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hiii!! what app do you use for the text message imagines ??

hi babes i don’t use any apps to make my text message imagines, i just text my icloud/imessage account from my number!

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Hello? I just wanted to know if you're ok? You said you were going on hiatus but I haven't heard of you in a while? Is everything alright?

hello! i am so sorry for anyone who worried hehe i know i said two weeks but as soon as i came back many many things happened. thank you all for being patient and worrying. i’m fine, i just needed a break and to catch up with life. i’ll definitely be working on new content but i don’t even know where to begin, i have to catch up with the boys!! thank you for being patient

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stray kids reaction to their s/o getting home after a long day

anon request:  question for research, who out of the boys do you think would be the type to watch his s/o flop into bed lazily to sleep after a long day without changing their clothes or removing their makeup and would grab the makeup removing wipes and remove his s/o’s makeup for them? who would force his s/o up to shower and freshen up for bed? and who would just flop lazily in bed with his s/o? 👀

note: this is such a cute request!!

Chan:

Once he feels the mattress come down next to him he would turn to look at you and smile. “How was your day?” At first Chan would assume you’re innocently just lying down next to him to rest a little until he sees your eyes slowly close and your talking slur the slightest bit. For a moment Chan would have an internal power struggle about whether to let you sleep or make you shower. With that he would sit up and gently shake your arm. “Babe, don’t go to sleep yet.” he would lightly say close to your ear until you grumbled. “Go shower first, yeah? It’ll help you wind down and rest better.” It was only out of concern for you and he knew it would help lull you to sleep better. (Plus, washing makeup off a pillow cover is hard for him)

Woojin:

Woojin would be on his bed watching something on his phone waiting for you to get home, knowing you’re probably tired and had a long day. Once the door opens he’d flash you the biggest smile and wave you over. He would watch you flash him a tired smile and flop onto the bed next to him, snuggling in for warmth. As he talks to you he can feel you slowly fall asleep and smiles. “You probably worked too hard today, huh?” He would gently move up from you and wander around the room to see if you left your makeup wipes around. “Don’t worry you can keep sleeping!” Woojin would gently reassure you while careful rubbing circles with the wipe on your face.

Minho:

After wandering around the living room for any signs of your arrival, he would find his way back to his room and flip on the light switch. Minho would see your curled up figure on his bed and laugh quietly, tip toeing closer to see if you were by chance awake. You stir and look up at him sheepishly and he shakes his head. “I’d love to let you sleep but...you should probably wash your face?” His voice would be soft and his hand would rest gently on your shoulder until you fully stir awake. “You’ll thank me later.” He would nod to himself after setting aside a towel for you and turning on the shower.

Changbin:

“Hey, you didn’t answer my messages.” Changbin would whine while opening the door to his room, the light an indication of your presence. He’s just the slightest bit hurt at his messages being unread. At first his eyes would forget to land on his bed and when he sees a brief movement from the corner of his eye he’ll laugh in realization. Oh, you were asleep already. He’ll stop mid-step and consider his options. You like so peaceful and it’s so cute...he might as well seize the chance to take a nap with you. “Goodnight then, see you tomorrow.” He would stuff himself under the blanket next to you and comfortably squish in next to you.

Hyunjin:

After finding you in bed Hyunjin would dive in next to you and smile softly at you, gently tapping at your shoulder. “Hey sleepyhead, you didn’t even tell me you were back yet.” With that you would stir and roll over to look at him and his little smile would turn into a shocked little laugh. “You were going to sleep like that? It looks uncomfortable.” He would move pieces of your hair out of your face and shake his head teasingly. “Maybe go shower instead. You don’t want to be lazy and stinky. We can sleep after.” Hyunjin would wiggle you out of bed and into the washroom.

Jisung:

Jisung was probably anticipating your arrival all day so when he stumbles into his room dancing around and making a lot of noise and sees you underneath the blankets he freezes and gasps a little in embarrassment at all the noise he made. He would go over and check on you just to be sure you don’t have a fever and see you’re still wearing your clothes instead of pajamas or something cozy and still have makeup on. He would go and find your wipes and cautiously try to clean your face with the wipes. The sudden movement would make you open an eye and he would grin. “Don’t mind me, you can keep sleeping. I was just trying to help you out.”

Felix:

Felix would barge into the room excited to see you but stopping himself from yelling when he sees that you’re falling asleep. “I guess it’s time for me to support you.” You would hear him scuffle around the room and something drag on the floor, opening an eye and peeking from the pillow. Felix would be wrapped in a blanket and hopping onto the spot next to you, landing with an ‘oof’. He would roll over to be facing you and blink at you for a little bit before laughing. “And by support you I mean take a nap with you.” 

Seungmin:

He would be right behind you as you hop into bed with a giant sigh. Seungmin would be slightly worried but you would reassure him you’re fine and just sleepy. “Oh, okay. That makes sense.” He would blink and play a little with his pockets before speaking up once more. “Are you just going to nap like that?” When he sees you yawn and nod, he would climb onto the bed and grab some of the blankets for himself. Seeing you sleepy was cute to him and he wouldn’t try to argue the choice. “I guess I’ll just stay here with you.” He would probably play with your fingers and hum until you fall asleep.

Jeongin:

As soon as your face makes contact with the bed he would gasp and scuffle around the room in search of something to clean you up with. It’s not because he cares about you smudging the pillows or anything but he just wants you to be comfy and he swears he saw somewhere online sleeping with makeup on is bad and well, he doesn’t want anything bad to happen to you. “Let me help,” Jeongin would have you sit up and clean your face with a wipe and smile brightly once he finishes. “There! Now you can sleep.”

