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headcanons about my fav characters currently because fuck you

(tw for mention of sa)

March (fields of mistria)

- has bpd and working with valen to develop basically the equivalent of a mood stabiliser, but self medicates with alcohol when he's very disregulated

- very severe trust issues, even with those he's already close with. because of this it took a long time for him to have any meaningful relationships as a teenager because he pushed EVERYONE away.

- he covers his self worth issues with being egotistical. seeks validation of his talent and skills from others because behind closed doors, he feels like he is still inferior

- he and olric fought alot when they were kids, but after the incident with their parents he became incredibly protective of olric. them being forced to bond over the trauma eventually led to them becoming much closer, especially after olric stopped mining.

- in a long term relationship with ryis, but also very platonically close with reina

Hagumi (bandori)

- forces herself to be constantly bubbly even when she's feeling down because she believes showing other emotions makes her weak, and her friends rely on her being bright and happy

- feels like her true calling was sports, but the pressure from her family made her believe she couldn't. she isn't displeased with harohapi, but she feels like if not for them she would have kept pursuing a professional sports career

- has tons of identity issues, even including with her gender. being told that her hobbies are too manly for her to enjoy creates tons of issues for her. when she was a young teenager she socially transitioned for a few weeks, but realised it was not what she wanted and detransitoned.

- she feels a bit of jealousy for her brother and how he is allowed to express himself with less expectations placed upon him

- she feels shame for being affectionate because of how much she's been told it's not lady-like, and it makes her feel like she needs to reject her feminity

- dating kokoro!!

Gorgug (d20: fantasy high)

- very repressed bisexual. EXTREME comphet to the point that when he is dating a woman, he will call it a straight relationship

- "I low-key might be nonbinary but I have a job so idc rn"

- because of porter and daybreak, whenever he takes part in expressing himself in a masculine way, he feels like it's deeply wrong. he enjoys doing "bro" things, but at times gets uncomfortable because he associates masculinity with those awful role models. but ragh and fabian often reassure and comfort him and give assurance

- him and kristen are very close, and he feels like she's the only person that can understand fully what they've been through together.

- adaine, riz and him enjoy having philosophical or otherwise intelligent conversations together. he likes being able to confide in them about his academics when he needs help too

- he taught adaine and riz how to use tinkerers tools so that they can assist him in his artificer activities. they don't get stuff to the level he does, but sometimes it's good to just have extra sets of hands of people who can rationalize how he uses magic.

- ragh and fabian often take him out on different activities to help improve his self confidence and social skills. he finds it's easier to express healthy masculinity when he's around them

- he likes third wheeling with fig and ayda because he gets to let himself be treated to things and be pampered sometimes. ayda is very insistent on including gorgug often, sometimes the three of them have a cuddle pile together.

- he enjoys talking with ayda and adaine about the pressures of being 'a wizard'

- even if a little strange, he sees ragh as a big brother figure

- eventually he learns to be less repressed about his sexuality and expressing it healthily, and he is very open about his relationship with his parents

- dating fabian and mary ann skuttle

Fjord (critical role c2)

- used to be absolutely terrified of being seen as a monster, but although he won't admit it, jester contributed very positively to his self image

- still has nightmares of uk'otoa, but very soon into each nightmare the wildmother takes over and shifts it into a restful, serene dream

- still has a lot of lingering anger towards vandran, but tries his best to let it go and forgive

- he is beau and yasha's biggest supporter, even more than veth. they are his emotional support lesbian besties

- has had several flings in the past, even including caleb and molly. but when he realised he liked jester, he stopped nearly completely (besides Avantika, but it wasn't completely consensual so it does not count)

- gets occasional panic attacks. kingsley and jester help him a lot with them

- whenever he feels angry in any way it usually leads to a panic attack because he's absolutely terrified of fulfilling the stereotype and being violent. nobody believes he is even capable of doing that to someone he cares about, but he fails to realise his own actual temperament at times

- jester is his wife <3

Gale (bg3)

- has a lot of sexual and romantic trauma that leads to all sorts of problems holding any relationships

- takes confidence in his vocabulary, but sometimes uses fancy words as a crutch to twist meaning and deceive people

- his hunger for power stems from needing to feel control. he's spent so long not being able to control anything, even his own destiny. this is the same reason for his self sacrificing instincts

- he's THE bisexual ever. will openly talk about his interest in someone sexually, and not quietly. to everyone's emberassment.

