just had my first go at using Headspace and wanted to use my clearer mind to reel off how I feel about my anxiety. This is just my stream of thought so it’s very unfurnished.
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Your mark that I wear
on my grated teeth
or my elsewhere face
is there in the dentist's office
and it's there in the mirror.
If you were truly invisible
I wouldn't have to pay you
all this attention.
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hoarding no.4
I love you so much more
now you are dust
where you are safe
You are my memory;
my memory
I can keep
The light in here
shines bright upon you;
you are clear
but you are faceless.
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hoarding no.3
you are just
this mound of dust, but
I have built you taller
than I can reach;
nobody else
matches up.
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All this weight
I have this image in my mind
that we are all born floating.
Unimbued by the weight of the past
we have not yet learned gravity;
we are fixed in the present
by natural buoyancy.
But moments die; eroded in
the swash of time
the pictures turn to dust.
They pass as memories
to one end of the hourglass
and settle like sandcastles.
We hoard this false kingdom
and gather gravity from the weight
of what once was.
Like cartoon characters
it is only when we comprehend
what is happening that
we fall.
I’ve been trying to lose weight
since you left, but it is all
so important to me. You were real
once, but now you just make me
heavy.
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---you are not old
You are not old
now you are gone; you are
young, middle-aged and old
all in one.
You are younger than yesterday
for the first time;
younger than you've been
in years. In death we do not age;
we become
all we ever were
at once.
You are not really gone; you just stopped
changing.
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you don't need to know
how it works
to know that
it hurts
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HOARDING NO. 2
-i love you so much more
now you are dust-
i rebuild you like
a sand castle
but you never stay up
right.
i never saw your bones;
you are boneless.
i never felt your soul;
you are soulless
and getting finer
and finer.
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time is the name that we give
to the blank spaces in between
the things that we
do.
it matters as much or as little
as we care to
measure; i will imagine
that it is not there
that everything
stops and
the little blank spaces
do not have a name
i will measure
not the spaces
but the substance
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learning
i will learn
give me time
i will learn
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give me time
i will learn
that some things
i will learn
but not
know
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i cannot
know the world
as you do;
i can learn
that we know
the very same world
in very different ways
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-----i found beauty---------
--------colours that i have
--------------never seen---
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Like all weightless things
we float;
Like all cartoons
it is only when we comprehend
what is happening that
we fall.
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Hoarding
I watched these moments die
and drop as dust at my feet;
these are memories
my memories
I can keep.
It is not a mess it was all important
once.
You say that I am stuck in the past;
that I will be buried
in this hourglass
and your words fall to the floor
as grains of sand.
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Carry our dead
You keep saying
that you're trying to lose weight
and I keep replying
"you're perfect
are you are."
You say there's nothing perfect
about the dickheads
you haven’t spoken to for years
clinging to you like love handles;
eating away like parasites.
There is nothing perfect
about exs who linger
like the scars they leave scattered
like notches
on a bedpost.
There is nothing 'perfect'
about the dead living on
in your head
so very
topheavy
you slump like
they all move in unison
to the front of your skull.
You tell me i don't understand,
I never
understand:
you want to shed it all
like snakeskin; wake
in the morning new
with this weight,
all this weight
in the laundry bin.
you say the past is not a memory
it is a weight that we carry
it drags us down like gravity
and you are tired.
I have never touched a nerve so raw,
I sob and say
"what are we but
the weight we wear
from days before?"
"what are we-"
I am not sure, but
I am far too heavy
for this body.
we all carry our dead
on our back
and I never pretend
to know yours, so please
do not second-guess mine.
and don't you dare write this down.
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Diminishing Returns
Can you please go and find
another brick wall?
One who will not grow resentful
Let me crumble
let me fall.
I will not topple while you
stand so close;
let go
and give up like I have.
You know
there is no more blood
you can squeeze
from this stone
It leaks through these cracks
like I’m trying to apologise
but I can’t. So please
leave me alone.
I am here
is that not enough?
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Failure
i think the ugly duckling was still
pretty pissed off it would never be
a duck. swans are cool and all
but if i were raised one way
only to find out i'm another being
entirely
i wouldn't give a fuck
how pretty my nice
white
feathers are.
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