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this blog is art

you’re art anon i love you!

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Imma be real, first time I saw Woojin I was like, "he's my bias!!!!" And my friend told me he looked weird and I just (ﾉ⊙皿⊙)ﾉミ┻━┻ W R O NG A N S W E R BUDDY

you’re gonna have to send me your friends addy because on this planet in this generation we only support and love our angel bear kim woojin

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When will your requests next be open?

that’s a good question ;; i have a lot of requests rn and it’s been hard to keep up because of exams (also people keep sending requests when my box is closed don’t worry i won’t delete them or anything i’m not mad but its a lil stressful but thats ok) and i leave tomorrow for vacation so most likely some time in january i’m very sorry anon 3

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will you make a masterlist??

it’s been done anon! you can check my blog description or look at my first post ily i hope it’s helpful

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mobile masterlist

here’s a cute handy masterlist for all my content on this blog! i hope this makes navigating much easier for all of you

SCENARIOS

woojin

boyfriend woojin

chan

boyfriend chan

breaking up with chan

minho

boyfriend minho

changbin

boyfriend changbin

hyunjin

boyfriend hyunjin

childhood friend to crush hyunjin

jisung

boyfriend jisung

secret idol relationship with jisung

felix

boyfriend felix

secret idol relationship with felix

seungmin

boyfriend seungmin

jeongin

boyfriend jeongin

REACTIONS

when i do some i will most definitely add them here

TEXTS

woojin

n/a

chan

n/a

minho

n/a

changbin

stray kids finding out you have a crush on changbin

hyunjin

n/a

jisung

n/a

felix

felix finding out you’ve been pretending not to be sick so he doesn’t worry

stray kids finding out you have a crush on felix

seungmin

n/a

jeongin

n/a

OTHER CONTENT

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breaking up with chan

genre: angst

pairing: bang byungchan & you

word count: 1874 words

summary: the downfall of your relationship leading up to your break up with chan

notes: it’s only fair to have a boyfriend series lead into a break up series right? thank you for your request anon! <3 i started the boyfriend series with chan so its only fair to end it with him.

problems in every relationship are normal...it’s once the problems get out of hand its too much

and the thing with being with chan...conflicts can arise from various scenarios

all the attention he gets from other people is difficult to cope with and can lead to your self esteem crashing, and you know he would never do anything...but a fear and lack of trust can develop

chan is the type of guy who wants to see the best in people and is fully aware of when people are truly trying their best or not putting the most into it

and the thing is he loves you and wants the best for you and from you...and it can be too much

we’ve seen how he transitions from happy byungchan to leader chan in a matter of seconds

he loves you, chan is not the type of person to jump into a relationship for the hell of it or just to have someone to call his

he is with you because he loves you and feels so much for you

and when you’re with chan, it’s impossible to not exchange habits with each other.

he falls in love with the little things about you that you wouldn’t notice about yourself

like the smile lines you get when you laugh too hard or the way your eyebrows always furrow when you’re confused

and even through all your problems he never once considers leaving you it’s not even an option in his mind because chan is not a quitter, he does’t give up no matter what

but he never thought about what you felt and your limits after these arguments

and its not like he doesn’t apologize and do everything to make up for it...but there’s a point in time where these arguments get too frequent

as i emphasized before, he pushes you because he believes you can do more

but you can’t

there’s frustrations between schedules, the endless amounts of attention he gets, the effort in your relationship

“what can i do to make it up to you? i’ll do anything.” at the end of every argument he’s on his knees holding your hands because he realizes he doesn’t want things to end

and you can only smile sadly because you love him so much too

but you know this isn’t healthy for either of you anymore

he has 8 other boys to worry about and himself, you don’t want to keep adding to it

“babe, i’ll be coming home earlier today than i thought. do you want me to pick something up?”

“no chan you don’t have to. i just have to talk to you about some things.”

your mind and heart are racing the entire time waiting for the door to click and open and you have never felt so empty

you feel your eyes burning and sting from all your crying trying to convince yourself it’s for the best

and when the click comes your heart almost stops

“hey! how are you love? how was your day?” you can hear the exhaustion in his voice but he’s still smiling even then

“it was fine.”

“oh. i’m glad. are you alright?”

when he comes into the living room and sees you sitting there with most of your things in a bag, he freezes

it’s just pure silence for a moment and his mouth is slightly open and his eyes say everything

“what is this about?” he’s trying so hard to compose himself and he’s convinced in his mind everything will be okay and he can fix this

“i think we really need to talk chan.”

