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Not to be poor, but we're out of food and almost out of drink. If you can spare anything, even a dollar, that would be immensely helpful, moreso than you know.

I'm going to sleep now, so hopefully I'll wake up and be able to get food for breakfast come the morning 🥹 Thank you

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yo i summon thee, activate this once barren account

i’m alive thanks for the summon

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omg i have more reblogs on here than on most of my fics, everyone smile i’m putting this in my diary

when will people start reblogging fanfics? we may never know. 

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We should be able to rest. (Click this link to view it on TikTok where it is captioned. And where I can get more views since my profile and other videos are being put under review)

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I think we should grieve together

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when will people start reblogging fanfics? we may never know. 

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fyi to yall in quarantine whos grasp on reality is getting a little slippery: isolation, intense boredom, stress and lack of positive routine are absolutely contributing factors to exacerbating psychosis and psychosis-adjacent disorders, even latent ones. im not saying this to fearmonger im saying it so u can recognise it and take steps to handle it especially if it induces your first ever episode.

some warning signs can include

starting to believe unusual things that you previously did not believe (e.g. living in a simulation / you or others around you not being real / secretly being in hell or dead / otherworldly beings communicating with you somehow / government conspiracies / everyone around you is out to get you and harboring ill intent)

seeing things youre pretty sure arent there (e.g. shadow people, floating lights, stationary objects moving on their own, animals in a house that doesnt have pets)

hearing things (e.g. murmured voices, occasional clear and loud voices, faint music, scratching sounds, any without a source)

feeling a sense of dread or generalised paranoia, a sense that you are being watched or that something terrible is looming on the horizon but you dont know what

having extra trouble putting your thoughts in order and speaking coherently, cannot concentrate, space out to the point of feeling slightly catatonic

those most at risk are anyone with a family history of this vein of mental illness as well as those using certain drugs to get through the tedium of quarantine - if this is you, its best to research whether the substances youre using have documented links to triggering episodes of psychosis in users. weed is included in this, not just psychoactive drugs.

here are some steps you can take to get a handle on the situation if your grasp on reality is slipping like this and you cant access irl mental health resources.

have a routine. this is vitally important - you need structure. set an alarm for a specific time every day, even though you have nowhere to be. give yourself a bedtime. eat 2 meals a day, at least, at regular times.

leave the house. no, i dont mean Go Out, just be outside for a while every day or two. go for a walk if you can. stand outside your house for 15 minutes paying attention to the cars and the birds and the breeze and the clouds if you cant. really observe your surroundings. get sunlight.

on that note - let as much natural light into your house as possible during waking hours. your circadian rhythm needs it.

take up some form of hobby that requires physical engagement - whether thats journaling, drawing, making origami, gardening, cooking. the point of this is to ground yourself in your body and the world around you, have an affect on your surroundings, and stimulate your brain.

dont dwell on your delusions, hallucinations or distressing trains of thought if you can help it. that isnt to say "snap out of it and just dont have symptoms", but rather accept them without either judging them or overindulging in them. observe them as they happen, accept that they happen, and let it go, if you can. you may not be able to control the experiences, but you can control how you react to them, and the best case scenario is not allowing them to overwhelm your thoughts and your days. this is much easier said than done, especially if the experiences are distressing in nature, but the aim is to sever the feedback loop that causes further stress and thus further bad extrasensory experiences.

this is honestly just a basic surface scratch of advice though bc im by no means an expert, just someone w latent psychosis who used to work in the field for a while. there are tons of resources online by others who have experienced psychosis that can be a huge help if u think you might be at risk due to the stress, boredom and uncertainty of quarantine

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God he's so adorable 🥺

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JASONNN

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*Dr Doofenshmirtz Voice*- A Crocodile?

*Dr Doofenshmirtz*- LOKI THE CROCODILE!!??

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LOKI SERIES Episode 5

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When Mobius wakes up in the void his first thought goes back to Loki. He's not sure if Loki's got pruned as well but he doesn't want to take any chances. When he meets Sylvie there he knows for sure that his Loki is somewhere around. He never lets any negative thoughts about Loki's well-being settle inside his head. Even when Sylvie expresses her doubts, Mobius looks as determined as ever.

When Mobius sits down with the other Lokis and chats about various things he realises that he knows about a Loki more than he even thinks he does. His love for his Loki shows.

Parallel to that, Sylvie and Loki have a heart to heart about their familial bond and Mobius. Loki just smiles fondly when he thinks of Mobius. "He cares about you," Sylvie points out. And Loki, poor innocent Loki, who probably didn't dare to get his hopes up before to avoid heartbreak, remains silent. But his expressions and the way Sylvie smiles knowingly confess everything. He's in love with Mobius and Sylvie knows it too. Mobius is Loki's glorious purpose.

Loki gives Mobius the TemPad to ascertain his safety. He stays and is ready to do everything in his power to make sure that their plan works.

In a place full of pruned Lokis there's just one Mobius. They're meant to gravitate towards each other. They are and will always be each other's favourites.

The presence of the dagger, while they're hugging, is not a coincidence.

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au where i actually write

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“i don’t care,” i say, caringly, as i care deeply

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my dad–also a writer–came to visit, and i mentioned that the best thing to come out of the layoff is that i’m writing again. he asked what i was writing about, and i said what i always do: “oh, just fanfic,” which is code for “let’s not look at this too deeply because i’m basically just making action figures kiss in text form” and “this awkward follow-up question is exactly why i don’t call myself a writer in public.”

he said, “you have to stop doing that.”

“i know, i know,” because it’s even more embarrassing to be embarrassed about writing fanfic, considering how many posts i’ve reblogged in its defense.

but i misunderstood his original question: “fanfic is just the genre. i asked what you’re writing about.” 

i did the conversational equivalent of a spinning wheel cursor for at least a minute. i started peeling back the setting and the characters, the fic challenge and the specific episode the story jumps off from, and it was one of those slow-dawning light bulb moments. “i’m writing about loneliness, and who we are in the absence of purpose.”

as, i imagine, are a lot of people right now, who probably also don’t realize they’re writing an existential diary in the guise of getting television characters to fuck. 

“that’s what you’re writing. the rest is just how you get there, and how you get it out into the world. was richard iii really about richard the third? would shakespeare have gotten as many people to see it if it wasn’t a story they knew?”

so, my friends: what are you writing about?

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#bodyguard mode

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