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Going feral anytime the S/J music plays over a scene 😭

I’m watching entity with lunch and it started playing when the entity said that they won’t kill Sam because she’s important and jacks said, “she is.” 😭😭

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“Well… he isn’t wrong, Daniel 🤷‍♀️🤷‍♀️”

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Vala Mal Doran and Daniel Jackson in The Quest (Part 2) | Stargate: SG-1 (10.11)

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for all those who struggle with mental health

when i was in a deep depression, i wrote really cringey but kinda dark poems and i kinda wanted to share this with people. i want to share this to show that no matter how dark it gets, you can always get out of it. people are there for you. i hadn't realized i had support but i did. i was spiraling downwards, but i got out. i love life, and you can too<3

NO NAME

I smile. I laugh. I exist. I seep between the lines, fading out, a shadow thinning. I don’t want to be missed. I want to be gone. spent, like loose change, buried, like heroes and nobodies. I wish death would carry me, like Mom or Dad, tucking me in, back when I was innocent, before sleep felt so final. I smile, but it slips away, like breath. I don’t want to be missed too much. I just want silence.

LETTERS

I kept the letters buried under my bed,

The edges are yellow and curled.

They were hiding too.

They’re the letters I’ve always wanted to send,

To the people I loved,

And the ones who left me reaching into silence.

Back then, I was softer.

Full of hope that I never knew

I was faking.

I read them again,

And they felt like someone else’s writing.

Like a version of me who still believed,

That one day, the universe would write back.

But things have changed.

I have changed.

Now, the ink needs to bleed.

Now, the pages need to scream.

It should carry the weight,

Of the words I begged to the sky,

On the nights I longed for answers.

I got thunder in return,

Crackling in the heat of cold, unbelieving stares.

Because how could they ever want me,

When they let me die in silence?

I want them to feel the way I felt…

Insivable in crowds that told me I belonged.

Maybe I’ll keep writing them,

Again and again,

Until the pages understand me,

Better than anyone else can.

Nothing’s New

Nothing’s new.

The pillow swallows tears in silence.

Nothing’s new.

My real smile lingers, half-forgotten.

Nothing’s new.

A box under the bed shakes,

the lid rattling.

Nothing’s new.

Each tick of the clock pulls heavy,

dragging seconds behind it.

Nothing’s new.

promise i write better poems now:)

go look at the stars and see the beauty in the universe.

i lost someone close to me because of their decline in mental health.

and if poems help you cope, do it.

do something that helps you heal.

i promise, there is something waiting for you when it gets better<3

sharing these snippets from the worst years of my life help me cope. i believe in you!!

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im not talented enough and i dont know where to go

so idk how to make like fan videos and stuff but hear me out:

sam/jack or just like the whole sg-1 team fan video with the song Count on Me - Bruno Mars

like HELLO??? why is this so stargate!!!!!

someone creative enough to do this, please do this

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insp

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FRINGE || “6:02 AM EST” 3.20

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the amount of PERFECT pictures i have of these fucking beautiful and stunning actors is concerning.

i have an album in my photos called "jar of happiness" and its full of gorgeous and pretty and holy fuck so much attractiveness.

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I don’t wanna be at work I don’t an a be at workkk

I wanna be at home watching the same show I’ve been watching for the last 4 months on repeat

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sometimes I wonder how y'all are obsessed with specific characters and I'm like "why them" but then I remember that sometimes its literally not your choice you just look at them wrong and all of a sudden they're taking up your every thought forever

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Tag nine people you want to get to know better

thanks for tagging me @agent-troi

Favorite color: any shade of blue

Currently reading: rereading Stargate Alliances

Last song: Never Say Never by The Fray

Last movie: rewatching Stargate: Ark of Truth

Last series: Smallville :)

Sweet, Savory, or Salty: mostly sweet. sometimes salty

Craving: tacos

tea/coffee: coffee

currently working on: trying to finish my High Flier Exchange fic that i have barely worked on...

no pressure tags: @brigitoshaughnessy @autistic-crypt1d @sweet-little-tank-top-number @stargatesg-1obsessed @autistic-danieljackson @surprisecurlyfries i dont have nine friends

Tag nine people you want to get to know better

Thanks for the tag @valhelos!

Favorite color: forest green

Currently reading: the Stargate SG-1 novella Behind Enemy Lines by Sally Malcolm

Last song: Leaving on a Jet Plane - Peter, Paul, and Mary (which due to the legacy novels is now a Sam/Jack song for me)

Last movie: I can't remember- probably Stargate: Continuum

Last series: Stargate SG-1 (I'm beginning to see a pattern forming here lmao)

Sweet, Savory, Salty: salty

Craving: nachos

Tea/coffee: coffee I guess

Currently working on: my February GATEathon fic (which is gonna be a real angst fest so get ready lol)

no pressure tags: @ten-cent-sleuth @brigitoshaughnessy @stargatesg-1obsessed @leanerbeesg1 @autistic-danieljackson @autistic-crypt1d @tabbyofwisdom @elenath9 @elena1701a

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STARGATE SG-1 (1997–2007) "Children of the Gods" STARGATE UNIVERSE (2009–2011) "Twin Destinies"

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i love this scene so much. jack really responded to this guy doubting carter’s abilities by saying “actually, let’s make the target even harder to hit” knowing ofc that she’d have no trouble whatsoever doing it. i love this man❤️

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Can't stop fixating on Daniel Jackson going from fragile, long-haired, nerd to military beefcake over the course SG1. Like he really went from Milo Thatch to Lietenant Rourke.

Same character.

I know a lot of this was probably just Michael Shanks being sick of playing the resident dweeb and wanting to be a cool, action guy. But, I feel like it makes sense if you step back and consider the character journey.

Go on a trip with the military as the resident archaeologist, fall in love, wife gets kidnapped, essentially join a war effort to get your wife back, wife dies, stay with the war effort for revenge and because it's all you know now. Die a few times. Makes sense that would change a guy.

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Daniel Jackson fanart

I haven't drawn my bbg in so long

(Re-upload with fixes+edited)