“tell me. i’m ready to talk about anything as long as you don’t leave. tell me what i need to do to fix all of this.”

he seems so desperate in his eyes and his voice wavers slightly at the end as if he has so much more to say but can’t bring himself to say it

“there’s nothing for you to fix. don’t say it like that chan, you can’t do anything and neither can i. i just think sometimes people are not meant for each other like they thought they were, and it hurts me to know we’re some of them.”

every word you say reaches him much more than he would have ever wished for

and he knows those words are going to hurt him for a long, long time

every single instinct in his body and every thought in his mind is begging him to fight for you

because chan has always fought for everything he has wanted, he spent years of his life fighting to debut and he refused to let that go

and he refuses to let you go too

“tell me what i did wrong, so i can improve for you and me. everything i do has to be for us and i don’t want to do it just for me. i can make it better.”

but all you can do is shake your head and bite on your lip nervously

“no chan. there’s nothing to do about this. you’re amazing and wonderful but we’ve just outgrown each other, you know?”

he doesn’t understand it..but he knows those words will linger forever in his mind

and just like at the end of every argument he holds your hands and tries to get you to look him in the eye

“please. just think about it...” he can’t even finish because he knows as soon as you looked him in the eye it was over

your mind was set

chan never gave up easily, but you had already given up on him

and with that he let go of your hand and could feel the tears welling in his eyes but he refused to let any of it spill

he licked his lips and nodded slowly to himself letting it all sink in

“okay.”

it’s all he can say as he stands up slowly and gently hits his hands against his pockets and nods

“that’s it then. i...i’m sorry for not being more for you.”

“chan...you were more than enough. we just have other things and people to find.”

“i was too much wasn’t i? don’t feel guilty i just need to know.”

he wants to know every flaw and mistake he made during the time you both spent together because he wants to fix all of it and he wants to be able to better himself and maybe just maybe you’ll come back to him

“no, things just fell apart. it wasn’t you chan. don’t blame yourself.”

and even if the words sink in he knows he’ll spend every night for a long long time blaming himself

he helps you take your things and watches you as you move around

all he wants to do is kiss you just one more time but he knows that will hurt him more than anything and it’s not healthy for you either

“i’m so sorry.” its the last thing he wants to say to you and he keeps his distance as he says it

you shake your head and sigh

“it’s not you. it was both of us. take your time chan. i’ll always be here for you. you’re still my best friend.”

“always find me.”

watching you leave has his numb and out of his senses but he drags himself inside and closes the door

it doesn’t hit him until he gets to the bed and lies in the cold sheets

and thats when the first tears fall

chan would distance himself from everyone in terms of his personal life and feelings but he knew he had a job to do and would try to throw himself heavily into that

every mistake from himself would agitate him and he would push himself too hard

staying up to ungodly hours and getting two hours of sleep trying to work on music or help the others practice just so he can’t think of you

oh, he makes so much music thinking of you that never see the light of day or only get to 3racha’s ears

the most memorable recording session was when he finally got to rapping one of the songs that meant the most to him

and at the end of it all you can hear is “i loved them”

he wants to forget you entirely

you were his best friend and not just the person he loved

little things would remind him of you and it would leave him stunned

the mistakes made during practice would drive him up the wall and leader chan is much more harsher than usual

he has to keep himself from yelling and whenever he’s about to burst changbin or woojin will try to calm him down because they know it’s hard

the boys will feel hurt but try to understand his situation

and chan loses it and apologizes every time through tears and it’s just a sad group hug that ensues

he makes a bunch of simp playlists and listens to them at night when he knows he shouldn’t and it’ll only hurt him

he doesn’t sleep because the lyrics hit so hard and he just stares at the ceiling in silence

it would takes months for him to force himself out of this slump but it would’t be healthy

he would convince himself and everyone around him that he was fine and ready to get back to work fully

throwing himself into the chaos of a busy schedule and finding every excuse to be practicing or working on a new project

he wouldn’t even remember what his room was like sometimes

work is what makes him try to forget you

and he told you to always find him...but chan realizes he can’t

he can’t look out for you because it will only hurt both of you

and the night he finally blocks every form of contact with you felix and jisung are right there with him, hugging him and comforting him

he feels pitiful and doesn’t want the members to worry about him because he should worry about them instead but he accepts it because he knows he needs it

jeongin and hyunjin are right there the next few weeks constantly hugging him or telling him how much they appreciate him

minho plays leader for a few days until things are okay

woojin and seungmin keep an eye out for him

that’s what finally helps him get closure

and just like any normal human being

the little things you used to love stick with him and he never fully forgets you...in fact even a few years from that moment he might not fully recover from it

like it will naturally slip into his subconscious and bring him nostalgia

and as time passes he isn’t bitter. he isn’t angry. he was never angry to begin with, he was just hurt...the possibility of being your friend again is not off the table for him

if you reach out to him he will accept it and hopefully be able to be in your life if you ever need him

but the pain subsides and he accepts the memories

he knows you’re out there doing your best

and he hopes you’re happy too

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childhood best friend to crush hyunjin

genre: fluff

pairing: hwang hyunjin & you

word count: 3463 words

summary: hyunjin spends his childhood taking care of you and watches you grow by his side

notes: thank you for your request anon! <3

even at a young age hyunjin had a special presence that caught the attention of most people

especially yours

he had been your neighbor since you were both four years old and spent most of his days playing outside along with his cars and dirt

you would sit against the window and watch him with a lot of curiosity until one day you decided it was your time to go and make a friend

your little feet carried you in front of the boy and he looked up at you while you waved your stubby hand awkwardly

“hi. what’s your name?”

“my mom said i’m not supposed to tell strangers my name.”

“it’s okay, we’re going to be friends so i’m not a stranger.”

