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Yo it's been awhile tumblr I'm gonna try out writing my thoughts down because man I've been having a lot of them and no one to tell them too. Life's been crazy this past year. A lots happened and I'm just like "ahhh where did my life go?!" I turned 20, and I've been in a serious relationship for almost a year! I've gone through 6 jobs, four of them in the past months because I got fired at my awesome-job-with-a-not-so-awesome-owner. I'm currently freaking out about school, I have no clue what I want to go to school for... Actually to rephrase I have way to many things I want to go to school for and I don't want to put myself into crippling debt before I'm 25. I crave independence and am getting to a point where I just want to focus on my life and my priorities i.e. Getting into an intense and serious workout regimen, come home to my boyfriend in our own place, and not stress about not seeing my family or friends enough because I've been seeing them a long time and I just want to get myself to a mental state where I'm at peace with my appearance and actually feel like I'm being productive in my life. My thoughts are just crazy right now, my mind is busy all the time, and so am I! I'm constantly running from house to house to see my family, different sets who live on opposite ends of town, to making sure I'm spending time with my boyfriend and then trying to go to the gym plus working, like ah ?!?? Where the me time? It's no where! Plus I need to get serious about my future because I don't want to just work as a barista for the rest of my life. And I mentioned above that I crave stability when I'm still so dependent on my parents for things, I mean they pay my phone bill and I live rent free in there house while I pay $400 a month in school bills plus $200 a month in car insurance, not to mention my irresponsible spending habits when it comes to clothes, makeup and fake hair. Ugh so much to get off my mind meanwhile I'm trying to fall asleep feeling guilty about not going to the gym and also feeling guilty about not being able to get up the Glendale to see my mom sooner then Saturday, plus I just read an article about how stress can prevent you from loosing fat in your stomach area so that's great too... Don't get my wrong my life is great in so many ways! I just wish there was more time in the day I guess. P.S. That's my butt??? It's completely irrelevant to this post.

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Sharon Tate photographed in her apartment, 1965.

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Been super productive the past couple days, cleaned my car and my room and took care of a bunch of stuff I had been neglecting I was so proud of myself and really happy! and now I'm done with it all sitting alone in my room I worked all day to decorate and I still feel empty, sad and worthless

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marla moon

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Dolce & Gabbana F/W 2013

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these my colors

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When you catch them tryna take pics 🍑🍑🍑

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45 Places to Buy Lingerie Online

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"I, a big wrinkle, made all of these smaller wrinkles"

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Speaking of pretty flowers, may I present to you the “Eighteen Scholars”, the flower of my heart-a variation of Camellia japonica L. Its uniqueness lies in the layers and layers of petals-one flower can hold as much as 130 petals.

Named “Eighteen Scholars” in Chinese because at the most, one bush can have up to eighteen of these pretty darlings :3

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This is such a weird picture I just took

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Look at this cool ass picture of my soy latte and acid wash jeans

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Why vegans should use honey instead of agave nectar

Okay, so I might get a lot of hate for this, I might not. I don’t particularly care either way, as long as word gets out about this, because it’s extremely important to me.

As I’m sure most people know by now, bees are disappearing at alarming rates. Simply put, our entire species could not survive without them. This is due to a syndrome called Colony Collapse Disorder (CCD).

Many vegans opt to use agave nectar instead of honey, because agave nectar is plant based. But harvesting of agave nectar is threatening the existence of two other endangered species: Mexican long-nosed bats (who live strictly off of nectars - primarily agave nectar) and the Jaguarundi (a solitary feline who basically looks like a love child between a jungle cat and a ferret.) Approximately 113,126 acres of these animals’ habitat were destroyed from 1991 to 2000, and more has been destroyed since.

On the other hand, beekeepers are essential to increasing bee populations. They monitor the bees’ health and help protect them from dangerous parasites and pesticides that are suspected to cause CCD. In addition, well-kept bees never need to use the amount of honey they produce; Honey is made by the bees to consume only when there is not enough food for them outside the hive. In the care of a good beekeeper, this will only happen during the winter months, and the keeper will leave enough honey for the bees to thrive until it’s spring again.

It’s best to buy local, organic honey if at all possible. Local beekeepers will not use dangerous factory-farming methods, and it helps maintain your local bee population! If you want to help bees in a more active way than buying local honey, you can plant a bee garden or even become a small-scale beekeeper! (I don’t have a link for this, it’s best to check out local resources. Maybe even ask the person selling honey at your farmer’s market!)

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You're so pretty how are you even real

you are sweet, how are you real!

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sooo am i rocking these hoops or am i rocking these hoops?

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Daniel Meyer