- has a deep love for sea food

- he enjoys gossiping with minthara and astarion

- got wyll to teach him how to properly dance, but still opts to be super awkward with anyone else

- when he's feeling overwhelmed and stressed, he gets halsin to lead him through meditative exercizes

- trying to pursue a relationship with astarion, but it's going very very slowly so they have lots of room to communicate and explore how their traumas affect the intricacies of the relationship

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shoutout to everyone who has scoliosis + bad posture resulting in appearing several inches shorter than they actually are.

I appear to be 5'7-5'9 dependent on how good my posture is in any given moment, but taking all things into consideration I should actually be more like 5'10-5'11, but I refuse to be nerfed in this way

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basically. the mcelroys are shitty players. their own campaigns are at times okay, and Griffin is a pretty good DM, but when they play with others their attitudes are apathetic at best.

ur telling me.

Brennan ran tiny heist

and him alongside lily du and jessica ross

played with the fucking McElroy's

ALL OF THE MCELROYS

WHAT THE FUCK I FEEL SO BAD

oh my god it really puts shit into perspective

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So-called "free thinkers" when their friend has to pee

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prev I cannot unsee it now. a thousand curses upon ye

you cannot look like THAT and make facial expressions like THIS and expect me not to COMBUST are you KIDDING me

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it's so silly to me when people are disappointed van isn't a lesbian. bro.. she can have a husband AND have had an old fling with marya. these things can coexist.. in bisexuality.

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and it makes absolutely no sense to you, because you can barely fathom having a relationship with anybody. and being told you are attractive is among the strangest things you have experienced through it all.

with all the shit going on in the series, it's easy to forget that one of shallan's men is gaz, the guy who was a dick to kaladin whilst he was running bridges. wonder if they ever ran into each other after the apocalypse began

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Rouxls is the one saying this because he’s the Deltarune CEO of throuples

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yeah.. completely different coping mechanisms, but very traumatised all the same.

also not even to mention you are her artistic muse most of the time??

with all the shit going on in the series, it's easy to forget that one of shallan's men is gaz, the guy who was a dick to kaladin whilst he was running bridges. wonder if they ever ran into each other after the apocalypse began

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for real!!! that would be so weird. like.. you meet this strange girl with a strange affliction with shoes. then you see her again and she's wooing the son of your boss. then your old shit hole boss works for her. what a weird time

with all the shit going on in the series, it's easy to forget that one of shallan's men is gaz, the guy who was a dick to kaladin whilst he was running bridges. wonder if they ever ran into each other after the apocalypse began

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iirc. can't remember what book, but Kaladin DID spot him and think it strange (it's such a faint recollection, they may have exchanged a couple words actually)

with all the shit going on in the series, it's easy to forget that one of shallan's men is gaz, the guy who was a dick to kaladin whilst he was running bridges. wonder if they ever ran into each other after the apocalypse began

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“I asked chatGPT” well I asked my friend Tao Yang and he is standing about 10 seconds away and is going to run at you screaming

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never to meet, forever apart

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shoutout to step-fandoms. fandoms by proxy.

being a part of a fandom, not actually, but because your mutual floods your feed with it.

having a strange appreciation for a fandom because your mutual feels so strongly about it.

not blocking the tags because although you don't care about the source material, it makes you happy to see others enjoy their interests

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* Won't you play again, Kris?

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Poorly drawn Shinx line

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taskmaster game changer crossover. the tumblr special