“oh okay. my name is hyunjin.”

an awkward silence passed as you both studied each other, trying to decide if it was worthy of befriending the other

and finally after a few minutes he gave you a small toothy grin and motioned for you to sit down next to him

“since you’re my friend, you can play with me.”

and from that day on you found yourself following the poor boy around

everyday at 3 pm to 5 pm you found yourself stalking outside to meet him and he would be expectant of your arrival

and as more time passed by you just became his shadow

every step he took, you took one behind him

but he enjoyed your company greatly and allowed you to stay by his side

he would come over every afternoon to play with you and your dog...mostly your dog

but thats okay because he was a good friend to you and made you happy

“look, i brought you cookies from the jar in my kitchen. but don’t tell my mom i got them for you.” and he would cautiously dump a handful into your hands

his mom always noticed but pretended that she didn’t because it was cute and he was being nice to yo 

even if hyunjin would knock over 500 things in the kitchen trying to get to the jar

because he was an only child and his mother worried about the lack of friends he had and having you come around was really nice

and in return you would sneak some of your toys to his house and play together

on the first day of school your parents agreed to take turns taking both of you to school together

and every morning before school he would be sitting on your couch watching tv waiting for your mom to finish dressing you while chewing on a bunch of fruit

“good morning you rotten egg.” hyunjin would smile and stick his tongue out at you before getting up and racing you to the car

and at the gates of the school he held your hand and led you in so confidently

and thats how you both grew up

you were extremely inseparable 

every milestone of your lives were spent with each other

if he wasn’t tugging you around by the hand, he was constantly taking steps and stopping to make sure you were behind him

even when you guys got to school together

seriously all the kids would throw a fit because in the middle of the playground he would stop and turn around to find you and be sure you were there

“shut up meanie.” would be his only response to a bunch of angry kids flailing their arms and whining for you both to move

hyunjin is an only child so he doesn’t have company

but he saw you as his sibling

you were there when hyunjin got his first pet dog and helped him shower the little puppy and learn to take care of him

“no hyunjinnie, you can’t put him in the tub! the tub will get dirty.”

“but then what’s the point of a tub!”

hyunjin was there when you broke your first bone and instantly picked you up and dragged you to your parent’s house while you sobbed your eyes out

he kept shushing you

“stop being a baby! you’ll be fine”

and you would just blubber and sniffle

and every time you wailed he would get so mad and you couldn’t understand why

until you got to your parents and they instantly took you to he hospital..he turned around and started crying

hearing you cry made him so upset that he wanted you to just stop

you were there when his voice cracked for the first time and you both broke into laughter at the moment

“are you going through puberty?”

“hey, you can’t be asking those types of questions!” 

“aw come on. i tell you everything hyunjin. it’s only fair.”

you manage to barely dodged his pillow flying at you 50 mph

he’s mumbling to himself and patting his throat gently as if it’ll help his voice somehow

“yeah, but there’s some things we just can’t share.”

he helped you pluck your eyebrows for the first time because you were too nervous to do it by yourself

honestly you weren’t sure if you could trust him to do a good job what if he leaves you looking bad-

“ow! ow it hurts hyunjin it hurts-”

“stop moving. you told me you wanted to pluck your eyebrows and i’m doing it.” he mumbles and grabs your face to keep you in place

he’s so focused on it and has his tongue out slightly while he squints and moves your head around

“okay, i’m sure you don’t have to move me so much.”

“stop questioning my work!”

there’s never been a moment in your life where you aren’t together

when he tries out for the basketball team you’re on the side cheering and recording him to tease him later

you guys walk to school together every morning just like when you were kids and he refuses to let it change

even when you wake up late he’s there to tear the blankets off of you and open the curtains to your room

“c’mon. you’re not leaving me alone now. you signed up for this.”

whenever he comes over and you’re sitting, not realizing he entered, he’ll come up behind you and roughly ruffle your hair

and if he’s feeling extra annoying he’ll give you a noogie

“do you have a crush on anyone yet?”

“ew, what type of question is that hyunjin?”

“i don’t know, i just wanted to see! you’re growing up and suck at telling me things now. just wanted to remind you that boys suck is all.”

he’s still ever so playful with you as you guys slowly get older

in fact he’s still the same hyunjin you knew

but

hyunjin’s gotten a lot taller..a lot more handsome..and it seems like each year it just becomes more apparent

and the people around you begin to notice it too

at first you grow fearful that maybe...just maybe hyunjin will start to outgrow you and no longer chase after you

and you grow paranoid whenever a cute girl comes around to speak to him

he’s polite and brief in all his conversations but it seems like he misses the point at their flirting 

“hey, you really suck at taking a hint you know?”

hyunjin looks at you with a weird little eyebrow furrow

“i suck? no way, i just don’t really care. i have other stuff to focus on.” he shrugs before tugging you along to your next class

and it seems like maybe you two should be more distant as you get older..both of your parents start to fear the idea of one cutting the other off slowly but it seems like you’re even stronger than before

he’s constantly pushing himself into your life and barging into your house like it’s his

“hey, how was your day?” you can hear the door being slammed close and a bag being dropped as the boy looks around for you in the kitchen

“it was good! how was yours?”

and the whole rest of the afternoon is spent doing homework together or watching tv together

when you get sleepy you yawn and lean into him

it’s nothing new it’s something you’ve always done

but this time around he flinches and awkwardly pushes you off and you just blink at him in confusion

“did you just push me off?”

hyunjin is visibly shooken awkward

“no. i just got an electric shock is all. go on.”

"aw, hyunjin’s scared of contact!”

“no i’m not!”

“you sure?”

“really. i’m not. are you gonna lie on my shoulder again or what?” he seems huffy and embarrassed and slouches into the couch the slightest bit while focusing his attention back on the tv

but nonetheless you still adjust yourself back onto him

after that event you find him lingering around you a lot more than usual 

if that’s even possible

seriously even his parents are like okay buddy...you have to chill

“don’t you think they have things to do too? i know you guys are best friends but distance is always nice too.”

“you don’t get it, we’ve always been like this. really.”

“if i didn’t know better hyunjin i would think you have a crush on them.”

those words hit him like a bag of bricks

his mind stops and tries to register it

“oh my gosh, do you?”

“wait...no mom don’t say that. that’s weird.”

“my baby has a crush on his best friend!”

hyunjin can only drown her out in his mind while he tries to process those words

a crush...on you? his best friend?

no way...you’re too much of a dork...too dependent on him and he just feels the same way is all.. he likes being near you is all it is

and he likes how you follow him around

and hold his hand to keep him company

and how everything he says is important to you

and the sound of your voice and the way you smile at him

and how close you both are and how there isn’t anything to worry about with each other

and-

oh shit.

oh shit

OH SHIT

“mom, i think i’m gonna go take a nap.” hyunjin can barely drag himself into his room and drop himself on his bed as he rummages through his pile of unknown objects in the corner of his room

he reaches for his backpack and looks through the smallest bag in it and pulls out a picture of you both in one of those cheesy effect photo booths at the park

“do i like you?” he asks himself but it seems like hes asking the picture as he looks at your silly expressions and fingers forming bunny ears behind his head

the words sound so weird but it feels so right

but oh my gosh? what would happen if he admits he likes you

you’re his best friend and you were practically raised together like wow what a weird concept to take in

but the thought of holding your hand in a different way then usual is so nice to him...

and all he can do is smother his face into a pillow and GROAN

you know...the frustrated teenage boy groan we all know and love

he has to do something about it but he can’t dare imagine possibly ending your amazing wonderful friendship because you don’t feel the same way

the whole night is absolute torture for him and his thoughts until he falls asleep 

and when he wakes up the next morning it hits him in the face while he gets dressed

he has a crush on you

dragging himself to your house in the morning is so hard he’s so nervous even if he’s done it every single day of the year since...forever

“morning.”

“hyunjin you’re here! i was worried you’d be late.” you wave with a big grin and nearly fling yourself onto him

he’s used to your hugs

it’s nothing new

but it feels so much softer and warmer than usual and he clears his throat while lightly tapping your back

“i’d never be late. are you ready to go?”

the next few weeks are awkward from his side

it’s obvious from his side that something is up but he seems to brush it off whenever you worry or ask him about it

his hugs become a lot longer and his eyes stay on you more than usual and you can’t help but think what if he’s sad?

“hey, you know if you need to tell me anything you can always trust me.”

“i know.”

“i’m serious hyunjin.”

“i know you are but there’s just some things you can’t say. it’s nothing, really, i promise. i’m fine.” he gives you a big grin and a thumbs up but you couldn’t help and frown

“seriously. don’t worry.” he mumbles before pressing a soft kiss on your forehead to keep you from worrying

it feels nice

and you wouldn’t mind for him to do it again

but you smile and nod at him

“if you say so. i won’t keep pushing it.”

after that day he seems to distance himself a lot more entirely

he stops coming by for you in the morning and when you ask him he looks at you for a moment

“it’s not what you think, i promise. things are just weird. i’m sorry.”

and it seems to hurt a lot more than you ever expected but you know he doesn’t mean for things to hurt you

he’s just got a lot on his mind

so you accept it and spend the next few weeks alone

you miss having him nearly drag you out of bed

and hyunjin trying to force feed you because you’re too lazy to get yourself food

or having him tangle his fingers with yours

all the little moments you both shared are gone and you miss them so much

you can’t force yourself in but you want him to be back with you

and while you shove your hands into your jar of cookies, crying and eating.. the light bulb in your head goes off 

cookies

your hands grasp the jar and you find yourself nearly running down your stairs outside

its cold out but you don’t mind at all

you probably should have put on shoes

as you jump and squeak and groan at the sensation of rocks pricking into your feet you manage to find yourself in front of the door of hyunjin’s house knocking impatiently

the lights are off in the house except for the living room and you can hear the loud audio of his favorite tv show

but there’s no answer

knock knock knock

no answer

knock knock knock knock knock

“HYUNJIN!”

with the sound of your voice the boy drops the control and jumps up

why the hell are you outside of his house at 10 pm in 50 degree weather? you’re usually tucked away in bed at this time just scrolling through your phone

“what are you doing here?” it’s not like he doesn’t want to open the door..but there’s something that makes him scared to open it

“please. open up.” your voice has shrunken so much and you sound so confused that it pangs his heart and he quickly unlocks it

and when he sees your face scrunched up in worry and your eyes wide and gentle, his heart swells up

even with your hair all messy and your ugly sweatpants and hoodie you look absolutely precious and it seems like now he remembers why he shouldn’t have opened the door

“here.”

you shove the jar of cookies into his hands and hyunjin just stares at you in confusion

“i don’t eat cookies.”

“but you’re going to now. because you’re my friend and you used to give me cookies to confirm our friendship and i’m doing the same thing you idiot.” your words are viciously rushed together and the way your hands move are worrying him and you seemed so stressed

“hey wait, calm down-”

“don’t tell me to calm down when you ditched me! take the damn cookie.”

he looks at you and the jar for a moment and it feels like he’s looking at you as a kid again

and his hand reaches in and takes a bite of the cookie in front of you

“ew.”

the sight of him munching on the treat puts your heart at ease and you tear the jar out of his hands

“now why are you avoiding me?”

“i’m not avoiding you.”

“yes you are, i haven’t seen you in so long and whenever i text you it’s always so half-assed.”

“but i’m not doing it because of you, really.”

“hyunjin?”

“yeah?”

“if you don’t like me anymore just tell me so i don’t feel pathetic standing here fighting for you. and i’m cold.”

it’s annoying to him how you could even think he would leave you

but he knows very well he’s been failing you out of his own selfish fears and he deserves your doubt

“i don’t dislike you. i could never dislike you.”

your grip on the jar loosens at his words and you look back up at him

he tugs you into his house and closes the door behind you before motioning you to the couch

“you really came all the way over to my house just to harass me into eating your junk food for some emotional confirmation that i don’t hate you?”

“can you blame me?” the way you look at your feet in shame and embarrassment makes him smile and the little stray hairs that cover your eyes are so cute

hyunjin lets out a deep sigh before moving your fly aways to the side and scooting in closer to you.

“look at me?” your head moves up to see him and his eyes seem so bright and nice

you missed him so much and it must have been getting to you bad

because he seems a lot more special and handsome than usual

and the way your heart feels finally being around him is pretty wild itself

like really your heart is beating 120 mph and this is not healthy

“i’m not avoiding you because i hate you. i don’t know why i’m doing this. i mean i do, but i can’t justify it to myself so i can’t justify it for you.”

he sighs and grabs your hands while rubbing his thumb in circles on your skin

“maybe if you told me what was bothering you. i could help you hyunjin, it’s not just your problem.”

“i know it’s not. everything that happens to me concerns you too.”

“exactly. so why do you suck so much and not tell me important things?”

“theres some things left better unsaid.”

“not really hyunjin. you can at least give me a hint or something.”

“a hint?”

you nod as he begins to think

“like, you can show me instead of tell me. draw it out or something. do charades even, hell i know you’re awful at it but if you need to...”

hyunjin nods and thinks to himself for a moment

“okay. i think i can show you. just don’t freak out.”

his hands let go of yours and hyunjin looks you in the eye while moving in slowly

the distance between you both is non existent and it’s not new...

but it feels different

very different

“are you sure you want me to show you?”

you nod meekly while he clumsily presses his lips against yours

all the blood seems to be rushing to your head and everything around you is practically non-existent

because all you can focus on is your best friend just nonchalantly kissing you

no biggie right?

and for some reason

you find yourself kissing back too

oh shit

oh shit

oh shit

“do you get it now?” hyunjin puffs as he pulls away and looks at you with a shy smile

“yeah.”

the lack of response and eye contact from you sends him into a frenzy and hes terrified of what you’re thinking

did he mess everything up

nice going hwang hyunjin now  you’re going to have to explain to everyone you messed up the best thing in your life because you had to fall in love with your best friend

how much does it cost to find a new identity? what country has an easy to learn language for him to run away to?

“i hope you’re thinking up ideas of how to ask me out over there. or else this is going to be really awkward.” your hand brushes against his with a smile that comforts him entirely...just a little too much

“i don’t know. maybe if you kiss me back it can be arranged?”

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nothing but respect for my ot9

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stray kids finding out you like changbin

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This blog & your writings are so cute and good 💖💖💖

thank you so much! that means so much to me you are so cute 💖

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is it okay if you do an exbf!straykids series?

i would love to bubs! but when you say ex boyfriend do you mean like the relationship leading up to the break up or a break up and how you guys treat each other after? 

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secret idol relationship with jisung

genre: fluff

pairing: han jisung & you

word count: 1312 words

summary: you and jisung are both idols who manage to keep your relationship a secret and love sneaking around with each other

notes: thank you for your request anons! <3 i hope you enjoy.

being secretive about the relationship you two have is much more difficult for jisung than he expected it to be

he really wants to be able to show you off and spend time with you publicly but he knows the idea is unrealistic

most people would describe their secrecy as thrilling, fun, or endearing...jisung describes it as worrisome

don’t get me wrong he knows how to work around it and have a good time with you

and he would never back out of it because he loves you

but he does worry about your well being and ponders the thought of getting caught and the questions a lot at first

the first time you guys sneak out you visit a park and sit under a tree, lying on the grass together staring at the stars and sky

“i wonder why the sky is so dull today.”

jisung smiles and rolls over to look at you

“because i’m here. they know i shine bright.” and he just sticks his tongue out at you cheekily

“just kidding, it’s because you’re here. you put them out of business.”

spends time blowing dandelion puffs into your face and listening to you talk about your schedule

when you both walk back to your dorms he leaves you in front of yours and kisses you on the cheek super quick before running off

until the third time you guys sneak out he’d be anxious

but after that he would slowly melt into it

jisung is probably using all his will power possible not to tell the rest of his members about you

when fansites post pictures of you and he scrolls through on his phone he’s so ready to show the rest of 3racha and gush over you

“hey hyung look at how cu-” and he catches himself right then and there

“what were you going to show me jisung?” 

“uh nothing”

prefers taking you to areas that are less populated and a little more quiet than the streets would be so you have time to talk to each other

anywhere near the han river is his favorite spot to take you

the first time jisung took you he jumped over the little fence with so much ease and you just looked at him

what if someone patrolling caught you guys? it was risky

also...teenagers lying around the han river at the late hours of night alone seems kind of suspicious

“pst, did you hear me?” jisung is looking at you while he stands on the ropes of the fence and holding his hand out to you

“jisung are you sure this is a good idea?” it’s obvious you’re hesitating and jisung doesn’t want you to freak out because well you guys already sneak out and do all these wild things, how bad can this be

“we’ll be fine, really. i’m here to take care of you in case of anything happens.” and you just gnaw on your bottom lip gently because,, you’re still not sure

so jisung hops back over and smiles at you

“if you don’t want to that’s okay too. we can just sit on the benches, i don’t mind.”

that whole day you had missed him a lot more than usual so you just rested your head on his shoulder and he talked to you about the last few weeks

but halfway through his story you hear rustling in the bushes and your heart stops

what if its someone from dispatch? a fan? a manager?

you both detach so fast and act like you don’t even know each other

but it ends up being a little squirrel and the whole walk back is him making fun of you for being so freaked out

after that time you aren’t scared at all to climb over the fence

hell one time you guys are joking around and jisung is like “let’s go for a swim”

“okay!” and you start to jokingly head towards the water and he just PANICS

and physically holds you back like no we are not doing this no way

but he does get close to the water with you and you guys just splash each other

your managers get annoyed when they notice your clothes are in the laundry basket all wet but they never really wonder why

lots of eating street food together from those cute little food stands that are always on the side of the road

because no one would expect to find an idol there duh

takes a lot of cute little pictures of you while you eat and he gets kind of sad because he wants to share them but he knows he can’t

has a cute little secret photo vault where he stores all of them or any pictures of you in general

always tries to find a game to play with you in public too

usually relies on the i spy game

“i spy...a red object.”

“is it the stop sign?”

“okay jisung stop being so boring. i would think of something better than that.”

“but am i wrong?”

“...it’s your turn.”

whenever you guys cross the street he walks behind you and hugs you from behind and does this weird little step because of it

jisung is also smart and realizes that at crossing intersections..everyone is too busy waiting for the light to change and drivers are busy right?

so he concludes it’s the best spot to kiss you because like..who cares

it’s always just a cute quick peck...there was one time you guys were making out though

and it had been raining earlier right?

yeah this car sped past both of you and a puddle covered you both

ever since then you’re very reluctant on it

when anyone who might recognize either of you walks by he holds your hand to calm you down and just avoids looking up at the person

starts having picnics with you during the night at any park you can find

“so i heard you got asked your ideal type question.” jisung looks at you while chewing on a sandwich and you nod slowly

“i did,”

“how did you answer?”

“i told them i really like the youngest member most of the time.”

“aw, they’re gonna think you like jeongin. just make sure not to fall for him!”

he does this annoyingly sneaky thing where he slides his ring onto you when you aren’t paying attention

and you don’t realize until the next day when your stylists are working on you and question where it came from

“oh...it’s a fan gift.”

there’s this one time 3racha is working on a new song and chan is considering getting female vocals and immediately jisung suggests you

and changbin is like “ooh, jisung has a crush” and he’s completely unphased because..well...you guys are dating

but chan likes the idea and has you on the track

while you all work on writing your part and how to sing it his hand is holding yours under the table but neither of the other two notice

probably makes dozens of posts to any online forums that talk about him or you and firmly states reasons why you guys would be perfect for each other

fans down vote him to hell for being “delusional” but little do they know... lmao

once you’re in bed about to sleep after seeing each other he leaves you a text thanking you for spending the night with him and telling you how happy he is to have you in his life

it’s really laid back with jisung once he learns to embrace the idea and relax

in fact he’s grown fond of seeing how nice you look with the moonlight shining on you

and just being able to hear your voice and exchange sweet nothings with each other is enough to keep him trying his best to see you

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boyfriend yang jeongin • stray kids

genre: fluff

pairing: yang jeongin & you

word count: 1625 words

summary: dating jeongin and all the quirks/aspects of your relationship

notes: the final part of the boyfriend series with our energetic and hardworking jeongin! i’m so sad to finish this series omg...if any of you have any requests for another series please feel free to send it! (i’m also sorry for the delay i needed an emotional break after the most recent episode)

jeongin would work hard to be a good boyfriend! it would be his first serious relationship and he’d want to make it work out for both sides

at first he’d be a little shy and cautious about getting to know each other past friends

and due to this he has a hard time holding eye contact with you and gets flustered whenever it happens

he’s so used to stealing glances at you from when he had a crush on you so...being able to look at you freely is so foreign

“jeongin you don’t have to be so nervous, it’s okay. you got this.”

“i can’t help it! this is so much. you’re really cute and it’s hard to deal with.”

but as time passes he grows to be comfortable

forces himself to learn to look you in the eye for long periods of time and not stress when it happens...it’s cute really

he’ll have you sit across from him and just stare at you intently with his hands cupping his cheeks and he’s squinting

until he feels awkward again and sends you a little shy smile and a little finger heart awe

because he’s new to the whole concept of dating he’d try to take it slow and gentle! he’s learned all the unspoken rules of dating and tries to learn from them

it’s a pure kind of love where you both give and take the same amount of happiness and effort

his smiles are so genuine around you and he feels free to express himself as pleases and doesn’t focus on exaggerating how he feels to liven up the area

whenever he laughs or smiles and his braces peek through you get so happy it’s so wholesome and cute!! so exciting

“you should smile like that always!” and jeongin just holds his cheeks because he’s so happy it hurts

he pushes you to try new things together! he doesn’t mind having a set routine in the relationship but he wants to explore as much as possible with you and learn about what works between the two of you

“let’s try something new this saturday! we need to do something more exciting.”

really into skinship like a loooot and probably becomes accustomed to always having skin contact with you somehow whether it be by holding your hand or poking your face

he did this even before you guys dated but once it’s official it just becomes more frequent

he loves hugs and holding onto you the most!

he loves starting it and usually he’s the one clinging onto you and being affectionate but...he really likes it when you are too

dating jeongin means never being alone. do you have some work to do? are you eating? are you sleeping? no problem

he will quietly slip next to you and put his arms around you or rest his head against your back and hum patiently while waiting for you to become unoccupied

you both get so loud together...one moment you’re both play fighting with each other and the next you’re both singing and dancing to trot really awfully and off key

has no problem getting pouty with you to get what he wants but...you can’t resist (but that’s okay because when you do it too neither can he)

ALWAYS wants to take cute couple pictures...whether it be someone taking one of you guys or selfies he has so so many

and most of them are goofy or have cute little filters from snow but they’re still saved on your phone

you are his lock screen no matter what and when people notice and take his phone he’s like ‘NO GIVE IT BACK!’ and waves his arms around frantically because he’s shy

your mom adores him and like can you blame her?

“how’s jeongin sweetie?”

“he’s fine mom.”

“are you bringing him over anytime soon?”

“uhm i can bring him over soon. why do you like him so much?”

“because he’s so sweet and respectful. he’s a wonderful boy.”

oh and he’s sooo proud of it too, when you tell him about it he puts his hand over his heart and nods to himself in acknowledgement

your first date together is at the mall because where else is perfect for teenagers? 

he’s so excited and drags you along to lots of cute stores and makes sure to buy you a gift when you run out of money

constantly shoving things into your hands that he thinks would look nice on you and hyping you up about it

“try this on! it really suits you.”

takes you to the food court and you both eat a whole pizza by yourselves...young love = hunger

such a supportive sweetheart it doesn’t matter what problem you has he will sit down and help or listen

always suggesting things to help solve your problem no matter how long he’s been naming things because he refuses to give up until you feel better

there’s really no dramatic conflict to focus on...he’s still young and most of your conflicts are just exaggerated emotions or events affecting both of you

one little thing can become a full blown argument

it isn’t intense or anything but rather just two displeased people who are huffy and upset at their disagreements and become awkward because they don’t want to admit their right

he’ll be grumpy for a while and avoid you until he calms down but it usually stops in an hour

“psst...are you busy?”

“no, i’m not. is something wrong?”

“i just wanted to say i’m sorry for earlier. i miss you.”

when he’s by himself and he thinks about you he shoves his face into a pillow and screams

your first kiss isn’t necessarily on the lips...it’s on the cheek because jeongin is overthinking it and terrified of messing up

it’s after he walks you home from eating at the ice cream shop close to your house and leaves you at the front steps at your house

you can tell he’s nervous because he’s looking at his hands and when he hugs you before you go in he stops you

“wait! don’t go yet.”

and you just turn confused because maybe you forgot something?

jeongin gulps before leaning in carefully and pressing a cute little kiss to your cheeks and smiling

“okay, you can go now! goodnight. please take care.”

forces you to sit down and watch asmr videos with him and sends new videos to you at 4 am

“look at this aloe vera asmr i found, it is very soothing and i like how the sound of the plant being cut sounds...do you think an aloe vera plant costs a lot?

“jeongin?”

“huh?”

“it’s really late. please sleep.”

“well sheesh you’re no fun!”

always doing food challenges with you and loves watching your reactions to spicy or sour food

jeongin uses some of his allowance to buy you cute little plushies or candies

has no hesitation sharing anything of his with you, he firmly believes everything he owns is also partly yours

“i’m so tired today i just want to go home and sleep but i have so many chores to do.”

“i can help with that, don’t worry. your boyfriend is here to save the day.”

jeongin is still young and has insecurities that overpower his common sense...so he does get a little jealous at times

but his form of expressing it is different from being angry or petty, he just gets quiet and needs reassurance that you still like him

constantly grabbing your face and squishing your cheeks and just doing weird things to your face and laughing so much at it

“are you okay? you’ve been zoning out a lot today jeongin. if you’re tired we can take a nap.”

“no i’m fine, i was just thinking of something.”

“what was it about?”

“i was just thinking about how much i like you. i think i might love you, i’m sorry if it’s soon.”

you love his brothers so much! they’re so nice to you and his younger one is very curious about you and his older brother teases both of you a lot

woojin, minho, and chan alternate taking turns to give you guys rides to places to go on dates and it’s really sweet

also constantly convinces you to do the same skin treatments with him and you guys have those matching hairbands and its really cute but embarrassing

if you’re not around he has you on skype and at first you were both so worried about looking nice in front of each other but now you have no problem being lazy and ugly with the other

both of you fall asleep on skype and keep the call going because he likes to know you fell asleep and are resting and it makes him go to sleep feeling a lot calmer

probably texts you all day at school and gets in trouble for it but that doesn’t stop yang jeongin! nothing does (until they threaten to call chan lol)

whenever hes about to see you he records running up to you and your reaction and captions it with a bunch of heart emojis

always shares his lunch with you and eventually ends up bringing a second set of lunch for you to eat

one day you mention how much you liked borrowing his clothes and the next day he runs to your house with a box of old jackets and sweaters of his for you to wear

jeongin is just a sweetheart...his heart is so big and he has so much love and happiness to give you

it’s so much fun being with you and he feels like he has something to look forward to when he’s with you